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Whats Your Stoner Nickname? (PICS)

Tweak and Cha One of the most fun and weirdest stoners their are. You often say dumb shit that turns out to be hilarious after a few seconds. You often make weird sounds and twitch a lot. You will use your skills of twitching and weird sounds to make up for shitty jokes you have told which strangly evens things out. You love smoking and hanging out with your friends and making an ass out of yourself. Defently a nice and cool person to blaze it up with

What will you/are you addicted too

Cutting (Slitting wrists) You like to CutCutting is a way to relase your anger and saddness. some cut to be noticed. but you cut because your sad and maybe a little lonely. There are other ways to release your anger but you choose to see and feel the pain. Cutting is not a drug but is very addicting.I advise you to seek help if you cut or have suicidal thoughts.

Your Personality Is Like Cocaine

You're dynamic, brilliant, and alluring to those who don't know you. Hyper and full of energy, you're usually the last one to leave a party. Sometimes your sharp mind gets the better of you... you're a bit paranoid!

figures. haha. i love my cocaine. (hugs)

I havn't cut today but i plan on it. I don't know why...I want to take pictures of it though and I can't find my camera so I'm waiting it out. I've been sleeping a lot these days. It's bad. I need to exercise big time. I'm fat as hell. It's bad. I just weighed myself and I found out I gained like 4 lbs since last time. BLEHBLEHBLEHBLEHBLEH. man o man. this sucks big ghetto nigga ass. I smoked weed yesterday....that's not good considering I need to go see my probation officer on the 16th.....blehblehbleh. I'm not very smart at all. Idk what my deal is. I'm just going to end up in jail. I'm retarded. I just feel like shit.

Today's Foods
Rice, white, short-grain, cooked 484 cals
Cake, chocolate, made with mayonnaise or salad dressing, with icing, coating, or filling cubic inch 122cals
Totals 605cals....

i went over 205 calories today and the day isnt even over yet....bleh., i feel like shit. i think im just gonna throw it up now before its too late for that to have any effect. idk. im keeping up with my foods with fitday...an online diet journal....it works pretty well. i like it.

Height: 5'6
HW: 180
LW: 130 (at this height)
CW: 180 (well, 139, but I'm making it even)
GW1: 176 by the 16th of october
GW2: 172 by the 20th of october
GW3: 169 by the 24th of october
GW4: 165 by the 30th of october
GW5: 160 by the 5th of september

that will be 20 lbs in less than a month...i know i can do it. im going to start with a 400 calorie diet....which is possible for me to do because i've done it before...so im not setting impossible goals here....then i'll work my way down to a 200 calorie diet by the 27th of october. this starts today....friday the 13th of october. some encouragment pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I cut myself today for the first time in a really long time. I'm going to post pictures. I have another livejournal but I made this one for my cutting communities and for my cutting life....because I don't want my friends or family to know I'm up to this again.


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my arm doesn't really hurt right now....but my mom might see it tomorrow....i don't really care....she won't see these pictures and that's all that matters.
♥Kle