Part 3 of TADC that hinted at or represented Jax as being trans that you might have missed.
Again, I'm just starting back up from where I left off.
If you look closely, you can see that the shadows are Ribbit, Kaufmo, and Pomni. The only people in the Circus Jax felt any semblance of closeness towards.
Her irrational fear is that they will laugh at her while they pry into her life. And we're given a visible representation of that as they peel the protective layer from her and she is unable to put it back on in front of them.
15. Mixed feelings/Wrong Signal
I was genuinely confused by this scene.
- Jax wanted Gangle's friendship and MAYBE had a crush on her.
- Jax softly bullies her to show affection. She does not reciprocate.
- Jax notices that Gangle is developing a relationship with Zooble. It somehow feels like a betrayal because Zooble is also Trans non-binary.
- Jealousy gets mixed in with the other confusing emotions. Jax begins to really bully her because she's angry and doesn't understand why.
- Jax's perception of Gangle is broken when she stands up to her. *She says 'NO' to being Jax's partner for teams. *She does not let Jax push her around in Spudsy's and takes charge. *She bullies Jax back with the maid outfit.
- Jax believes that Gangle is into "Gender Freaky" stuff (whatever that entails for her) and with Zooble gone, she'll turn to Jax as the next best option.
Which is NOT true in the slightest, but it's not my mind. Also, I'm probably completely off base.
(I deeply apologize if I misrepresented this moment. I know it contributes somehow, but I am at a disadvantage, as I am a trans man that has ONLY ever been in relationships with transmasc people/cisgender men.)
16. Jax - Ception (Episode 9)
Maid outfit Jax states she is wearing it 'ironically' to show how truly 'little' she cares. She also calls middle Jax an f-slur for saying she wouldn't be caught dead in it. Overcompensating - Especially after we all saw how she reacted to the maid outfit in real life.
They ALL scream at the chain locked door for making any noise after Pomni asks where the real Jax is.
And then we get this visual in the montage.
17. The Confession (Episode 9)
Jax explains to Ribbit what her biggest regret is. She mentions that her mother constantly compared her to her father after the divorce. And then she admits that she told her mother something extremely personal to get her mother to stop.
That deeply personal thing being Jax is Trans, so she feels nothing like her father.
She was laughed at, degraded, and insulted by the parent she trusted the most.
18. "Isn't she lovely? Less than one minute old." (Episode 9)
Ribbit immediately understood what Jax was implying. She clipped her bow tie to Jax's ear and told Jax her secret was safe with her.
The montage song is dedicated to this moment, where she was seen, accepted, and safe as herself for the first time.
And then the rose colored glasses were shattered when they were interrupted by Kaufmo - all under a minute.