Darling your head's not right

dreamt something weird but couldn't remeber at first. then i realised that i dreamt of pete doherty. then i realised that i dreamt that i was carlos and me and pete were ~intimate~. LOL. good times. it made my day really. And when i listen to France and carl says "this is a song called france" (although in mumblish tbh) i giggled. i am fangirl and i squee.

so tonight is eurovision, the grand final! wootoot. normally not into the music that's on there, but this year i'm hanging with friends and we're gonna drink wine. also, there is a drinking game: every time there's an explosion och fireworks on the stage we'll drink. and everytime there's a wardrobe change etc etc etc. imma get ma drinkin on!

i'm going to stop reading the news. it's so depressing to be conscious of the what goes on in the world. stage 1 of me becoming a madman. Madwoman really. i just can't. it breaks my heart to see all this nonsense. although i've always liked the word nonsense, it seems pleasant. yes, a nonsense woman, that will be the new me.

now i'm off to do my makeup. and google carlos ass. love dat ass. DAT ASS!

i feel so embarassed when i read old entries that i've posted. even reading this like in a minute. it's so awkward to me. i can only read it as i'm writing otherwise i feel so dorky. maybe i'm my own voyeur? i squirm, it's weird. live in the now? to personal, check out all the personal lyuggage at the door? it's a mystery. blogs. ha!

it feels weird that sweden, usually considered the home of winter, hasn't had much snow. when the rest of europe had masses of snow sweden was just cold and boring. not in spring but not in in winter, just the most boring phase in between. or so one would have thought. but now sweden too is having her fair share of snow. and it's good. me and my sister and mother had a snowfight. but then i hurt my knee when i was rolling down a hill. it hurts! i put some tiger balm on it when i got home. my knee has swollen and looks gross, but it's not broken or anything. just painful enough to complain.

i should really be starting on my essay. i'm gonna wirte about veronica mars so i should be excited, but i'm not really. it's difficult and i don't know what exactly i'm supposed to write. i'll give my professors something and hope for the best.

and then of course is the huge essay. i'm gonna do some research on dream sequnces in movies and compare them. but so far i only have one case study, science of sleep. it's my favourite movie.

on sunday it's the oscars! yay! i'm superexcited! i'm going to gothenburg to watch it with my friends from film studies. it's obvious isn't it? i'm lucky cause i don't have school on monday. i can't wait to see the red carpet!!!!!!!! and plan my own acceptance speech!

i feel like writing again. but haven't got very much to write about.

today me and a friend went to the gothenburg botanical garden to see an exhibition on exotic fruits, including such gems as limequats, sweetie (I CAN RELATE!) and tiny papayas. there were also some weirdo fruits that may or may not be real. they could fool me.

and theeeen. i ate a croissant-like food creation. which was wonderful. it was a sandwich but the bread was like a croissant! you can't tell i'm not from the city, can you? ha ha ha ha ha.

and it was sunny today!!!!!!!! marvellous! i like sunshine very much especially when it's cold cause it makes things a bit easier to cope with. i can't have a clouded mood when there is sun outside.

and i like yellow cause it's like sunshine. and pineapples too. i like the sun.

haven't written anything in a while, cause quite frankly haven't even bothered to hang around on lj. instead, have enjoyed the lovely weather (sunshine in sweden equals miracle!), been stressed as fuck with school and non-existent job opportunities and driver's licence ans shit. bah. 

i found a GORGEOUS song on myaspace the other day, For the sun by Amanda Jenssen, who came in second place in the Swedish Idol this year. or was it last year? idk, i so don't watch it. http://profile.myspace.com/index.c…, here's her myspace. it's ASSgreat (that's a good thing)!!!!!!!!!

