>_> I said adventures and mayhem. I was right. So I moved to PA and it's weird being surrounded by comforts and stuff. I can't believe I'm actually having trouble adjusting. It's just new and differnt and really is a stark contrast against what I used to be living. Which wasn't so great really. So yeah I'm a bit shaky and thrown. >_> Damn adjustment period.
I AM year of the tiger bitches! Expect lots of adventures and mayhem. Fire tiger in the house...okay its not a fire year but itttsss still TIGER! Roar.
Someone wanna help me with this zine I'm workin on?
o_o .....It burns my soul.
I need artists.
Artists who put headphones in their art.Oh yeah. Ohhhh yeah. Spread the word. Vince is doin some crazy ass zine with headphones.
I hope I don't drown the plants. I really have no idea how much water they need.
Me and Dougal played with a stuffie this morning. He tore it apart and was quite proud of himself. I'm trying to destress him. His poop was all icky stress poop. Also-
WIND CHILL OF DOOM!
I found a spray bottle full of cleaner under the sink and squeed. I'm not sure where to keep my yellow sponge though.
Mmmmmm smoothie and granola ftw.
O_o Does that make me sound like a hippie? =_= Hug the damn tree. It wants you.
Cute bastards. I gave the cats some toys today and they went spastic. O_o Pan did backflips and flailed all over the place. Divine just sort of bats at it lazily and rolls on it. I put it up in her spot so she can have one to herself. Liam really likes the shrimp shaped one and seems more interested in the string it's attached to. Pan likes the little ribbons. I was a cat bed for a small while today with Liam and Pan both on me. We sort of chilled for twenty minutes with me threatening to doze off but the thought that they may eat my computer while I was snoozing kept me from doing that.
Trying styrofoam balls as an understructure for sculpting. I like the head I'm making with it. I can also dig into the armature during sculpting if i misread how deep something should go. It's still in testing phase though. I watched a tutorial and apparently it doesnt burst into flames in the oven. I find that pretty cool and would have never thought it was safe on my own.
Vacuumed, did some dishes, and organized the fridge today. I bought some sponges yesterday that I'm used to working with. I probably should get a spray bottle for cleaner too just cause I'm used to doing things that way and it's probably quicker for me.
Still pretty exhausted but the pain in my stomach and muscles is better today. (Thank GODS!)
Dougal was a dork today in the snow. (He's the dog I'm watching while Ian and Tyber are upstate) He spins around in circles before going out and then he just bulldozes the snow into his mouth as he walks. I took him to the park for a bit on his walk. Later in the day it got cold as hell. The winds are crazy and the windows are rattling. Dougal was kind of like 'fuck this' when we went out for the nighttime walk. The flagpole near the school was clanking and scaring the hell out of him. He's been pretty mopey without his daddies and brothers. He sits in his crate and mopes.
Oh yeah, fixed the door. The top screw was stripped so I had to rework it back into the wood. Pan has stopped slamming into it for now. I think he understands it's fixed and it's useless to whack into it over and over.
My alarm on my phone is being a bitch so I'm going to double set it tonight in hopes that one of them goes off.
I need to find hard shiny plastic things to draw cause that's what the guy in the admissions office of Toys said they basically wanted. The ability to draw hard plastic. I was kind of like...gee...way to aim for the stars there buddy. I should work on textureing and surfaces though.
Is this apartment haunted? *raises eyebrow at all the doors creaking and opening* Even the locked front door...o_o
I'm sort of wondering when I'm going to crash. I keep having mini panic attacks like right now. I had one in the kitchen the other day and Tyber calmed me down. So I tidied up my room, and cleaned the tub, and mopped, and put up movies. While I was in the shower I started having flashbacks to my mom following me around while I do choirs screaming that I was a lazy, worthless, bitch. Tyber listed things out for me to do and I flashbacked. I'm pretty sure he doesnt know why I'm so upset right now. The major parts of the flashback didnt happen until the shower so I didnt really have full words to explain it.
Man and my stomach and muscles are killing me. I'm in a lot of pain...maybe that's why I feel ornery. Still got to get my picture ID for FIT and return a resume. I also promised Kyle I'd pay him some attention today. I said I'd do it yesterday but I had too many errands to do and he was busy after 6p.m. @_@ Shit...panicking. I'm gunna need to take my meds.
So to all who didnt know. I moved Sunday to Brooklyn.
I start my class on February 2nd annnddd I need to get my portfolio and take home test done in the next few weeks. *deep breath*
If you could experience being dead for one day to learn what happens in the afterlife, and were guaranteed to return to life the following day, would you do it? Why or why not?
