So, like, does anyone feel older? Or just completely bored?
Even with a job, class, and an insane amount of books and art I feel like I'm doing nothing. [Though this is the first summer where I’m actually doing things at all.]
I don’t feel like I’ve really graduated or moved on yet. Maybe after orientation (I leave for Michigan tomorrow afternoon) I’ll feel different, but I’m really more scared than excited for anything.
Though, I am really looking forward to picking up a Haro keychain that says “I cannot accept! I cannot accept!” in wizzywig’s. *grins*
Hope you’re all having much more exciting summers than me :p
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I was feeling very Holden-esque this morning, and I thought: Why the hell am I going to college?
I mean, what do I want to accomplish? Why am I spending 4+ years studying things in the freezing cold... am I going away to ‘find myself’? o_o I’m pretty sure I’m right here..
Do I want to make a difference in the world? Is that even possible if I’m going to be a computer animator for video games; the biggest difference I’ll ever make is if some kid fails a test cause they were hypnotized by my graphics...
Am I going to get my “Mrs.”? Hahahaha, noooo.... but do I want to meet someone and consider marrying them? *shrugs* I’m not sure...
I mean, it just kills me, the fact that it could all be totally pointless. But then again, I’m looking forward to it cause I know I’ll grow. Possibly fatter. But in other ways too... I mean, I’m very naïve in some ways. I need to grow up already...
Not that I want to.
So what do you think? Why are you going to college, or seminary... are you just going cause that’s what you do when you graduate high school or is there a reason? Or does the whole thing make you confused and augh don’t make me thing about things!!
-_- sorry, I’m kinda hyper and I had to put an auggghh in there somewhere.....
