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annabeth_rosesI'm either almost or am at word count for the month (I believe 6,370 is the goal, and I think I hit that this morning, though I haven't calculated the words for the day yet because it's still early), but I wanted to make a post because while I've made a bit of progress on my novel (though I wish it were more), I've also begun a M*A*S*H fic.
- it would be nice if I could bring myself to actually, you know, write the novel though (I wanna finish it this year!)
- the fic features a character so deeply closeted that he's been extremely homophobic to a character he perceives as gay. I'm having some conflicted feelings about this, because on the one hand it's the 1950s and even a closeted character who hates himself for his own latent gay tendencies might use incendiary, homophobic language, but on the other hand I'm worried about possible reception should I post. He's been both physically and emotionally abusive and I'm not sure the Epic Grovel he's going to have to do will redeem him.
At the moment this is academic since I haven't finished the fic, but I'm just sitting here thinking about how many words have gone into that fic instead of my novel and feeling... a weird mix of accomplished at the 4K or so of fic and slightly guilty at the less than 2K or so of novel writing I've done.
I mean, I know I should be proud of banging out over 3K words yesterday after so long without a day as productive as that, but I can't shake the feeling that I should have been applying those words to something else.
(Not that I think fanfic is worthless or anything, or that I think original fic is better. It's just that I set myself a goal for this year in large part to do one thing and I'm doing the other. Oops.)
- it would be nice if I could bring myself to actually, you know, write the novel though (I wanna finish it this year!)
- the fic features a character so deeply closeted that he's been extremely homophobic to a character he perceives as gay. I'm having some conflicted feelings about this, because on the one hand it's the 1950s and even a closeted character who hates himself for his own latent gay tendencies might use incendiary, homophobic language, but on the other hand I'm worried about possible reception should I post. He's been both physically and emotionally abusive and I'm not sure the Epic Grovel he's going to have to do will redeem him.
At the moment this is academic since I haven't finished the fic, but I'm just sitting here thinking about how many words have gone into that fic instead of my novel and feeling... a weird mix of accomplished at the 4K or so of fic and slightly guilty at the less than 2K or so of novel writing I've done.
I mean, I know I should be proud of banging out over 3K words yesterday after so long without a day as productive as that, but I can't shake the feeling that I should have been applying those words to something else.
(Not that I think fanfic is worthless or anything, or that I think original fic is better. It's just that I set myself a goal for this year in large part to do one thing and I'm doing the other. Oops.)