I'm totally trying to keep my mind occupied so I don't explode from anxiety. O___O
--METALHEAD-- [] Do you have long hair? [] Do you like beer? [] Have you ever been in a moshpit? (a dumb crappy local band concert one) [] You don't believe in God? [] You got a pentagram on some clothing article, etc.? [x] You own some spikes? (studded boots?) [] Can you play guitar? [] Can you growl? [x] Do you own boots? [x] Do you rock out? (in the car xD ah I’m such a dork) Total X: 3
--DRAMA DORK-- [x] Ever been in a play? [x] Have you ever seen a Broadway show? [ ] More than 10 Broadway shows? [x] Have you ever been / are you in school shows? [ ] Does your current job involve theater in some way? [ ] Want to end up working in / for theater? [ ] Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play / musical? [ ] Do you break out into random songs whenever / wherever? [] Do you like the Sound of Music? [x] Did you like the Broadway show you saw? Total X: 4
--REDNECK-- [] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch? [] Do you drive a four-wheeler? [] Do you ride four-wheelers? [x] Do you like to get dirty? [] Do you like country music? [] Do you have a broken car in your backyard? [] Do you own a cowboy hat? [x] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home? [] Do you watch Larry the Cable Guy videos? [ ] Do you live on more than one acre? Total X: 2
--GOTH-- [] Do you wear black eyeliner? [] Is most of your clothing dark? (not black, but yeah I tend to like darker colors) [x] Do you think about death often? (lame but true) [] Do you want to die? [x] Are you a social outcast? [x] Are you pale? [] Do you like Hot Topic? [x] Do you enjoy Tim Burton movies? [] Are you mean? Total X: 4
--SKATER / PUNK-- [] Can you skateboard? [] Do you wear skateboarding shoes? [] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends? [] Have you gotten in trouble with the cops? [] Do you watch the X-Games? [x] Do / did you have any piercings other than your ears? [] Do you like / wear a mohawk? [ ] Do you wear band T-shirts? [] Have you called someone a poser recently? Total X: 1
--PREP-- [] Do you say the word "like"? [] Do you shop at Hollister / Abercrombie & Fitch / AE / Aero? [] Do the people in Hot Topic scare you? [] Do you giggle a lot when you're with your friends / girlfriend / boyfriend? [] Have / do you watch(ed) LAGUNA BEACH? [x] Do you like pop music? [] Do you want / have a little dog? (eeewww) [x] Do you laugh a lot? Total X: 2
--HIPPIE-- [] Is your hair long? [ ] Do you own a tie-dye shirt? [x] Do you want to save the animals? (I don’t want the eco system to fall apart but The Animals don’t consume my every waking thought…) [x] Do you think war is unnecessary? [x] Do you like classic rock? [x] Have you ever participated in a protest? [] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree? [ ] Is your idea of fun sitting around one person playing a guitar and singing along? [x] Do you see someone playing frisbee and automatically ask to play? Total X: 5
--GANGSTA-- [] Do you act ghetto sometimes? (Vin: Ok...what does that even mean?) [x] Do you wear do-rags? [x] Do you like hip-hop? [] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world? [] Do you believe he's alive? [x] Do you like afros? [] Have you ever said "Fo Sho"? [x] Do you like to dance? Total X: 4
--EMO- [] Do you cry often? [x] Do you wear hoodies? [] Do you like soft music? [ ] Do people not understand you? [x] Do you write your own poems? [x] Do you dye your hair red, black, or any dark color? [x] Do you cut your own hair? [x] Do you sometimes feel very lonely? [] Is Ohio is for Lovers by Hawthorne Heights a good song? Total X: 5
--SURFER-- [] Do you surf? [.5] Do you wear flip-flops all year around? [x] Is your hair shaggy / layered? [] Do you wake up before 6 every morning? [x] Do you own any pairs of shorts? [x] Do you think the ocean is radical? [] Are you tan? [x] Do you want to be at the beach right now? [x] Do you hate tourists? Total X: 5.5
--GEEK-- [x] Do you wear glasses? [x] Do you get good grades? [x] Do you use an inhaler? [ ] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? [] Does your mom pick out your clothes? [x] Are you on the computer often? [ ] Do you look forward to going to school? [x] Are you shy around the opposite sex? [x] Do you play video games? Total X: 6
Packing stressful. Packing stressful. Packing stressful. Blow torch time! Muwhahahahahahaha! Damn I need to shower. I think I'll go do that.
When I am done moving it will be full of win.
The worst part is little shit everywhere that needs to be cleaned up and sorted.
It will happen.
I need to go to The Strand tomorrow to get rid of books and to kick SVA is the nutsack for their false library hold and get them to release my transcript for FIT. They are inept and I hate them with a burning fury.
I could write epic ballads about the burning fury.
