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Current Mood: happy
Current Music: NERD - She Wants To Move

monkey suit, monkey suit, why are you so demanding? you hold my soul and take my patience ... sometimes i want to put you in a hole

anniversary
of my dad leaving this world
soul hole mostly healed
♥

this was pretty amazing.

Current Mood: grateful
Current Music: ladytron - the way that i found you

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fucking listen to this shit its fucking beautiful

Deep Puddle Dynamics - The Candle

thank you for your time

Current Mood: derp
Current Music: deep puddle dynamics - the candle

this songs maken me teary

How fickle my heart
and how woozy my eyes
I struggle to find
any truth in your lies
And now my heart stumbles
on things I don't know
This weakness I feel
I must finally show

Lend me your hand
and we'll conquer them all
But lend me your heart
and I'll just let you fall
Lend me your eyes
I can change what you see
But your soul you must keep,
totally free

In these bodies we will live,
in these bodies we will die
Where you invest your love,
you invest your life

Awake my soul, awake my soul
Awake my soul
You were made to meet your maker

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Mumford And Sons - Awake My Soul

Cause I've been through madness
'Nuff madness
You can't tell me nothing
And I've done pure badness
'Nuff badness
You can't tell me nothing
And I've had a lot of drama
'Nuff drama
You can't tell me nothing
Just look in my eyes, it's all too clear
But it don't matter, cause I'm still here

Current Mood: weird
Current Music: Dizzee Rascal-U Cant Tell Me Nuffin

"Find the best in everybody. Just keep waiting no matter how long it takes. No one is all evil. Everybody has a good side, just keep waiting, it will come out." -Randy Pausch

someone sent me a stumbleupon to a page of inspirational quotes, OOPS FOR THEM

this one bothered me. yes, everyone has a "good side". but why the hell should we expend effort digging through assholes for the good? social and emotional discretion is a nice skill???!

not everyone is worth your time. you are the most important person in your world. dont waste yourself on jerks. there are people who are more connected with their "good side" and they are much more enjoyable to spend time with.

i see good in everyone. that doesnt make everyone good. nor should i smear myself all over the place in response to inherent goodness.

CALLIN BULLSHIT

... why should i wait for someone to crawl out of their own ass?
THERE ARE BETTER THINGS TO DO.

thank YOU, friends.

Current Mood: curious
Current Music: queens of the stone age - lightning song

one step at a time don’t be living on the line
i don’t need a friend i got morbid on the mind
sunshine in my brain making everyone complain
radio in the heart don’t be being so strange

i think i’m losing it baby where you been
everybody says that you’re moving again
i don’t wanna be right baby every single night
i could tell you a thing about taking your time

it’s making me nervous yeah

Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: Brad Sucks - Making Me Nervous

IM GOING TO EXPRESS MYSELF

verse 25

there was something formless and perfect
before the universe was born
it is serene. empty
solitary. unchanging
infinite. eternally present
it is the mother of the universe
for lack of a better name
i call it the tao

it flows through all things
inside and outside, and returns
to the origin of all things

the tao is great
the universe is great
earth is great
man is great
these are the four great powers

man follows the earth
earth follows the universe
the universe follows the tao
the tao follows only itself

Current Mood: groggy

also, i like darkness

Henry Bowers (Kung Henry) - I Like Darkness

Current Mood: grateful

Just suk my dick, just suk my dick
My dick, like this
Just suk my dick
My dick, my dick, my dick

dizzee rascal - suk my dick :D

Current Mood: hot

there is a cure.

Be real.

Embrace that you have weakness. Embrace that you have things you can't control.
You aren't the only one who feels worthless sometimes.
You aren't the only one who isn't making enough money.
You aren't the only one who has questions and doubts.
You aren't the only one who sometimes says things that really hurt other people.
You aren't the only one who gets down and hates yourself and you can't figure out why.
You aren't the only one who hates your body.
You aren't the only one that can't control yourself.

Be bold about your weaknesses and you will change people's lives. Be honest about who you actually are, and others will begin to be their actual selves around you. Once you cure yourself of the disease, others will come to you, asking if they can just "talk". People are desperate to talk. Some of the most "perfect" people around you will tell you of some of the greatest struggles going on. Some of the most "perfect" people around you will break down in tears as they tell you how difficult life is for them. Turns out some of the most "perfect" people around us are human beings after all, and are dying to talk to another human being about it.

You'll love them for it. And you'll love yourself even more.

http://www.danoah.com/2010/09/disease-called-perfection.html

Current Mood: optimistic

The Smashing Pumpkins - Stand Inside Your Love

i saw this live in spokane and my ass was rocked

Current Mood: happy

William Carlos Williams, "Danse Russe"

If I when my wife is sleeping
Ballet russe
and the baby and Kathleen
...are sleeping
and the sun is a flame-white disc
in silken mists
above shining trees,--
if I in my north room
dance naked, grotesquely
before my mirror
waving my shirt round my head
and singing softly to myself:
"I am lonely, lonely.
I was born to be lonely,
I am best so!"
If I admire my arms, my face,
my shoulders, flanks, buttocks
again the yellow drawn shades,--

Who shall say I am not
the happy genius of my household?