-::Closet Heartthrob::-

I know that my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hope of my heart because whenever they wander they always take me to you. I love you beyond what words can say, you are such an important part of me, such a precious part of my life and yet it's hard to convey the depth of my love. It's difficult to express the changes you have made in my life and the meaning you have added to my life. Words do not do justice to my emotions when I want you, need you and love you with every breathe of my being. I love you beyond words, beyond meaning. My mind, my body even my senses are full of you. You are as important to my life as the very beat of my heart, I hope you can look into my eyes, deep within my soul and I know that you are the part of me I treasure most. I LOVE YOU

As always, I want to start by saying thank you. I tell you a million times a day, each day, that I love you and that you mean the world to me. Although you reciprocate these feelings, I'm sure you have no inkling on the magnitude of exactly what they mean to me.

You walked into my life a stranger a year ago and my life hasn't been the same since. You are TRULY my gift from a higher power. LOVE is such a minuscule word for what we share. You are SO amazing. You appeared when I was at such a low point in my existence. A time when I thought that the physical and emotional pain brought on by another would never end and would wear away at every fiber of my being until it consumed me and I was no more. During the moments I tried to turn away for fear of the unknown, you planted your heels and looked deep in my soul and stayed. You compromised your life and your goals to help me survive... and I am eternally indebted to you. Without you... I would not be.

You have become a beacon to me. Whenever I feel as though I've drifted too far into the disparity that clouds my life, I can look up to find you guiding me to safety. I stay here not because this place is home... but because YOU are home.

After all that's happened to me in the past 3 years, I swore to God, and the moon, and to you that I would never settle again and that I would never give my heart and my life completely to another. With great content and zero disparity... I take it back.

Most people will spend their entire lives searching for a perfection that almost never exists. Most people will spend their days looking at each person they encountered with question as to whether or not they have found a reason, a season or a lifetime. With you, I have found an eternity. You... this... here is where I am meant to be. You are what my entire life has led up to. You are my very best friend, my lover, my protector, my teacher and my absolute soul mate.

I give my life to you: mind, body and soul. I will you to hold me for the rest of my life as you do each and every day and night.

I belong to you now....

I've been seeing a lot of these lately. I just hope I can make this work.

This is what I want to be
August is almost over. I did pretty good. I finally decided what I want to be, who I'm going to be. And this is it. It's going to be my ultimate challenge. A quest to prove my self-worth. An inevitably long delayed decision I've been contemplating. And hopefully, the fruits will be sweet.

Experiencing the Country's Finest
Yet another of my long planned vacation. I'm so aroused for another plane ride. To fathomize on new scenes. Feel the calmness of the waters. Brush the sand with my feet. I get to see the Philippines in another perspective. I'm so excited to take pictures. lots of pictures. This will be another vacation to remember.

I still have a lot to learn about "blogging". The site looks a bit odd. I wanted it to be somewhat "homey" so I'd have a little push to update it every so often. I saw a cute template about travelling (yellow prints, old school, planes and highways). The problem is I don't know a damn thing uploading it to my LJ. Sucks bigtime.

I also wanted to have a theme for my blog. But I can't seem to pass judgement which is which. It's torturing me.

Oh and before I forget, HAPPY MOTHER's DAY mom. Just in case you get lost in your yahoo mail and ironically press history in the net explorer, here goes your greeting. I enjoyed shopping yesterday and swiping my card like there's no tomorrow. Thank dad for me for helping me out with my room. That goes to you as well. ENJOY!

I used to think that blogs are for pussies. That writing your personal propaganda publicly automatically enrolls you to scrutity from readers. That these scribbled entries are somewhat exaggerated from its original gospel so that by any chance people might skim, they would marvel at these stylish and fancy words quilted together to satisfy creative writing. Maybe its that, or simply, these pen pushers just wanted a venue where they could document their thoughts, so in due time may find its purpose in leading them back to that memory lane.

So by this lucidity, I shall start my own. I could remember a dear friend who blogged "I put more premium on being clearly understood than being admired for my use of highfaluting terms". And for which I would concede. But hey, this journal is suppose to be intimate...private. Which means, this gives me a license to be profound, suggestive and deep. For it's only I and Me who shall read this...

Welcome me... I'm now a certified blogger.

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