**Life Goals**
(in no particular order)
1. Travel the world!
more specifically- Greece, Bhutan/Tibet/Nepal, Italy, Thailand, Galapagos Islands,
Morocco, Ireland, Norway, Germany, Spain, Egypt, Brazil, Guatemala,
Grand Canyon, St. Louis arch, Indonesia, Israel, Iceland, New Zealand, India,
Turkey, Japan, Vietnam, Korea, Cambodia, Moscow
2. Go on a road trip with no pre-determined destination
3. Build my own home
4. Quit smoking
5. love my job
6. make art
7. get a masters degree (maybe I should make that graduate college first)
8. be in a long term, stable, normal, happy relationship
9. visit all 50 states
10. Have kids
11. have a rose garden
12. own a new car one day
13. learn sign language
14. meditate every day
15. learn how to drive stick-shift
16. live in a foreign country
17. mud wrestle (I know, sounds silly, but I want to)
18. Roller-skate on a California boardwalk
19. learn to surf
20. go hunting, and maybe even get something
21. Celebrate my 50th anniversary
22. go to mardi gras
23. not be afraid to ride a horse anymore
24. go on a archeological dig
25. Visit the world's tallest waterfall
26. Stop biting my nails
A post about Breasts
Cross-posted sorta, to BreastCancer community
I didn't know where else to talk about this, none of my friends seem to be going through anything similar.
I am getting my BRAC testing done, I don't know how to go about it, but I am going to make it happen somehow. My mother had breast cancer twice, the first time before she was 30 yrs old, and the second time before she was 50. Both my grandmothers had it, 3 out of 6 of my aunts (outta both sides) have had it, and the only reason one didn't is she died quite young. The other one has had ovarian cancer. The third doesn't have the gene. Hell, even my step-mother had breast cancer, and her mother before her! I have always assumed I would get breast cancer. I am still fairly sure of it, but I really want the test, just to give me a sense of peace, but I'm not sure it will. What is it comes back positive? The worst of it is, I am soon going to lose my health insurance. If it comes back positive, what am I to do? Without insurance I'll have no options. Also, I really want to breast feed my future children. I've googled whether or not you can breast feed without mammary tissue, but have never gotten a real response. Does anyone know? I keep thinking if I am diagnosed with BRAC I do want to get my boobies removed & reconstructed, but it scares the hell outta me too. When my mother got her second breast removed and reconstructed she went through years of pain, as she didn't heal well. That was an awful time for her, and me. Here she is, just having lost her last breast to cancer again (and she had beautiful, full breasts, it was always the one thing that made her feel like a woman, see, my mother has been 6'2 since middle school, with no hips, which wasn't considered very feminine in the 50's and 60's), it was supposed to get easier after that, but it was a painful painful experience. I am just rambling, but I guess I wanted to hear from other gals that were possibly in the same position as me. I check a lot of the websites, Bright Pink, FORCE, etc, but you can't really communicate with the other women. And my mother just tells me not to be so negative, and otherwise refuses to talk about breast cancer, so won't even buy anything with the pink ribbon on it. So here I am, rambling to strangers, hoping to not feel so alone in my fears. Thanks for listening ya'll.
<> So I just posted that moments ago. I really do feel rather lost, and I hate it, I hate that I have so much fear in my life, and that, even after getting this life changing test, it may not bring me any real comfort, I mean, I am 26 yrs old, my mother was only three years older when she first got cancer. Boo... Anyways, just wanted to post in my own journal as well. <>
I didn't know where else to talk about this, none of my friends seem to be going through anything similar.
I am getting my BRAC testing done, I don't know how to go about it, but I am going to make it happen somehow. My mother had breast cancer twice, the first time before she was 30 yrs old, and the second time before she was 50. Both my grandmothers had it, 3 out of 6 of my aunts (outta both sides) have had it, and the only reason one didn't is she died quite young. The other one has had ovarian cancer. The third doesn't have the gene. Hell, even my step-mother had breast cancer, and her mother before her! I have always assumed I would get breast cancer. I am still fairly sure of it, but I really want the test, just to give me a sense of peace, but I'm not sure it will. What is it comes back positive? The worst of it is, I am soon going to lose my health insurance. If it comes back positive, what am I to do? Without insurance I'll have no options. Also, I really want to breast feed my future children. I've googled whether or not you can breast feed without mammary tissue, but have never gotten a real response. Does anyone know? I keep thinking if I am diagnosed with BRAC I do want to get my boobies removed & reconstructed, but it scares the hell outta me too. When my mother got her second breast removed and reconstructed she went through years of pain, as she didn't heal well. That was an awful time for her, and me. Here she is, just having lost her last breast to cancer again (and she had beautiful, full breasts, it was always the one thing that made her feel like a woman, see, my mother has been 6'2 since middle school, with no hips, which wasn't considered very feminine in the 50's and 60's), it was supposed to get easier after that, but it was a painful painful experience. I am just rambling, but I guess I wanted to hear from other gals that were possibly in the same position as me. I check a lot of the websites, Bright Pink, FORCE, etc, but you can't really communicate with the other women. And my mother just tells me not to be so negative, and otherwise refuses to talk about breast cancer, so won't even buy anything with the pink ribbon on it. So here I am, rambling to strangers, hoping to not feel so alone in my fears. Thanks for listening ya'll.
