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there are days where it is very hard to get up in the morning. not physically - though it sometimes feels like it - just mentally. sometimes emotionally. point is: there is very little motivation to start the morning up aside from the financial aspect. you know, since i like crazy little things like eating and having a roof over my head. but i eventually crawl out of bed (after two snoozes, which i'm sure the husband hates) and start my daily routine*: brush, shower, dress, grab my lunch, and drive off. the highlight of my morning is usually around the time i've parked and start walking into the office when my daily thought email from realsimple.com comes through. sometimes it doesn't take a lot to make me happy. ...though there are some days when these emails are more thought provoking than others. there are also days where the daily thought contradicts the day prior, but i guess i can live with that.

"choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life." -- confucius

and obviously that is something that i think about and that we are working on, what with the whole idea of a husband and wife catering duo. no additional jobs coming in yet, but we're making progress. he's already taken his safeserv test (i need to do mine soon), we've looked at some equipment that we'd potentially like to invest in (far in the future), and he's created invoices for future work (which are in duplicate!). i think we've even done a good job of not getting too far ahead of ourselves and so overwhelmed that we give up. capsize. though, i think we've thought far enough ahead to figure out how much needs to get done before we "never have to work a day in your life" like our friend confucius says. as much as i like to be dreamer, i am also quite realistic.

"success comes before work only in the dictionary." -- anonymous

since "never working" will be a while, there will probably be many more difficult mornings and an even greater need for naps, but i do really try to remain positive calm. it just gets very difficult, if not tiring, having to deal with it all the time. just because you don't understand what i do doesn't mean i don't do anything. not liking me doesn't have to result in being unprofessional. hell, i don't like a lot of people and i know that a lot of people don't like me. we've all got opinions, but let's try to keep it cordial.

"opinions are like assholes. everybody's got one and everyone thinks everyone else's stinks."


*by the way, i've perfected this routine so i can sleep in as much as possible, leave the house looking halfway decent, and make it to work reasonably on time. goals. i'm not 100% proud of this.