Irony of Fate

I finally find my voice again, only to find... there's no one around to even hear.

I never thought you'd leave me.


You could have at least said goodbye.

I really wish I knew what to do with myself as of late.

It's been so long since I've written here, I've been able to say what I want to people face to face.

But now... I feel like everyone is slipping further away from me.

I miss you...

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last week I pulled kangattack's hair (-5 points). In October I stole kaori_mochida's purse (-30 points). In June I ruled Asscrackistan as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points). In March I gave metropolice a kidney (1000 points). Last Thursday I signed my organ donor card (28 points). Overall, I've been nice (293 points). For Christmas I deserve a Lego set! Sincerely, legendary_slave

Cruel dictator? Shouldn't that read... Bandleader? XD

Awww, I wanted to be bad so that I could get a spanking too!

"There is no rest for the wicked."

I must be a truly wicked person then, for I can't remember the last time I had a decent night's sleep before this tour started.

I feel like everything is falling apart. Gaku is sick and falling off stages. You is still so depressed about his family. The tour right now doesn't even feel fun, it feels like work. It has never felt like that before.

Everyone is looking to me... and I want to be there for everyone, but I'm worried I don't have the ability to give everyone everything they need. I'm not as strong as everyone thinks I am.

I'm alone, cold, and filled with the worst sense of dred ever.

I was not allowed to go to the wake, to the funeral... When all I wanted to do was stand next to him and offer my support.

You... Aisthiteru... I'd give anything to be where you are now.

.....

I'm not talking to you right now.

Don't you EVER pull a stunt like that again!

Please excuse my absence from posting as of late. When I've not been tied up at work, I've been tied down at home. *Grins*

I think I have Miss Jackson to thank for that.

You has been away visiting his family. He's been gone for just a little over a week, but it seems like forever. I miss his arms and his voice next to my ear as I sleep. Conversations over the phone, while wonderful and sweet, just aren't a substitute for him being here lying next to me at night.

This new house is so big and I feel so small being here alone. Ototo, please come over and spend the night tonight. I'm tired of being alone.

( more proof that I don't need to be at home alone.Collapse )