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i miss you :( you went mia :( mama come back the kids miss you :( hope you’re doing well!!
hi 🥹 thank you so much for checking on me and for sending this message it genuinely means a lot
i’ve actually gotten a few messages like this recently and im really sorry for disappearing and for not replying to all the asks and messages that have been piling up or updating my fics lately 😭 i just wanted to give a little update because everything is okay i just havent really been doing great mentally these past few months. a few things happened in my personal life and i just wasnt feeling very inspired or creative and honestly i needed to take a step back from everything for a while
im getting treatment now and trying to take better care of myself so im slowly finding my way back to writing but im also trying not to put so much pressure on this hobby like i used to. i want it to be something that makes me happy again instead of something that stresses me out. please take care of your mental health too okay 🤍
the biggest update is that i got to see enhypen and it was genuinely one of the best experiences of my life 😭 it healed something in me in a way i cant really explain. i never got around to talking about it here but i had the best time and made so many amazing memories, so yeah ive been pretty absent from social media in general not just tumblr because ive been focusing on getting better and spending time with the people i love
thank you again for thinking of me and for being so patient i really appreciate it more than you know 🫂
──── BACK 2 U ⁺₊✧ s. jy
pairing ⋆₊˚⊹⋆˙⟡ sim jaeyun x f!reader ── .✦ angst, f2l to exes to ???, smut (mdni!), exes with benefits ft. friend group!enha wc ꩜⊹✎ᝰ.ᐟ 35k ˙𐃷˙
synopsis ₊˚⊹⋆˙⟡ sim jaeyun broke up with the love of his life eight months ago. sim jaeyun is doing just fine. or at least, he's gotten very good at saying he is. unfortunately, the truth is a little more complicated when the person you're trying to get over still exists in your everyday life, still shares the same friends, still shows up to game night, still laughs at your jokes, and still reminds you of what you lost. so when one reckless night becomes another, then another, then another, jake finds himself caught between the future he thought he wanted and the person he can't seem to stop choosing. because while some people leave your life, some become the place you're always trying to get back to.
warnings ✦ ݁˖ 18+ // angst, the entire thing is angst bro // spoiler: yes happy ending do not fret :D // ok yes there's some crack in it though because im unserious // it's literally lovers to exes to friends to exes with benefits, it's messy shit (there’s rebound dating & third party tension & jealousy, yes) // emotional dependency, attachment issues, insecurities, self-doubt // reader & jake are objectively not good decision makers // very introspective and very emotionally constipated but also healing, i promise :D ˗ˏˋ nsfw tags ᝰ.ᐟ it's literally exes with benefits..so lots of sex implied lmfao, hate sex kinda, car sex, one heavy smut scene but the rest implied, unprotected sex, oral sex, fingering, jake is needy and hot lol
she is finally here LFG…….. cant wait to read it
omg hello?! im here to tell you the story lmao! i can’t believe im doing this, but literally idk what else to do. i’ll try to sum it up as much as i can🥹
to give you some context, currently i am studying/working abroad, so i met this guy last year and we clicked instantly, we danced all night, talked all night, and we just liked each others company, but sadly, he doesn’t live in the same city as me, he’s in another city 3 HOURS AWAY FROM MINE💀 just my luck, right? after he left, we continued texting, making video calls for hours, and things were good, until he started “disappearing” per say, because it took him 2-3 days to answer my texts and honestly, that really annoys me, but then, we would continue talking for hours over the phone and it was just confusing!
i was really attracted to him, but i didn’t like this routine of him taking so long to answer and just come back whenever he wants, so i ghosted him for some times, until one day he told me that he’ll come visit me and i was like WHAT! honestly i didn’t believed him until i SAW HIM, and girl🥹 we spent the whole weekend together and it was the most romantic thing i’ve ever experienced💌💕 we talked a lot about what this means for us and he promised that he’ll come visit me by the end of summer, so i just decided to believe him.
i thought that after his trip, things would be different between us and they were until he STARTED DISSAPEARING AGAIN! 2-3 days to reply and so ever, but at the same time he would answer all my texts and started looking for tickets to come for this summer😩 as for me? girl i’m going CRAZY!!! because i hate the person that i become when i like someone😭 i mean, i was planning to finish my program and then go back home like BYE BITCHES IM DONE WITH Y’ALL🦦 but then this mf comes in and suddenly i am considering in extending?!!!?!!!! even though i know it’s SO COMPLICATED?! like girl, extend my visa FOR A BOY?!😭🥹 not to mention that i freaking miss him and i HATE the distance?!