<> So I just posted that moments ago. I really do feel rather lost, and I hate it, I hate that I have so much fear in my life, and that, even after getting this life changing test, it may not bring me any real comfort, I mean, I am 26 yrs old, my mother was only three years older when she first got cancer. Boo... Anyways, just wanted to post in my own journal as well. <>
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Attention Alaskans!
So, this is from my sister (the big time writer who lives in NYC now)... She is looking for input from Alaskans... So I have included her request e-mail... I'd really appreciate it if anyone who felt like it would leave a comment, or if you feel like being more anonymous, message me. It would be great! Thank you!
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Livejournal for Myspace!
RIP Nick Sorum
June 29, 1986 – May 22, 2008
Fishing with the fam
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Nick's Eulogy, written by his mother, posted on his father's blog
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Missing Girl in Denver!!!!!
A 14-year-old girl with bipolar disorder is missing, and the Arapahoe County Sheriff's Department is seeking the public's help to find her.
Michelle Jung, who turned 14 last week, was last seen at Hampden Academy, 14301 E. Hampden Ave., at 1 p.m. Monday.
She was believed to be headed home from the school.
Michelle is in need of her medication, sheriff's deputies said.
She is 5 feet tall and weighs about 120 pounds. She has black hair and brown eyes, and was wearing a gray jacket and blue jeans.
Anyone with information should call 303-795-4711.
For a friend... Missing, possibly in Japan...
Her name is Skye Lynn Budnick
5'6
180
brown hair
blue eyes
she was last seen Monday night March 31
we checked her email and she had purchased a one way ticket to Japan,
She loves everything that has to do with the japanese culture,
She never told any friends or family about this trip, but she has been very depressed, and has always said that she wanted to leave to go to Japan and just kill herself there.
Thats what we think she is going to do, or has done already.
A missing person report has been filed, her school has been contacted, her friends have been notified, and calls have been non stop just trying to find her.
I'm posting this, cause I dont think the word can get out there fast enough, Her Itinerary said she was going to Japan, stops in Tokyo and then there is another flight afterwards that goes to Sapparro.
She doesnt have a cell phone, she didnt pack any belongings, she took her laptop that is all we know, she has her email address which is sephysky@hotmail.com and we have been emailing her.
She is 21, legal age, and there are less things that can be done at this point, but she is not mentally stable, there was a suicide note found in her email saved as a draft waiting to be sent to a friend.
She is suicidal and she needs help.
If anyone has any info you can email me at maygen07@hotmail.com or meganminus@gmail.com
PLEASE REPOST
5'6
180
brown hair
blue eyes
she was last seen Monday night March 31
we checked her email and she had purchased a one way ticket to Japan,
She loves everything that has to do with the japanese culture,
She never told any friends or family about this trip, but she has been very depressed, and has always said that she wanted to leave to go to Japan and just kill herself there.
Thats what we think she is going to do, or has done already.
A missing person report has been filed, her school has been contacted, her friends have been notified, and calls have been non stop just trying to find her.
I'm posting this, cause I dont think the word can get out there fast enough, Her Itinerary said she was going to Japan, stops in Tokyo and then there is another flight afterwards that goes to Sapparro.
She doesnt have a cell phone, she didnt pack any belongings, she took her laptop that is all we know, she has her email address which is sephysky@hotmail.com and we have been emailing her.
She is 21, legal age, and there are less things that can be done at this point, but she is not mentally stable, there was a suicide note found in her email saved as a draft waiting to be sent to a friend.
She is suicidal and she needs help.
If anyone has any info you can email me at maygen07@hotmail.com or meganminus@gmail.com
PLEASE REPOST
25th Infantry Image for Friends
Made this for my friends... Please steal it...