:: Bliss. Feelings. Wreck ::

Well, I had another accident, this time involving three cars - all cars were write offs. It was on the Maryborough/Hervey Bay Road/ Booral Road Intersection heading to work. I ran up the arse of another car, not my fault, pushing it into oncoming traffic. Not a pretty sight. A lady was trapped in her car(the one that I hit), and had minor injuries to her head and leg (as far as I know from the cops yesterday). The other car had a family in it from Geelong in Victoria, they weren't hurt, I had minor chest injuries from the seat belt and admitted to hospital. The force was the big that all the buttons on my shirt (about 5) all snapped into like 3 pieces. They did xrays and ECG and blood tests and stuff, but couldn't find anything wrong. Anyway, if you want to know more, just ask (not that I can remember much). That happened on the 14 June 2006.

Yesterday I was talking to one of the Solicitors that I work with and he gave me the worst case scenario. I could get up to a $3000 fine and lose my licence for a long period of time. He offered to come to the coppers with me. Went down at 5pm after work, didn't see the copper Megan until about 5:30pm she asked me all these questions and shit, when we were about to leave at around 6pm, Megan put her hand on my shoulder and said "Don't worry, by the looks of things you won't be charged or lose your licence due the road conditions and weather conditions and the turn off. The accident was an accident, it wasn't meant to happen, but I still have to hand the statement to a higher officer". I was so relieved. I didn't know what to do or say. I actually slept last night, but woke up with a really sore chest from sleeping on my stomach...

Anyway.
Bored at work!

Long time, no talk.
I was made to do this by Jason.
I love you Jason.

I'd like to make a special note in here to say 'Thankyou Jace heaps for the last few days, you've been great to me so I can talk and get things that are really bothering me off my chest'.

Some of you know, some of you don't, I have a boyfriend now, Ben. He is my baby, but some things have been troubling me about the relationship, trust mainly, but he has assured me that their is nothing to be worried about and that i'm being too paranoid and protective. I can't help it, it just happens, but i'm feeling really relieved now that we have talked about and thanks to Jace, got the courage to actually talk to Ben about things that i've never spoken to my boyfriend about before.

Umm, whats been happening? Nothing much at all. Working mainly. I don't even know when the last time was that I wrote an entry, what i've said or anything. I work from 8:30 - 5pm everyday, Monday to Friday, and then usually every weekend i'm at Ben's. Napping!, got to love those naps. lol - code for sex if you didn't work that one out. lol =)

Last weekend (the one just gone) was the first weekend that I have stayed home in weeks. I've been on Brisbane shopping trips, nothing and nothing, just Ben's. So exciting I know.

Show weekend - that was the 26th, 27th, 28th (I think) I went to my beach house with a couple of mates, and Ben. Friday night was awesome, I was so pissed, what a change, lol. Saturday was shit, because Ben left me, he thought I was shitty at him when I wasn't, and I thought he was shitty at me, whcih he wasn't, so it was very mixed up afternoon/night for both of us.

Yeah anyway, on Sunday I left the beach about 2pm, on my way home on a 12km gravel road, lost control because of a 4wd and caravan coming around the corner in the middle of the road, I had to get off the road into loose gravel, lost control, and ended up doing a 360 in the middle of the road and the side swiping down into ditch heading sideways for trees. If I had of been going like another 5 - 10km faster I would have hit the trees.

I turned myself around and started driving again, after being very shaken up. I looked in my rear view mirrow saw that my TV was upside on the otherside of the car, so I pulled over fixed it up and heard SHHHHHH, so I had a look at my tyre was going flat. Called my aunt and uncle and kane who had gone down to the beach to go motorbike riding, they came out and fixed my tyres, while I was on the phone to them I realised that my front tyre was dead flat. So yeah, they fixed them and my unlce had to then drive me home because I was too scared. So pretty fucking scary if you ask me and I only had to pay $5 to get my tyre fixed. So i'm really lucky.