Okay I know I said I didn't want to move again for like years but here I am doing it again. O_O It's become an art I swear. I've managed to downsize my belongings each move I make so this one will be mild in comparison....cause I moved to the shelter...moved into another shelter, moved to Ian and Tybers, moved to Ganas, moved to another room in Ganas, moved to another house and room in Ganas and now I'm moving to Ian and Tybers again. I suppose the mouse explosion was good for clearing stuff out too. I'm still like...fuck I have too much stuff but I think that is actually something unhealthy making its way into my brain. I might make up to 10 totes by the time I'm done packing and considering that's everything I own. Period. Maybe that isn't too bad? I'm still stressed about it despite. I'm almost done with packing I think. There are some papers and stuff...the computer I'm typing on right now and some clothes and bedding I need to vacuum pack. I've been vacuum packing things into totes to squish down the size of clothes. My summer clothing collection is retarded small. Two shorts and a few tank tops. It was super easy to pack. I do own tshirts but I dont pack them away during the winter.
I'm excited and scared to be living with Ian and Tyber again. The fear is the whole job market thing really. They are incredibly sweet so there is nothing to fear on that side. I should purchase a small package of cashews to keep Dougal's grumpy down though.
Sarah I will have to send you my new addy soon, but I will be putting in a change of address with the post office if you already sent me mail.
Your Old Fashioned Name Is: Reynold Aldebourne Werd.
Your Animal is the Goose You are are a resourceful person who needs a lot of stability in life. You rather save for a rainy day, even if it means on missing out on fun impulses.
When you feel secure, you are incredibly creative and artistic. You are also very witty. You like to invest in yourself and for the future. You like to always be learning and gaining skills.
Your 80s Name Is Timothy Scott Totally radical, dude!
Your Height Says You're Unconventional You are powerful, brilliant, and a bit of a rebel. You are an idealist, and you will work hard for a better world.
It's hard for other people to keep up with you - both mentally and physically. And you're so independent, you actually prefer to go it alone.
You are about as tall as the average Italian man.
(Uhhhh...>_> I think I'm a pretty sleepy person but hey! I'll take it!))
Your Expression Number is 3 A natural performer, your destiny lies in writing, speaking, acting, or teaching. Imaginative and unique, you have a natural creative talent in the arts. You're also a natural salesperson. You can easily sell your ideas and yourself.
A total optimist, you are enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly and social - and people are taken by your charm. Your role in life is to inspire, motivate, and raise others' spirits.
At times, you can seem a bit superficial. Sometimes you're a bit unfocused and too easygoing. You're best off when you don't dwell on trivial matters, especially gossip.
((I'm a shitty salesperson...oi Im not sure how accurate this one is at all))
You Were a Giraffe You are a high achiever - able to reach things others can't. A great communicator, you are good at getting past superficialities.
((Very odd...))
Your Birth Month Says You're Wise Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years. You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.
Your soul reflects: Devotion, light, and love
Your gemstone: Sapphire
Your flower: Morning Glory
Your colors: Brown and deep blue
((wise eh....oh dear it hasnt caught onto my gulliblness! Sarah...I like your colors better lol. Orange red and light green fuck yea!))
Your Preppy Name Is: Heisley Prescott Dorrance the Sixth But most people know you as Tad
((Tad is a horrid nickname...))
Your Goth Name is: Violent Wolfe But, truly, I have wept too much! The Dawns are heartbreaking. Every moon is atrocious and every sun bitter.
((Im the native american goth!))
You Are Driven and Focused You view people with optimism. You have many meaningful relationships in your life.
You had more conflict with your father than your mother. Your relationship with him was difficult and possibly unhealthy.
You deal with stress in a fairly normal way. Stress presents a struggle for you, but you're usually able to neutralize your emotions.
You are the type of person who knows how to get a lot done. However, sometimes you can't help but get overwhelmed by life.
Your Heart is Feeling Indifference Your heart is pretty much on hiatus right now. You're not particularly interested in love, and you're cultivating a sort of romantic apathy. Whether you've been burned badly or you're just burned out, your heart is cold to passion.
Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: A bit of cold heartedness
Your current outlook on love: Detached and stoic - you try to analyze love from a logical perspective
Your love life will improve if you: Open up a little. Stepping back can help you find peace with your emotions, but it can also make you repress them.
Watch out for: Too much cynicism. Indifference can lead you down a dark path.
((werd...))
Your Non-Existent Part Says You're Confident and Spontaneous You are a very carefree and relaxed person. You don't put in effort when you don't have to. You tend to be interested in nature and a bit of an environmentalist. You try to live a green life.
You are a casual person. You don't do well in formal settings... in fact, you avoid them. You try to let the small things slide. Even if that means you don't always comb your hair.
anxious