Body Positive Thougts

  Hey friends!

Just wanted to tell you about luv_is_beauty ,a new support community for those with/who have recovered from eating disorders! The more friends and support the better, right?! Since luv_is_beauty is so brand spankin' new, its focus is extremely flexible and open to input! Help shape a support community that fits your unique needs!! So come, check out luv_is_beauty and connect with more people who understand you!:)

See you there!

PS. I have nothing but respect for 6bella and do not judge anyone based on their opinions on eating or weight-loss. If you read luv_is_beauty's profile and find that it is not for you, I completely understand. I am not here to offend, or push ideas on anyone; I am simply suggesting you check out a new community to add to your supports on lj!

xoxoxox

 Hi everyone!
I had a livejournal years ago but am happy to be back, determined to find support on my path to recovery, and help others struggling with the same diseases/addictions/traumas. I will post tonight on my page a summary of my first step so those of you who want to can get to know me a little better. Thank you all for being here and looking forward to sharing my experiences, struggles, strengths, and hopes.
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Niki

i wanna get past my ED on my own without help. no one in my family knows about it and i have had it for about 4 years now...anyway i am 14 and do u think i can get over my anorexia on my own if i really really want it..like more than anything in the world?? i seriously do WANT it badly i want the old me back =) so do u think this is possible?

I'm new to LJ and I'm currently recovering from anorexia. I'd love to chat with other people from here, for support =) please send me a message <3

EATING DISORDER
* An explanation of your e.d.: anorexia, have had a few mia episodes
* How long have you had it?: about two years
* Have you received any treatment for it?: Not really, but I have been on meds for depression, if that counts.
* Have you been in recovery?: I have been trying to.
* Do other people know?: no, but I have had a few people ask me if I do.
* What do you want out of recovery?: to feel more confident and secure about my body.
* What holds you back from recovery?: I'm afraid that I won't be able to do it.

OTHER MENTAL HEALTH
* Any other mental illness?: depression, social anxiety
* Any medications? no
* Any other self-destructive habits (like self-injury, substance abuse, etc)?: no
* Are you currently in therapy?: no, I hate therapy...

OTHER UNRELATED STUFF ABOUT YOU
* Are you in school?: yes
* What kind of music do you like? mostly metal, or instrumental stuff.
* What's a hobby you have?: creative writing
* If you could live anywhere, where would it be? Japan, the technology mecca! =P
* Your favorite qoute: "Procrastinate now! Don't put it off!"

My thought might upset some people, but I just want to get something off my chest:

I desperately want to meet a recovered bulimic who isn't fat, who doesn't still compulsively overeat, and who hasn't just switched addictions (i.e. now they just drink instead of eating or now they are anorexic & don't eat at all).

That's probably a horrible thing to say, but from where I stand, it's true. It's just so frustrating & upsetting to try to recover when it seems like there is no hope of being recovered without being humongous.

It's probably just my eating disorder talking & maybe part of being recovered is being able to accept being overweight, but it seems to me that the few people that I have seen who are in recovery just aren't fully recovered. They just stopped purging and now they either eat or get drunk.

Is there no hope? Is there no one to look up to? No real life role models who can say, "I did it & so can you!"

If they are out there, maybe they just leave the recovery circles and never look back. I can't say I blame them.

Thanks for listening.

As a fellow mod (of bleed_me_skinny) and avid lj’er for over 4 years I’m letting you know that visualgirly was in my community and when she started to post spam like on her journal. I mean like 10/15 posts a day about it and this is a direct quote from her info “I am a Prothinspoer... I am in love with visualization and thinspiration to keep myself skinny forever... Prothinspo.com is my guide to my lifestyle. I am a person who is always on the hunt for new celebrity gossip and diet tips.” Need more proof that she is a troll? Her lj is far less then a year old; she has over 1,000 friends and is spamming around 650 communities.

I have allot of friends on lj and everyone I know in many communities are very sick of her. I noticed that she was in your community and would just like to let you know the kind of person she is. She makes personal attacks to people if they post pics, and all she does is plug that stupid site that tells one how to get an eating disorder.

I am sick of seeing her everywhere I go and so are many of my friends.

Just make sure if you delete her posts you mark them as spam!

Just a warning, tell your friends…if it were up to me and many people I know she would be shut down like all the other trolls.

