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iamhuiali

Inhaler Route (1/4)

for fun!

#deltarune

adventureo

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aticurethebrave

I've been rewatching Re:Zero with a very trans perspective and I just got the the trial in arc 4 where Subaru sees his parents again. And the walk where he talks with his dad, let's out all his fears and frustration, the absolute dread that his parents will have and disown him for being a failure you can't accomplish anything, but knowing that they will likely still love him unconditionally despite that and it causing an even worse internal conflict. It really hit home for me.

Subaru growing up constantly under shadow of how great his own father is. The way he looks so much like and even acted like him when he was younger and that pushing the expectation further. And that all making his inability to meet those expectations, the expectations of masculinity and leadership his dad clearly had, feel infinitely worse. And the one thing that he did get from his mom being his eyes.

The way that his interactions with his dad and combative. Being wrestled awake, made to go on a walk and confront so many people that recognize his father, and the one that takes notice of Subaru making mention of his distinctive eyes that he got from his mother. That giving him a pang of pain and frustration. Every moment around his dad is about his frustration of failing to be like him.

Meanwhile his walk with his mother is calm and cooperative. It reflects a comfort and ease he has with her. He has light banter without getting heated in his delivery. He isn't against any aspect of his time with her. And the way she mentions her knowing he was under all those expectations and how exhausting it likely felt. Subaru being shocked at it, asking how much she knew.

And while all of this is very much the idea that boys will grow up with the expectation to be like their dad and they pull push against that to be their own man, while their relationships with their mothers are going to be more relaxed and of little note. I feel there is still room to view it as Subaru's relationship to gender being a fight against performative masculinity while being feminine is something that comes much easier and feels more natural to him. They are both two of halves of one self, but one fits better than the other.

Also the conversation being in two halves is also interesting. The talk with his dad takes place at a park bench where they sit and stand around, Subaru wallowing in his past failures and inability to grow into the expectations of manhood he thought were placed on him. Meanwhile, his talk with his mom actively takes place as they walk, moving forward as Subaru finally accepts he'll never be a man like his dad. He has to be his own person, and doing so requires moving on.

All of this has read as a great allegory for trying to come out to your parents as trans. At least for me based on my experience. Knowing the love is unconditional but being completely unsure of how being trans specifically would be taken by them. Almost wishing they would actually get angry to validate your own unfounded fears. It's suffocating and enough to make you completely close off.

And even though it is just meant to be about depression and self-worth in the face of unconditional love, I think it still does a great job at accidentally showing a part of the trans experience.

And while Subaru, myself and plenty of of other people have been able to come out to our parents and be met with acceptance, it is more likely that people will be met with anger. Derision. The exact fears Subaru expects to have lashed at him for finally opening up about what was eating him alive inside.

#re zero

adventureo

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bbbutterfingers

what if you were the protagonist and i was the side character introduced for comic relief that superceded the boundaries of my initial invention because i had such good chemistry with you and i became your best friend

#re zero

adventureo

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rubyvroom

This was the crossword puzzle in the New York Times yesterday.

Tausig’s crossword is a so-called Schrödinger puzzle, named for the physicist’s hypothetical cat that is at once both alive and dead. In a Schrödinger puzzle, select squares have more than one correct letter answer: They exist in two states at once. “Black Halloween animal,” for example, could be both BAT or CAT, yielding two different but perfectly correct puzzles. Only 10 such puzzles have now been published in Times history.

It’s the theme of Tausig’s puzzle, though, that makes it special. Four entries in Thursday’s crossword can include either an “F” or an “M.” Both are correct; neither is wrong. For example, “Part of a house” can be either ROOF or ROOM. The long “revealer” answer, tying those select entries together and spanning 11 squares smack-dab in the middle of the puzzle, is GENDER FLUID.

This puzzle, with “M”s and “F”s that aren’t fixed, is a masterful blend of subject and structure. “It potentially really evokes what gender fluidity is, which is not moving back and forth between two poles, but actually not being committed to either pole, and potentially existing in many states at different times,” Tausig said.

mournjargon

This is … really cool.

half-ace

i never really thought of crossword puzzles as an art form, but like… this is art.

adventureo

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hymneminium

#oh my god did gallagher just discover the term dank this is so exciting #does he know it's a weed thing?? there's no way right

Of course Peter Gallagher knows that "dank" is a weed thing. He also knows that "in heat" is a sex thing and that when aliens "probe" someone it's in the anus.

These are words, not things. Heathcliff is a comic about symbols.

You're never going to get a comic where an alien actually probes someone any more than you're going to get a comic where the Man-Eating Giant eats a man. You're just going to get a dozen comics where aliens like the word "probe".

Heathcliff wears the ham helmet because it's the helmet you wear when you eat a ham. You can tell it's that helmet because it says "ham" on it. The helmet's function is determined not by its form but by its label.

summer = beach = sand = desert = mummy and thus there is the Summer Mummy. Because of symbolic associations that do not otherwise cohere.

Robots don't wear clothes but the mere act of labeling them "nude" makes them nude. And once a painting is a nude painting there has to be a fig leaf because a "nude" without a "figleaf" is "indecent".

A "ham" is a ham even when it's a car. A yam can be a ham can be a car because "yam" sounds like "ham". Symbols have overtaken things.

hymneminium

Jimmy is Heathcliff's attempt to manipulate these symbols.

popularity = billboards, popularity = charity fundraising, popularity = influencers. But standing underneath the word "influencer" has failed to make Jimmy popular. Why is this?

adventureo

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parawyrm

watching TNG with a friend and I'm wondering why haven't I seen this clip going around on tumblr? It feels like a missed opportunity

#star trek

adventureo

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maxknightley

Anonymous asked:

im loving all the transfem jax art but like. it’s kind of crazy that they keep putting her in outfits where there’s obviously zero space for a penis. do they think she’s tucking? jax is not fucking tucking

maxknightley answered:

now anon I get where you're coming from but I do think we need to keep in mind that nobody in the amazing digital circus actually has genitals.

well. implications of that one credits scene notwithstanding.

maxknightley