What else can I talk about? Nothing, i'm so boring now. Nothing exciting happens anymore, the majority of my mates have gone, and yeah.

I'm still planning on moving out, so if anyone from M'boro wants to, let me know asap, so we can get the ball rolling. =)

I think I have spoken enough shit now, so i'll go now.

Thanks again Jace - love ya heaps!

How can I be fine ... I've just been fucked over by the people cloest to me ... My parents, mother in particular, my friends - who say the will call and don't and then try and make excuses to why they didn't.

I've fucked things up with the guy that I am really into ... as previously mentioned. I told him something that I have never told anyone in my life, something that has scared me for life. I'm scared! This guy he keeps me on my toes, but not after Saturday night, I don't know what to do now. Apparently all i'm good for is to have sex, and I don't want to be that girl. Maybe thats what I need to be - turn myself in, and go for the ride of my life.

I'm an emotional wreck ... AGAIN.

Fuck Fuck Fuck

I can't handle this shit anymore.

I'm so pissed off at everyone and everything.

The only person I can find to make me laugh and be happy
at the moment is the boy (such a fucking hottie) from
Rockhampton ... Daniel.

I'm fighting with my mum ... I hate her with everything
that I have left. I just don't even want to
come home anymore. I can't handle this stress
and fucking bullshit that everyone is putting me
under.

The Lies... The fucking people who can't organise
anything ... The people who leave out others even
when they are your best friend. I just hate it.

Okay, I think i'm done.

I'm calling on all ....


What are some good dance songs ...

I'm planning my 18th already ... Its going to be fucking awesome!

The girl next door is having her 18th tonight and i'm so jealous cuz i'm not there - i don't even know her but thats beside the point. lol

Please help me!!

((peace to ya all))

Oh My Gosh.

I can't believe I am still awake. I'm talking to this absolutely adorable guy on the net. He is from Rockhampton. Anyway, we've been going along great ... **doop de doop**
He wants to me to go up and see him, i'm not sure when, or how, but yeah - i'll get there one day.

My weekend was so boring.

Friday night Dad, my sister and her friend and I went down to Touch Footy. It was awesome. Watched Trent play - he's so goofy - but loveable. Anyway, we were coming home and dad jumped on his pushy like he does every other time, and the chain locked up and he stacked it. Straight over the handle bars and flat on his stomach in a star fish. It was the funniest thing ever. He even lost his beer, which made it a heap worse. :( Poor Daddy.

Came home ate Burito's that i'd cooked earlier.

Went on the net ... boring as usual.

Saturday did nothing ... woke up at bloody 10:00am or something to mum and dad not home like normal. They'd gone shopping. They are never home anymore. Saturday was boring. Went and bought some work shirts. Exciting stuff.
Saturday night - was as boring as all hell. I never realised thier is nothign to do at home on a Saturday night. No one is even online to talk to. Thats sad. I generally go out every Saturday night, or usually doing something, but not anymore.

Sunday - did nothing again.
Came online and talking to Daniel (the one previously mentioned). He is adorable ... Haven't I already said that?

And its well 3:17am, and I should really be going to bed, but I can't part this guy.

I have to work tomorrow. OMG. I hate work already and I haven't even started.

lol...

Night

Hello.

Jason this is for you...
Thanks for the lingerie too.
Love ya man!

Well, what can I say? Umm, nothing has been happening. I just sit on my arse at the computer and fix my photos up and shit.

Although, I did get a good phone call today ... I got a job. Carswell and Co Solicitors at Hervey Bay. I'm happy, but not. I don't think its really sunk in yet that I have finally got a job again. Money! YaY!

Anywayz, I'm so bored ...

I am booking my 18th Party now ... getting in early because another friend of mine, its her birthday too.
My party is on the 16 September 2006. Party doova at my house, and then we are moving to the pubs and clubs ... woot woot.

Umm.

