Work: I got promoted to a new position within the department. I'm now an evidence clerk at HQ. I get full time hours, mon-fri schedule, holidays and weekends off... Can we say SCORE?!
School: I'm less than a month away from graduating. I CANNOT wait!
Social: I may very well be a big brother come next Thursday. I'm meeting the kid, his mom, and the caseworker at a Starbucks to see if we're all good.
Health: I'm down 30lbs since I started Medifast early March. 23 more lbs to go.
That's about it. Much going on, and all within the span of a month. Hopefully things mellow out some in June.
Much has transpired in recent months. Sadly, not much of it is positive.
In January I had some wicked kidney and urinary discomfort to where I had to go to the emergency room. Much to my dismay, I have no medical insurance, so I'm having to bear the full brunt of the fees. The doctor put me on IV fluids, and had a CT scan done. She found the kidney stone that had been off and on bothering me for over a year. So she gave me a couple drug prescriptions and sent me on my way. I got the medication, and things seemed okay...til a month later. In February, I had the pains occur again, and this time they were more severe. So... Back to the ER I go. This time, they determined I needed to have surgery, and stay at the hospital for 2 days! Once again, no medical insurance. BLAH! The procedure was done, I currently feel fine, and I'm presently in the middle of applying for County Medical Services Hardship program where they pay the hospital a portion of the fees and call it a wash. I then will owe the county the money they paid the hospital. I submitted the application and I'm waiting to hear back from the County rep.
School... Got another A, and I have 2 classes to go. I'm debating on whether or not I want to attend the commencement ceremony as I don't really feel I've earned anything. I hold this college in such low esteem I don't feel like spending the money for even a cap and gown. I don't know...
Early this month I started on Medifast. It's expensive, and very anti-foodie. If you love food a lot, and don't adapt well to change, I say avoid this diet program like the plague! To its credit, it IS working. I've lost 15lbs in a little over 2 weeks. My target weight loss is 50lbs. The sooner I'm off this program, the better.
Work... I applied for a fulltime position in the property room at headquarters, and sadly my interview didn't go so well. I made a joke that the lieutenant didn't appreciate. It was born out of nervousness, and my supervisor got the sarcasm behind it. Oh well... There is still hope as the panel knew I'm clearly qualified to work at the property room, just that there were candidates that interviewed better. One position is opening up shortly, and they're looking to have 2 more positions come up around July. I think I have a good chance with this upcoming position. We'll see. I need to get a fulltime job by november as that is when I'll have to start paying back my student loan, to say nothing of the medical bills pending.
Social life... I haven't really gone on any dates recently. I had a couple initially promising ventures that quickly turned into disappointments. I'm feeling good about singlehood these days. With as much turmoil as my life is in presently, it's probably best I not get anyone else involved in it.
So... Some promising things on the horizon, but they're counterbalanced by some terrifying prospects. 2013 is shaping up to be a very interesting year.
Not much new to report per se. It's all been about the same song and dance.
Home life: Been living in Hillcrest now for almost 8 months now, and it's been pretty great actually. I'm loving that I can walk to most places I need to get to in terms of errands, and grabbing a bite. The only time I really drive is when I need to go to work or to visit friends that live further out. Bobby, my roommate, is cool. He's stopped eating my food (not that I have much food to be stolen), and we both mind each other's privacy. We don't hang out really, but we talk once in a while. I spend most my downtime at home playing Xbox. Halo 4 has been my world pretty much for the last couple months. I did stop to play the Omega DLC for Mass Effect 3. I liked it better than the previous DLC (Leviathan), but Lair of the Shadow Broker is still the best DLC BioWare has turned out.
Social life: I still attend my running group. Still pretty much ignored by the runners, and was even snubbed by a rude guy mid conversation. I was interested in him, but that quickly changed. I've been going out on a few dates with guys. What I'm loving is these guys are all age-appropriate. The youngest being 29, and the oldest being 42. So far no one (there are 4 suitors at present) is really grabbing me in terms connection. They're all nice and attractive, but personalities and interests aren't gelling how I'd want. I've reduced my hooking up somewhat. Looking more for something substantial as of late. I guess I couldn't stay a hermit for long.
Work life: Nothing's changed much. I'm still waiting to hear about the evidence clerk position in terms of an interview. I'm now thinking it'll be around early January when they start. The sooner I do this the better. I'm feeling pretty confident I have a good chance of getting the job.
Follow-up with my last relationship: Jae has pretty much left me alone. I heard he moved out of his apartment is living with his dude, and has for the last couple months. What I'm liking is that his friends are coming around to hanging out despite his not wanting them to. I already hung out with his bestie/ex roommate. His other friends I used to play Magic with are coming around to wanting to get together. I'm not pressuring anything. I'm sure at some point Jae will find out I'm kicking it with his friends, and believe me, I'm ready to deal with that. I'm to a point with Jae that I don't want to be his friend anymore. To me he's just an ex and at most he'll only be a friend of my friends.
