Amelora- The succubus

It has come to my attention that I have had ppl add me to there freinds list that I am not friends with. So as such my journal is now friends only. KEPP YOUR DRAMA TO YOURSELF PEOPLE

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So today was a pretty good day. I looked in my mail box for the first time in about a week. There was a lot of stuff in there, I was thinking they were going to be bills and that sort of shit, but no not one bill. Instead there was a check for $80 for a place I worked at for 2 days about 3 months ago. And there was a free sample of lipstick from Maybelline. It is pretty cool and a whole tube of it too, it is probably worth about $15 in store. This is the first time in a very long time that opening my mail box has been a good thing.

I seem to be living with an animated squirrel. It is odd

mmmm griddle
lol cats
hmmm who can I spy on
granola hunt
ahhhhh poooottttteeeerrrrrr
ahhhhhhhhhhhh peepee
eeeckkkk sooooooooooo EMO
a Marine huh? yo mamma should'a swollowed
what'ch goooonnnaaa doooo brrooothhhhheeeerrr , what'cha gooonnnnnaaa ddddooooo
ahhhh nother pppooootteerrr (acctully the same one)
I cut my self cuz Im a retard
when I grow up I wanna be a troll
s'up downrater
shit iz be snowz
mmmm bed
full update later... right now it is mmmmm bed time

so I am going to read 50 books this year. That shouldn't be hard for me I read constantly and - it passes much time on subways and such. Also I just enjoy reading it. I am also doing the 15000 page challenge.

so here is my progress so far

5 / 50 (10.0%)

1,620 / 15,000 (10.8%)

So it ends up that I am actually physically sick. And like everything else in my life it can’t be just something simple. No it is Pneumonia. I go to the doctors and he gives me some pills for it. If it is not better in 10 days then I have to go and get my chest x-rayed and go threw a bunch of other tests. Damn it.
The pills were stupid expensive and on Friday they are upping my dose of Seroquel and those pills are also stupid expensive. By the end of the month I will have spent so much money on this shit. I had better be better or I am going to kill someone and claim insanity.

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

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Day 4

Only had 10 hours of sleep today.  At first I thought this was a good thing and decided to head out to some friends place. That wasn’t the best of ideas. I almost pasted out twice on the way there. While I was there we watched Tank Girl, good movie, I kept blanking out and missing whole parts. I just couldn’t concentrate and it was like I wasn’t even there. I tried to watch Austin Powers, but it just kept getting worse so I went home.

I got about 20 feet away from the apartment building when I completely forgot where I was and where I was headed too, I had no sense of direction, nothing. I started walking that I was already headed and jumped on the bus I thought was going the right way. Thankfully I was walking in the right direction and I got on the right bus. Tomorrow I am getting my cell turned back on so I can call someone if I get myself lost again. That was extremely scary. I never want to do that again. So cell phone it is.

I have one more day before I have to go back to school. I have no idea how I am going to handle school. I should have delt with this before I went to school. Hell, I should have delt with this the last time I landed myself in emerg. for this. I am so pissed at myself for not doing it then. I know it is not my fault though, not only does the disease not want me to get better, but the psychiatrist that I was seeing was an idiot, not only did he not believe me, but the pills he prescribed me only made me worse. He told me that he thought *if* there was anything wrong with me; it *might* be Bipolar Afficiate (sp) Disorder. And yet he kept me on anti-depressants which only makes the hypomania worse and in turn makes the depression worse, horrible cycle and all that.

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are very passionate and quite temperamental. While you can be moody, you always crave comfort. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.