Anyone who is bored ... Make a BEBO ... It's sorta like Lj, but you don't type, you put up heaps of photos, and be cool ... lol. As if any of you could be as cool as me ... =)

www.bebo.com
And then add me YOURASPINNA

Yeah, thats right!

Okayz ... Take care!

Love Ya Jace...
mwuh oOo xxC

I have not updated for so long ...
All the other updates have been, well, you know - slack.

I can't even remember when I last updated - hmm!

For the last 6 weeks (Dec 16 - Jan 20) I was working in Yeppoon, babysitting and in a Home Decor shop. It was great, I loved it so much. The kids pissed me off a little though - Nick - he was an annoying little shit who I could have killed. Anyway, Samantha was goregous - I could have brought her home with me.

I came home about 3 weeks ago (not quite) I dunno, and I haven't stopped perving on the guy next door - he is so HOT. Anyway, so much shit has been happening between me and a guy named Jamie. He thinks he is totally in love with me, well I got news for him, we were getting on okay, and then we started having the little bitch fights, and he's been talking to his friends about it all and drove me nuts, so I just started ignoring him. Its funny, but ridiculous. Everytime I go to do shopping with mum, I have to avoid him and hide, its crazy really. I feel bad, but I don't if you know what I mean. He shouldn't feel the way he does, especially not after like 6 weeks of talking to eachother (we didn't previously know eachother)- i'm kind of glad that I got rid of him, i'm as rough as guts, and need a guy who will support me in every direction. I want to live my younger days - go and explore, try new things while i'm young - i'm not following my parents foot steps. I want to do well for myself, make myself feel proud of what i'm doing.
My dream is to buy dad a HUGE boat
My dream is to buy mum a HOUSE on the beach in Sydney.
I have big expectations of what I want to do, I want to support my family in every way that I can, but I won't be able to if i'm stuck in this fucking boring place called Maryborough attached a guy, who doesn't suit my personality at all. He is very loving and caring guy - don't get me wrong - i like that - but we just are so not suited ... and thats final - some of my friends are pleased with my decision too which makes it even better. 'Cuz some girls and guys I know are going out with people who we do not like at all, and I don't want that happenign to me.

Okay where was I, Yes, i've come home, and applied for the Navy and have a testing day on March 9 - I'm not sure how well I will go, but we'll see - I'm not fit enough and i'm not smart enough for some of the questions they ask - they seem really hard. I'm applying for an Administration job at Ergon Energy, and I have been for two interviews at a Solicitors office in town here and I still haven't found out whehter I got the job or not. I am 1 in 3 - and I know one of the other girls. We have both given up hope on these bastards - they are so fucking slack, it was over 7 weeks ago that we went for our first interviews, and two weeks since I had my second one - you would have thought they'd let us know by now.

Grr, so i'm sitting at home on my fat arse doing nothing, getting fat, and getting more and more lazy and fatigued. The only highlight of my day is going for a 3km walk around the Park every day - thats it, thrilling hey!

Anyway, Nothing exciting has been happening, and I spose you are bored now reading all my shit.

Hi Chris - I haven't spoken to you for a while, or read your LJ, or anything - i'm not a very good one am I? Anyway, I hope everything is going good for you, especially being in the last year of school - woot woot - chat to you later!

Geez. I have missed out on so much stuff.

i spose thats what you get when your too lazy to update anymore.

Well I am in Yeppoon (about 30 min drive from Rockhampton) doing a baby sitting job for 5 weeks. Its pretty good. Money i suppose.

but yeah.

Have met a really great guy who i can't wait to see when I go home.
I miss him so much.

Anyhoos.
Schoolies was excellent.
umm yeah.
Nothing else to report.

Have fun guys.
Oh HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL

Yay...I am so close to getting out of this hole that it isnt funny.

It fucking sux that I will be moving one week before i finish school though. I can't believe it. fuck you dickheads.

Anyway, had a party last night, got really drunk, for like an hour and then i was all good. Hmm, Midori...Yummy.

I haven't got anything interesting to talk about.
I got my licence. Thats it.