I could write for hours on end about my insecurites and fears concerning graduation and especially the life AFTER school. but i don't wanna get me down now. i'll write about it later when i feel like i need to get it out of my system. now i'm pretty happy actually, and i'd like to keep it that way.

btw, i'm moving this summer! i'll still be living w/ my family cos we're all moving to the other end of this town, not so far but mum and dad have got jobs here and it's actually a really nice town. rock n' rollhättan! 

i watched Lost in translation the other week, and it was good. non great, except when they played Just like honey. without it i would've forgotten the movie completely, but TJ&MC saved it. and i'm glad. it was good and made me remeber the song. yay.

it really has been a while since i hung out on eljay. i've fallen head over heels for youtube again. it's so badass. while myspace kinda sucks now. anyyyyway....
1. on wednesday and thursday i have to go thorugh some test to get my driver's licence. if i don't fail which i'm counting on. cos then i won't be disappointed if i do. clever!
2. i have SHITLOADS of homework now, in addition to fuckoff huge project that is due in three weeks or less. Fuck.
3. I'm actually considering moving to Stockholm. yuck. i normally don't like that city but somehow it just feels like i'm supposed to be there. how very peter petrelli of me.
4. i'm also considering taking a student's loan so taht i can study somewhere else than here. maybe i could combine that with sthlm. i am reluctant to loaning money cos what if i end up bankrupt. oopsie. what if i can't get a job? the future is spooky.
5. swedish comedians are so so so funny. they kill me. especially this one adorable guy, björn gustafsson. he's 22 years old and already huge. all the young teenage girls are crushing on him. it's them vs. me. LOL!
6. i need to write a speech for my swedish course. it's due on wedensday next week and i haven't even started yet! thing i, i'm actually on a break for a week from school and i know myself well enough to say that i won't be doing my homewrok at all. i don't know what to write about though.
7. i won two tickets to a circus! i'm bringing one of my cousins, though i haven't asked her yet. i wonder if her parents will let me pay for popcorn or if they give me money. fingers crossed i get it big time!
8. lists are nice.

Next on the agenda is a formal adieu. Adieu!

Happy birthday me! i turn 19 today! which isn't really so....much. it's not as important as either 18 or 20 (when you get to buy booze in sweden, legally) but still, it's a birthday and it's worth celebrating! 

i got a lot of presents, all of which i love! i got some films like disturbia and transformers, some books, a guide to prague, a shopaholic ties the knot, a thriller and a guide to 1001 movies to watch before you die. and i got jewellery, earrings, necklaces and even more earrings. and my friend gave me a handbag which is really really lovely. and of course i got lots of money. good, cos i'll need it for my driver's license. 

a revoir dear friends.

i've decided to do prom on a budget. i bought my prom dress for 179.50 swedish kronor, which equals £14 or less than $29. And i'll wear the shoes my sister wore last year, and if i can, i'll make my own tiara. i just need a scarf, some more jewelry and also i need to pay someone for letting me and my prom date use her car. elegant!

i love this song and i'd love to have it on my class' mixtape taht we're doing for graduation, but i'm afraid they'll fall asleep listening to it. although, it's great with a softer song. 

the song was used in a levi's ad starring gael garcia bernal. he is so hot. yummy jeans.

today is a day that will go down in history as the day that I decided what to do after graduation! I will study Intercultural studies: Literature, film and culture! and it's here, in my town! which is both a good and bad thing; i would like to move away from home and be independent but it's expensive and i'm poor. so this will be good. awesome! and this is something that i feel like i wanna do too, not just something that i'll get into cos i can't find anything better. now i won't settle. wohoooo. the bad thing though is that it's only one course. it's not a complete education. and it's half speed, but that's okay, it might give me time to work in case i manage to get a job, and think about and plan what i'm gonna do next. it's a soft start. i feel really glad now that my break from school finally is here and that i might have found my future. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH nice!

TOMORROW IS TE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL THIS YEAR and i'm so fucking happy i don't know what to do with myself! i've had so much anxiety this year. not like real anxiety, même bien, but it's been a real pain in the arse and i've had to drag myself to school everyday knowing that i'll come home 8 hours later with a splitting headache. but no more this year! two, almost three weeks of NO SCHOOL!

and thank you so so soooooo much flaaa_blah for your lovely Xmas card, i promise i'll send you one next year. Merry christmas to you too![Unknown LJ tag]