your dashboard is supposed to be at LEAST halfway full of shit you have no context for and fandoms you're not involved in. it is the natural way of the universe
i am the way i am because i think the music video for "alice" by erin lecount is actually the greatest piece of art ever created
ERIN LECOUNT for Notion Magazine (April 2026) | photographed by Radhika Muthanna (via notion and radhika.photos)
Hey, stop scrolling.
Everyone who is reading this: I’m so glad you’re alive. I’m so proud of you. You are loved. I’m here. Don’t give up, we’re almost there.
Pass it on.
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So now I've finished the 225k fic project I've been working on since early last year. Which means now all my other projects are like
I've got like three WIPs that I already posted to AO3 and then sort of abandoned, which I should probably get back to. Then I have my Big Bang idea for the next Big Bang. I also have this epic story that promises to be a billion words long, and few other things that have just been patiently sitting there waiting for me to finish something. How to choose?
So here's a poll that will likely not actually end up influencing me at all. lol.
Which writing project should work on next?
Finish Human Conditions (SG-1, Sam/Jack)
Get back to Break Upon Your Shore (Wangxian), you left it in a terrible place!
Finish next chapter of Mind the Gap (HP, Hinny)
Start working on that epic Wangxian prisoners whumpalooza fic
Just focus on your Big Bang fic! (wangxian)
Suck it up, write that omegaverse fic you're pretending doesn't exist (wangxian)
Work on that 'WWX comes out of the BM haunted by LWJ' fic
The ubiquitous post-canon wangxian fic you started and never finished
Something else that I'll comment with
Start a sequel to Tether (why would you do this to me)
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pick the one you need to hear the most, then reblog it to pass it on
you'll be alright. you're safe. it'll all be okay.
you are important. you matter.
it will get better. YOU will get better. it just takes time.
you are not unlovable. you are worthy of love.
you can put yourself first. it's okay to be selfish every now and then.
you don't have to shoulder your burdens alone.
i'm proud of who you've become.
you're not obligated to please everyone.
it's okay to be vulnerable. there's nothing wrong with crying.
your scars don't make you any less beautiful.
it wasn't your fault. you were a child.
i trust you.
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The truth is that I am learning a lesson right now. And this experience is too familiar. Aside from the few remaining friends and family I have in my life, there was another portion of people who reacted to my sickness in two different ways. The first decided it was too heavy and they didn’t even wanna touch it and they disappeared. The second was angry with me that I was too sick to TAKE from anymore so they were cruel to me instead. I was SO lonely. I went to treatment alone. So many times. I sat there wishing I would talk to someone or tell someone or ask for help. I just can’t help but feel like that’s happening all over again here, in this part of my life. I dedicated 12 years of my life to connecting with people and helping them. Thousands of people told me I “saved their life” and then I returned to those same people only to hear that they don’t care that I almost lost mine. What a reveal. I can’t explain in words the misery and suffering of those years. Hating myself and blaming myself for “ruining everything”. I worked so hard to be here and I had to stop because of something against my will. And now I’m back. And I know you don’t like the song and that’s okay because you don’t have to like everything I make. That’s not why I make it. I made it to tell my story. But what I can’t get past is the disconnect. You know what I learned yesterday? I learned that only 1% of my active fans have even bothered to listen to the song. But the conversation about me is SO loud and SO wicked and it’s coming from a MUCH larger percentage than that. So right now there’s millions of people who call themselves my fans who are just ripping into me, and barely any of them have even bothered to check out the song. It’s not about the music, it’s about me as a concept and as a projection for some of my fans to rip to shreds. But it’s not about the music anymore. And I can’t do this if it’s not about the music anymore. I’m too weak, I’m too fucking tired, and you’re right. I’m not who I used to be. I’m different now. Because I went through a life altering experience that almost killed me, and killed off some parts of me instead. I really thought returning to the thing I love would make me feel better but it doesn’t at all. And I’m SO sorry to those of you who are so kind and supportive and lovely and incredible and I wish I could hug you and thank you. But this is a mess. It’s a fucking mess. I’m gonna keep moving forward because I worked too hard on this album to walk away. But once it’s all said and done it might be said and done. I hope things get better and I can enjoy sharing this album with those of you who are left 🤍