i’ve told my friends about this, and they all say “maybe he’s just not that into you” “don’t extend because of him, but because you want it” and the most repetitive one “just enjoy this time, but don’t get so involved” but girl, I AM ENVOLVED😭 i was weak lmao, every time we talked it just flows, he’s just so easy to talk to, but i hate the distance😭 i am so confused right now but basically, that’s the story🥹 i would really like your opinion, i know you’re blog it’s not for this, but i appreciate that you allowed me to share this with you💌
PS: something funny about this, it’s that when we met, i passed him my phone so he could add his number, and when he unlocked it, he saw my wallpaper which was heeseung’s picture with the fucking knife in desire unleash era (IYKYK) and girl i FROZE🧍🏼♂️it was very embarrassing but he didn’t freaked out LMAOO maybe he thought i had some misterios kink or something, ill ask him next time in 2-3 business days LOL🦦
once again queen, thank you so much for listening and as always, i’m sending you THE BIGGEST HUG!💌🦦💕
omg hi 🥹🫶 first of all thank you for trusting me with the story i genuinely love when people send me stuff like this im always on reddit giving relationship advice LMFAOOO
ok so first thing i totally get the whole him taking time to reply thing like im actually also the type of person who disappears sometimes and takes ages to text back just because i dont really live on my phone like that even when i love someone a lot but i also think there’s a big difference between “i’m a slow texter” and vanishing for 3 days while still expecting emotional access to you😭
and i think the key thing here is exactly what you already kinda feel which is communication like if this is someone you actually care about and are building something with it’s totally fair to say hey i like you i enjoy talking to you but i need a bit more consistency just like a basic “hey i’m busy today but i’ll talk later” kind of energy so you’re not stuck in that confusing limbo
now about the whole extending your visa thing im gonna say this very gently but do not make a life changing decision like that purely because of a guy like if you also want to stay for YOU your life your experience your growth your career whatever then yes absolutely consider it but if the main reason is him then it gets really risky because at the end of the day you’re still in the early stages of whatever this is and you don’t actually know what direction it’s gonna go in yet
and i say this in a very loving way like i want you to get your romantic movie ending but i also want you to be okay if it doesnt turn into one 😭
so yeah my honest take is talk to him clearly about what you need and see if he can meet you there and then make decisions about your life based on what YOU want independently of him
also the heeseung wallpaper situation took me OUT i am crying 😭😭😭 honestly iconic behaviour no notes I MEAN he got to see dada licking a knife!!!!
sending you the biggest hug and i’m fully invested now so please update me i need chapter 2 of this saga
what do we think about belift taking the hyphen oit of enha’s logo? i’m sick to my stomach
girl im trying to figure out how im paying my credit card this month my washing machine broke yesterday my credit card got declined at the grocery store im sorry i have bigger things keeping me up at night
It’s been a while since you came back and I’m even relieved you are not getting any more disruptions from these crazy people over enhablr and they’re leaving you alone LOL it feels less toxic these days thankfully, glad you’re back!!
hiii !!! and oh yeah lollll a while ago it was kind of crazy here yeah like people were way too invested in drama for no reason but i feel like now everyone just kinda stopped caring as much like sometimes there’s still stuff going on but it’s very much like girl what is the point of this 😭 this is literally tumblr calm down
and yeah i dont really get bothered anymore if anything happens i just ignore it and move on i dont let it get to my head like that anymore like if youre still doing fandom drama in june 2026 i feel like we all need to log off and go outside touch some grasssss
hello queen?! how are we doing after heeseung’s debut? honestly, i liked it! it really gives me vibes of evanescence, what are your thoughts?!🥹🫂
and also i wanted to ask you, could you give me some advice about my love life? LMAO, if you can, i’ll send you another ask telling you all the tea about this guy that’s literally driving me INSANE, i already asked my friends but i thought, “why not ask my fav author on tumblr? maybe she’ll have another point of view” hehehe
once again queen, i’m wishing you the best and sending you hugsssss🫂💌
HELLO QUEEN 🥹🫂 i actually really liked heeseung’s debut too!! and yesss i see what you mean with the evanescence vibes actually love evanescence btw i’m still kind of processing it tbh but overall im proud of him
AND WAIT LMAOOO love life advice from me??? girl you are brave for this 😭😭😭 i would actually love to hear the tea though so yes please send it but honestly im flattered you thought to ask me that
send the story im ready to be nosy !! and sending you hugs right back
SCREAMING IN JOYYY?? is that a pirate jay fic i see ....... you have no idea how long I've been waiting for this did you read my mind somehow... also I realised i never came to welcome you back! (╯︵╰,) my bad ronnie ueueueu I'm so glad to see you back now :3 hope you're doing wonderful!
