doomed
I'm going to be alone for a long time.
Unhappy (cut for talk of anorexia ,depression)
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lonely
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bone pickin'
I generally ignore LJ; using it for voyeuristic pleasures more than anything.
I decided I should start letting my journal bear witness to some of the overflow of "crazy" that plagues my myspace blogs. Commence bitching:
I resent my current living situation. I hate being in Michigan. I'm angry at myself for being an alcoholic. Sobriety is very difficult. That's all!
I decided I should start letting my journal bear witness to some of the overflow of "crazy" that plagues my myspace blogs. Commence bitching:
I resent my current living situation. I hate being in Michigan. I'm angry at myself for being an alcoholic. Sobriety is very difficult. That's all!
I cannot see myself
the camera lies;
...but does the mirror tell the truth?
I want to break my fragile legs as I flee
this fucking flesh factory.
deathdeathdeathanddying
I cannot make sense of myself
can you?
if so, if you see an answer, and a way out of my madness, please enlighten me, save me, fight for me, and love me because I'm so last year. I'm so not fashionable. Cast me off, because I'm dead (for all intensive purposes).
can you?
if so, if you see an answer, and a way out of my madness, please enlighten me, save me, fight for me, and love me because I'm so last year. I'm so not fashionable. Cast me off, because I'm dead (for all intensive purposes).
reposted in the hopes of an answer
2005 was overrated: Another year... I feel as though I should mark its passing somehow. ...
My philosophy professor once posed this question to my class: Would you knowingly insert yourself into a fabricated reality?
He used the example of the Matrix (lame, I know). Basically, you would have no knowledge after being inserted into this fake reality that it was not the truth, and this reality would significantly more enjoyable then the reality we are currently occupying.
My philosophy professor once posed this question to my class: Would you knowingly insert yourself into a fabricated reality?
He used the example of the Matrix (lame, I know). Basically, you would have no knowledge after being inserted into this fake reality that it was not the truth, and this reality would significantly more enjoyable then the reality we are currently occupying.
"tee hee" or so the saying goes
They've finally done it at work--put me on a nice new G5 iMac. I miss my PC, and it sucks because I had just purchased FarCry right before I was moved. But, on the upshot, my iMac is powerful enough to run W.o.W., and isn't that really all that matters in life?
I won't say what new game they've placed me on because I don't want to think about the irony, but here's a clue: He lives in a pineapple under the sea. And soon he'll be available for Macintosh!
I won't say what new game they've placed me on because I don't want to think about the irony, but here's a clue: He lives in a pineapple under the sea. And soon he'll be available for Macintosh!
now fuckoff
World of OMG
It's consumed me...
God I love it so... maintenance is tomorrow, too. THE PAIN!!!!!
God I love it so... maintenance is tomorrow, too. THE PAIN!!!!!
the white-trashathon stops here
I felt a twinge...
I think it was of happiness, as I looked around and noticed the general reasonable condition of my living space: my toilet worked perfectly and nothing smelled of urine, dog, or rotting food. There were no meth addicts or harsh words or entitlement issues. All I saw was order; and it made sense, finally. I'm lonely, sad, and wholly on my own, however, I feel some part of me growing back.
Re-humanization hurts wonderfully.
I think it was of happiness, as I looked around and noticed the general reasonable condition of my living space: my toilet worked perfectly and nothing smelled of urine, dog, or rotting food. There were no meth addicts or harsh words or entitlement issues. All I saw was order; and it made sense, finally. I'm lonely, sad, and wholly on my own, however, I feel some part of me growing back.
Re-humanization hurts wonderfully.