100 Days

And once again, i'm back to day one.

So I was thinking about getting a tattoo over some scars of mine. I was just wondering if anyone else feels the need to cover theirs. Also, does anyone know how tattoos take to scar tissues?

Heh. Never thought I'd be writing here again. At least not like this.

My world fell apart last night. It seems for the last two years I've been living apart of a lie.

I went 969 days. I just counted. Cut free. Would be 3 years in september. Almost a thousand days. Now.. I'm at day one.

I lost it last night. I couldn't not do anything. I didn't do anything too drastic. I cut my hip with my fingernails. Big whoop.

But really to me it is. I was "cured". I was "never to go back". And now, its all I can think about doing.

I'm so numb.

I hate crying.

I hate me.

I guess I'm not as strong as I thought I was.

Sorry to dissapoint you. And myself.

Today is one year.
I can't believe that it's been that long. all of the things I've gotten through without it. I'm so proud of myself. My friends(the ones who know) are proud of me. One friend brought me a choice of presents (granted they were new car scent and a water toy but still). I can stop counting in days and start with months and years.
But what I really wanted to say was if I managed to do this, I know that everyone else can. I started my 100 days so many times. Just don't give up. If you "fail" just start again. Things get better and even when they aren't great you'll realize that you've accomplished something by resisting. Keep up the good work and good luck.

Wanted to introduce myself, I've been lurking for a week or so. My name is Leslie. I'm 27 years old & I started self injuring when I was 13. It got more intense when I was 16. I was self injuring myself until 4 years ago. In fact, April 28th is my 4 year anniversary of being 'sober' from it. It's a struggle every day, especially recently. I've had a lot to deal with .. & I've nearly gone back to it, but have managed to hold on.

I'm here if anyone wants to talk. I know how hard it is to NOT do this. I just recently revealed this part of my past to my best friend/boyfriend (love life is complicated.. won't even go INTO that right now.) .. & he was very supportive.

I just wanted to say hi & make my presense known.

(Cross-posted to _knowyoulive)

Hi y'all. I'm back. I've been cut-free for at least 6 months, I'm pretty proud of myself, though the temptation is still there, and VERY strong. I've gone so far as to pull one of the decorative pins off my purse, bend the arm straight, and hold it to my skin. But I couldn't do it-and I don't know why. Hopefully, 6 months from now, I'll still be cut free, so I'll see y'all on...October 17th. Thanks.

There is less than one month until one year. (may seventh) I'm so excited and happy about it. My friend said he'd take me to the movies for a present. I'm so proud of myself. But I'm terrified something will go wrong and I won't make it. I know thats a silly thought but it's there. the way my life has been going, the thought has certainly flickered through my head. I know I can do it. I have to.

Hi I'm new here. I'm 21 and I cut, or shall I say I'm in recovery. I thought it was neat to find this site cause today is actually 100 days since I last cut. I still think about it and sometimes want to. It's hard. I won't, not now, maybe never again, I don't know. I just wanted to say hey...anyways.

I'm so ready to cut right now. If I wasn't going out in about ten minutes I'd be upstairs with my blade now. And all because of college, how pathetic.

Today is three hundred days for me.
i should be happy but i'm not.