virtual dog

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See, that’s what the app is perfect for.

Sounds perfect Wahhhh, I don’t wanna

When my friend’s grandmother passed away last year I went to her place and we talked until three in the morning about her grief, I hugged her, she cried until she couldn’t anymore, and I felt so close to her in that moment, I felt love. To have that same friend keep me at a distance now after my father’s death because my “energy is too negative” hurts so much I can’t really describe it.

I havent really had time to grieve at all both because theres so much expected of me in terms of responsabilities surrounding the situation and because i just have no one i can be that vulnerable with the few people who I thought would be okay with it have declined I've asked. I asked them for a place to crash so I could cry a little. and it's been a constant stream of rejection i dont know whats wrong with me i talked to my cousin today. the one who has cancer. and i told her she shouldnt hold onto the idea of selling the house to me because no one in my family wants to lend me money and i have nothing to my name not even for credit she was sad and told me she has been keeping the sale secret because she doesnt want to evict me and I just told her to go ahead and sell it. take care of herself. especially because another cousin wants and can buy i just told her shes gotta prioritize herself and that I'll be okay truth is I plan to kill myself sometime after this whole deal's done mati barks i just dont want to leave threads hanging for anyone else

having a tough time today. i just feel so frustrated with how much I could do with my life if I had any sort of support or encouragement.

i wish i could be not in survival mode i want to live a better life so badly. i give it my 100% and more yet nothing ever improves. saw my cousin today and she was like aw mati you should be living abroad this place is not for you. you're wasting away here. and like she meant it as a compliment but i really resent how much i stick out here and how much im missing out on because i have no money or support like yeah i could be happy. i could surround myself with people who understand me. i could change people's lives and i could make the world a better place and i could even be loved but im somewhere where everyone thinks im too weird and offputting and im getting old enough that no one wants to try and help me anymore it feels like it's over im so tired there's just no reward for anything. this is it. this is my lot.