The only person that runs my life is me and why i am getting myself involved in the wrong things it is beyond me. Live is a precious thing and we only live it once so live every day like it is your last. Fulfill your dreams to the fullest and don't forget to keep a smile on your face. Be proud of who you are and how far you've come. It's been a long journey and it is yet far from being over. Strive to be our best and do your best at everything you do. Don't forget to always be honest and tell someone what they mean to you. What is the least harm you could do? Lose them as a friend? In reality if they didn't accept your honesty then they weren't even a true friend to begin with. We all make mistakes and we can't go back and fix them. We can only learn from them and let them teach us our faults and guide us with further knowledge in this adventuring journey called life.
Everything may cause pain but you can't go through life living off of pain. There's no gain.
If you don't pick yourself up off of the ground, then why even be found? Sure you're friends and family can be there for support but the only person that is capable of getting up and taking the next step is you.
You are the person behind the strength, behind the body, no one else but you. You have to get up and start walking and when you do, SMILE, because you have taken the first step and saved yourself from pure insanity and pain.
Never ever give up hope, sure you may want to , but if you do, you will miss out on all the upcoming good things that will come in life.
Be patient, take a deep breath, relax, smile, and have fun.
Follow this, pick yourself up, and don't be left behind.
Okay, maybe not so crazy, but I have so many emotions running through my body, I don't know what exactly to say.
It has definitely had it's ups and downs, but the good things have over-ruled the not so good things, like arguing with my mother. That always sucks, but I guess that is normal.
Hmm, I believe in one of my previous entries I mentioned a guy.
To answer any questions: Yes, I am extremely happy...which is not really normal for me if you've known me for several years. It's different, but I am enjoying it. Being happy, isn't something I have been able to say for a long time and now I can and I hope it stays that way.
That's definitely change.
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Not sure what else to day without going in too much detail. Guess that's all.
So, I met this friend through my game..a few years ago. He was dating my friend Patti, but while he was with her we both still sort of had a crush on each other. Now here it is a few years later and they have split up. I being a friend has been here for him and we have both grown closer to each other. We both like each other a lot, to the point that we both think about each other all the time. We both just don't know what we want.
I don't want to be the rebound that doesn't work out, and he probably doesn't want to put me through that either.
I have been so careful of all of this, everything I have done, every thought, everything I say, I am cautious. Because I don't want to hurt myself again and I don't want to walk in to something without being completely honest. That and I don't want to hurt myself by jumping to conclusions.
Part of me inside, has thought about, I wonder where it could possibly take us. The other part is almost scared. Long-Distance Relationships never seem to work out for me, but for some odd reason I feel different than any other time I have done a online relationship.
Maybe it's because I've been trying my hardest to be honest with myself and with him the whole time? Maybe. But I know that we will work through it. Whatever happens, happens.
I can't keep going through life being scared of every single thing that's thrown my way, especially when there is potential happiness involved. I can't hold my self back or i'll probably end up a old cat lady. *sigh*
I don't want to be the girl that is 40 and alone. I won't be that girl that is 40 years old and alone.
I really like him and I'd probably be lying to myself if I said I didn't wanna see where it lead us, but that is something that time will only tell.
Everyone should read this if you grew up in the 1990's. It makes you miss the old times!!! We had so much fun, and who could ever realize we knew so much!
Well, apparently this was a blank post that I dubble clicked when I was trying to post the other one. Oh well.. ...
By the way.. I went to go get a book voucher.. computer said I didn't have one.. and i got a email saying my financial aid was going to be terminated.. WHAT THE HECK..... is what I thought.. I have a GPA higher than a 2.0 so I should be able to get financial aid, but I sure as hell am not going to go sit up there for 5 hours just to go back there and be in the office for 2 minutes.. That's bullcrap!
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