School life: God I hate Phoenix. I should never have joined this school. The quality of education I'm getting is inferior at best. I was just looking for a quick fix, and by God that's what Phoenix is at its best. If you know how to write, and pad a paper with bullshit, then you'll at least get a C here. I've managed to get nothing but As and Bs so far, and trust me, I haven't actually learned much. Sad.
That's about it for now. Hope you all have a good holiday and I'm sure I'll update again next year.
So in a nutshell guys and friends alike have been for the most part disappointing. People I thought I established solid friendships with have all but kicked me to the curb. Out of sight out of mind? Am I just not that interesting to spend time with? Am I exuding some anti-friend vibes? I don't know. In the dating scene, guys have all been flakes. I can't even establish solid conversations with guys whether by text or other means. I'm really reassessing who are the people that are important to me, who I know won't fade (and trust me there aren't many of them), and all others whom I should look to be rid of.
At the risk of sounding like a PLOM moment, there are times I really wish I mattered more to people.
Okay so last saturday I went over to play Magic with Jae's friends Sergio and Nigel. We had a good time, and Jae or his relationship was not discussed by either me or them. All we did was play cards and have fun.
So fast forward to later that night as I was about to go to bed. I get a text from Jae saying we need to talk. Who didn't see this coming?
I called him, and he asked me to not hang out with his friends in the interests of him needing space from me, and it bothers him that I'm doing this. He doesn't want to feel awkward with his friends knowing that I've hung out with them, and he doesn't want to wonder if he can hang out with his friends because I might be.
I initially protested and fought this. It didn't make sense to me, and we got into an...intense discussion. A lot of things were brought up and I got to vent a lot of my frustration, but in the end, I acquiesced.
So... I've lost Jae, I've lost friends made through him... All for him and his happiness. Never let it be said I'm not a giver. Unfortunately he still has some things of mine that I need to get back, so I'll have to see him one more time. After that, I think I'll just fade from them all and move on.
I almost immediately became an a4a whore again as a way to cope. I'm not proud of it, but it's helped me more than hurt. I've gone on some interesting dates, and met some interesting folks along the way. I still miss him. We agreed we both want to be friends, but it's been hard for me. I was ready to give friendship a try, but I came across a pic on facebook of Jae holding another guy and kissing. He didn't post it, but the guy he's seeing did, and it got linked. I felt like I got suckerpunched. I called Jae to get the dirt, and he said it was something that just happened. I contend it's been waiting in the wings until Jae and I broke up. It's totally supposition, but that's my theory as I never once saw Jae go on a4a, and I'm almost certain he would have had this dude not been around.
So after seeing the pic, I felt like I broke up with Jae all over again, and I'm gonna need more time to deal with this before a friendship is established. It sucks because I miss his roommate and his roommate's daughter, and the friends I've made through Jae (they're his friends and it'd be awkward right now to hang with them knowing things between Jae and I are wonky).
So yeah... Jae is doing well, and is happy. I'm glad for him. I'm doing okay, and...coping. School and work do well to distract me, and some of my close friends have been great support. I'll be fine and this too, shall pass.
All moved in to Hillcrest. Upside: My room is bigger... Not by much, but I certainly have more walking around room. My roommate is pretty chill, and nice... so far. Being able to walk around to do errands rather than driving is a plus. Downside: Parking is an UBER-BITCH! With my location, it's in a part of town that many people like to frequent, so they park in the neighborhood areas (it's free back here). That, mixed with the overabundance of residents that park here, it's an absolute easter egg hunt for a parking spot. If anything it encourages one to not drive unless necessary. Another downside is my roommate in that with him being away for work so much, the apartment could use some TLC. It's not bad, but a vaccuum job would be a good thing. Also he didn't even have a trashcan in the kitchen...or anywhere else in the house. I had to get a trashcan from walmart. He'd just use a shopping bag, and fill it with trash before then. Lastly, I'm having a problem with getting a wireless connection in the apartment. Bobby can't remember the password to log into his secure router, and all attempts to get the password (we tried our ISP, and the company that made the router) have failed. So we're kinda stuck unless Bobby can figure it out. I may have to swap out with my router. So...if that's as bad as the downside gets with him, then I'll be alright. So yeah... all things considered, I'm good with the move.
So for those not in the facebook realm, my roommate Nikki is leaving April 1st. What's worse, she's taking another one of our roommates with her. So I and my other roommate would be responsible for finding 2 roommates in less than two months. I'm of a mind it's time to go. As fortune may have it, while out with my running group, I met a guy that happens to be looking for a roommate in the University Heights area. The rent would be the same I'm paying now, and he's gay and a geek! We're going to meet up next weekend to discuss this further, but I'm happy there may be a light at the end of this tunnel. I hope all goes well with this. I love the location, and if the room's bigger than what I'm in now... I'm sold!
Long story short, Sea World wanted too much of my availability to where it would hinder my income from the police department. 19.16 an hour vs. 12.57 and hour...you do the math. So I told them I would be willing to keep the three days I initially promised (Sun, Mon, Fri) open to their schedule, but I need saturdays off. They didn't like that, so the offer to work for Sea World was declined. In a way I'm relieved as I was uncertain as to the workload I faced between PD, school, and Sea World. It may have been too much for me. Oh well, I'll manage on regardless.
