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So 2 weeks ago we got some snow. Not much, but it was enough to make me act like a little kid! :)

I have two homes: California and Hawai'i. I know that a very small, double occupancy room in a dormitory is nowhere near a "house" or "home", but it's my home. Calling it that, makes it more homier that saying my dorm... Simply because I'll spending 9 months living here. It's like renting an apartment. That's someone's home, even if they don't own it.

I have a close knit of friends, true friends. I made a huge move here, I knew no one, I didn't know the area (I'd only been to the Big Island), I had no idea how to pronounce a lot of Hawai'ian words... Yet now, it's different. We take care of each other, we support each other, and just have fun together.


These people are most of who are in my family.
This is part of what we do.
We sit in the hallway (that's circular, btw) and sing at 1am.
We talk. We listen. We hug. We kiss.
It's my home away from home.
My family away from family.
And I love them.

I don't like my history and math classes.
I'm not as skinny as I used to be.
I'm insecure about my body and looks.
I miss having a car.
I've had my heart broken.
I'm not made of money.
I live half an ocean and a 5 hour plane ride from those I love.

.....

But I love those I hold close to me.
My friends & family.

Because I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn. And we are led to those who help us most to grow if we let them, and we help them in return. Well, I don't know if I believe that's true, but I know I'm who I am today because of them.

it doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home

and sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

you take me in
no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness
that surrounds me
are you an angel
am I already that gone
I only hope
that I won't disappoint you
when I'm down here
on my knees

and sweet
sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

sweet
sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

and I don't understand
by the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall

I miss the little things
oh I miss everything

it doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I left behind me
is a cold room

K, so my birthday is coming up in a month. If anyone wanted to get me these, I'd love you.

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So I just heard the ENGLISH version of "Dragonstea Din Tei"

And I must say...







The Romanian version is MUCH better
LAME

I need money. College life is going to be expensive... It already is.
I only wish I could have an apartment or something.
I have suuuuuch a vision for what my first apartment will look like.
It's ridiculous.


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1. How tall are you?
5' 3.75"

2. When is the last time you stood up for yourself?
Probably sometime today...

3. Are you scared of heights?
Depends on what I'll be in/on

4. Tell us a tall tale:
you're cool

5. Wookie-hookie: Did you see the new Star Wars movie?
Midnight showing May 18th...duh