yesterday was the most changing day of my life in so many ways. allie if you are reading this i have to say i love you and email is slow lol. but that isent the only way my life changed. i also gave up drugs for good. they are a thin in the past stupid drugs
gerrrr i hate some one i know at this time they are incosideret naster demanding selfsentered and thinks that they are perfect. if you know who you are please for the time being dont talk to me im not happy with you right now and i dont want to do any thing i might regret later
thanks but i think i will revert to my way of doing thing. i will geth the answer and if i dont like it i will have to change her to see things my way. i hate things not going my way but i tried and it turns out i didnt like the resalts of well my old self is better for me i have had years to work on it. life suks when what you learn is not helpfull and that the one person that you truly have fealings for dosent even know you care.
im now in a bad mood and i just want to kill some one but what ever who F$cking cares about that and please dont bother the corect me nothing anyone will say can change my fealings at this time.
what the hell. it is like a gift from the hevens falls befor me but it turns out that is is corupt and sisnister given to me to destroy what hope i have in life. why the hell wond the elements of good and eveil leave me the hell alone. no one wants me hell is scared and heven wont take me. im going to die in a lonly life filled with hate and anguest.
when im done paying for what ever i have done i will die but who knows how long that will be i might be like this untill the end of time. so what ever death life what is the difference anyway?.
and so you know i figured it out and didnt like the answer she gave me. horid msn mesanger. every thing in life has a price some things cost alot like love and others you will never pay off. but one thing is true hate is the leader of love. if that wernt true love would always work and no one would love some one that wouldent love them back. life would be good i would die the end.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA im mad but i have learned to deal with it but i feal sory for any one who piss me off today. but in some way i knew that my love life would burn to ash like this so im not being hit as hard as i would. but then again only ones who can die will be permited to love.
why the hell do i have to pay it is like i have to pay for everything but what ever ihave etenity to pay for what ever i did to get my life torn to peices and scaterd all over time and space. i doute that anyone i care about in the maens of love will ever feal the same way.
but what ever why sould the unwanted care that their life is a peice of shit that cant get better. i get one good break and three bad ones. it is like walking on a inverces plate that will alter its polarity to hurt the one on it.
hmm good idea i have to say and i think that you might be right about that.
well i might take your advice, so i will keep you posted on how it goes i think i have one social event set up with her but it dosent have a time yet. so i have to sit around typing untill she sets one.
la la la now what to do in the time that i have. well now what to do.
i have been leading a new life so it is interesting. new fealing, not being filled with a blind of anger. you know how it is. it is hard sort of to change the way i have lived for most of my life but i am trying to do so.
so what to do i am trying to express my emotiond\s positivly but i dont want to break a good friend ship because she is not interested.(that would suck so much) (Reply to this)
there is a girl in one of my classes that i have a crush on but i dont think that she knows this. can any one help me on aprotching her for a date. we do know eachother but i dont know if she even likes men that way. so that is the problem. so what should i do. in my opinion she is the best cute kind interesting. but im wouried about our friendship i dont want it messed up because i ask her out and she says no and so feals guilt about it and then wants nothing to do with me.
so please help me out i have not a clue what to do all thoughts will be apresheated,.