♠ Kelly

If anyone would like to join my community feel free….its a troll free zone. But if you join…post loads please :)

I was only 16 years old and I was in my first year of Senior High track and Field. I was around 5'11 160 pounds, I was healthy and a very good runner. I decided I wanted to improve my mile times and I wanted to lose some weight. I decided to cut my calories down 4 hundred a day and tripled my workouts. Within about a month I would lost my goal of twenty pounds. But l wasn't happy with it l wanted to lose more and decided to stay on my diet a little longer l cut my calories down to 300 cals. I was working out constantly and l obsessed about weight and food. I lost 30 pounds in less than two months. I had it stuck in my head the more weight I lost the healthier I'd be. I just kept cutting it down more and more eventually, I was down to 50 calories a day. My friends were not behind me at all because well l was healthy from the start. I eventually lost most of them because I only wanted to be alone with my obsession. I could tell my coaches, friends and my dad who was the only family I had were worried about me. My dad on a daily basis would say "What's Wrong?", "Are You Okay?", and "You look Dead" were repeated everyday like a broken record. He was completely oblivious to what I was going to myself. I thought he was just trying to tell me I was thin, but in my head, I was screaming What you are talking about. I'm fat I'm worthless. The Thinner I got the more it seemed in the mirror I saw someone who was overweight, gross. I got down to 6 ft 120 pounds. My sole purpose in losing the weight was too become faster running but ironically my mile times were over a minute slower. My lowest point (Ironically also my lowest weight) was at one of my track meets. I was getting ready for the mile. For some reason that day my breathing seemed amazingly heavy compared to normal and my heart was beating so hard it felt like there was someone trying to beat out of my chest my heartbeats actually was painful. I walked over to the starting line my friend Dustin told me I was extremely pale I looked sick but I just blew him off. When the gun was fired to start the race, I collapsed to the ground my heart stopped beating, Congestive Heart Failure. I almost died that day. The E.R docs told my dad what had happened and what had caused it. I decided to come clean to my dad about everything, and he just told me he wasn't surprised. He checked me into a rehab center where I stayed for 7 months. That incident was two years ago. Everyday I still think about that and being in the hospital and seeing my dad worried about me like that. I wish I never did that to myself. I'm a senior in high school and I do still run track. However, I'm smart about my choices now. I'm 18 now I’m 6 ft 190 pounds I'm healthy and happy.

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BASICS
* Name: prefer not to say
* Age: 17
* Location: AUS

EATING DISORDER
* An explanation of your e.d.: Anorexic, Bulimic tendancies
* How long have you had it?: Diagnosed 2 years ago but i assume i had it for longer
* Have you received any treatment for it?: IP treatment, OP treatment, meds, therapy
* Have you been in recovery?: no
* Do other people know?: yeh pretty much everyone (teachers, friends, family, classmates)
* What do you want out of recovery?: A clear head
* What holds you back from recovery?: The "what- ifs" of life

OTHER MENTAL HEALTH
* Any other mental illness?: bi-polar, anxiety, obsessive compulsive behaviours.
* Any medications? Prozac and Epilum
* Any other self-destructive habits (like self-injury, substance abuse, etc)?: drinking, drugs, cutting, burning
* Are you currently in therapy?: yes

OTHER UNRELATED STUFF ABOUT YOU
* Are you in school?: yes
* What kind of music do you like? almost all types
* What's a hobby you have?: writing poetry, reading, listening to music
* If you could live anywhere, where would it be? Living in a beach shack in Byron Bay
* Your favorite qoute: "the more you stare at the same exact thing, the better and emptier u feel"

BASICS
* Name: Joy Marie
* Age: 18
* Location: NY
EATING DISORDER
* An explanation of your e.d.: Bulemic
* How long have you had it?: 3years
* Have you received any treatment for it?: meds
* Have you been in recovery?: yea
* Do other people know?: yes
* What do you want out of recovery?: The abilty to function
* What holds you back from recovery?: Perfection

OTHER MENTAL HEALTH
* Any other mental illness?: anxiety depression
* Any medications? Lexapro
* Any other self-destructive habits (like self-injury, substance abuse, etc)?: drugs, cutting burning
* Are you currently in therapy?: yes

OTHER UNRELATED STUFF ABOUT YOU
* Are you in school?: yes
* What kind of music do you like? everything
* What's a hobby you have?: dancing, reading writing expanding my knowledge
* If you could live anywhere, where would it be? Spain
* Your favorite qoute: Livin the bum life, "Call no man happy until he is dead."