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HIIIIII 🍡 ANON HOW HAVE U BEEN!!!! its okay you didnt miss anything and im just happy youre back messaging me 🫶🫶 yes im writing the pirate jay fic and girl its actually insane rn im literally pulling water from stone here 😭 ive been studying pirate lore and terminology i even rewatched pirates of the caribbean for research and now my brain is just ayerrrr mate LMFAOO but im actually really enjoying it
and im seriously considering posting it on ao3 because the pacing is actually making sense in chapters so it might end up being my little debut there or maybe wattpad idk 😭 but wattpad scares me lowkey im not gonna lie
🎤 TUMBLR USER HEEJAMAS HOW DO WE FEEL ABOUT EVAN'S DEBUT???? HE DID SO WELL I'M SO PROUD OF HIM 🥹
HI ASHER i’m so proud of him too honestly !!! i LOVED overflow like genuinely loved it i’ve had it on repeat since it came out
tbh i’m not the biggest ride or die enthusiast yet but i think part of that is just me getting used to this whole new normal but genuinely i’m really happy for him you can tell how much this project means to him and how passionate he is about it
can i say i absolutely love your whimsy fics such as gf simulator and just my luck and night changes ugh they’re so whimsical and fun and i love when you write on that specific style but not as fantasyland or anything like that just pure Whimsyyyyy
funny you said that because i’ve had this pirate jay plot just sitting in my drafts for so long now
i’ve been writing it super slowly because i really want the vocabulary and the worldbuilding to feel immersive so i’ve literally been studying pirate terminology 😭 but at the same time i wasn’t even sure if i liked what i was writing yet sooooo idk……
BUT THAT WAS VERY MOTIVATING thank you maybe i’ll give it a shot and actually finish it
also i find it kinda rude that ur new theme (very very cute btw!!!) does not feature lucario... like that's ur baby how do u LEAVE HIM OUT BRO????? treason, i say 😔
NOOO 😭😭😭 im so sorry i swear it’s not lucario erasure i promise i just really wanted a pink and orange theme for pride month (lesbian flag colors thank you) so my son unfortunately did not fit the aesthetic vision this time 😔 but don’t worry he is still my child he will return i will find a way to reincorporate him into the theme i promise
Ronnie…… First of all just wanted to say that I absolutely loved Before We Were Strangers, read the entire thing in one sitting and by the end I was crying so hard that my dad actually came into my room to ask what was wrong lol
You managed to put into words what it actually feels like to move on from a relationship esp the the way you slowly rearrange your life around an absence and the tiny habits that disappear and the routines you stop noticing and then one random thing happens likehearing a s ong or remember a conversation and suddenly you realize maybe you’re not as over it as you thought you were. There was also a part that really stayed with me where she realizes she went an entire day without thinking about him, I feel like a lot of stories would treat that moment as some huge victory but you captured something much more complicated such as the weird sadness of realizing you’re moving on. Missing someone and then eventually missing the feeling of missing them UGH so peak
I also loved the structure of the fic the way memories appear and disappear, felt less like someone telling me a story and more like someone remembering one
The ending absolutely devastated me not because I expected them to get back together I think deep down I knew that wasn’t where the story was going but because of how peaceful it felt, never felt like it was about finding your way back to someone but like it was about carrying them with you without letting that stop you from moving forward and bout accepting that something can be beautiful and important even if it doesn’t last forever.
This fic made me cry a lot made me think about a lot of things
Thank you for sharing it it was genuinely beautiful <3
oh wow awww thank you so much 😭😭😭 i love getting messages like this!!! sometimes people point out things that make me go YES!!! that’s exactly what i was trying to do!!! HAHAHA and what you said about the story being about moving forward and all those little mundane things that happen afterwards was so special to read because that was genuinely what i wanted the fic to be about, i wanted it to feel ordinary bc i think almost everyone has experienced some version of that feeling at some point in their lives and afterwards it’s never one big moment where you’re suddenly okay it’s all these tiny adjustments
writing this fic helped me process a lot of things too, i think one of the reasons i write in the first place is because putting feelings into words helps me understand them better like sometimes i’ll be struggling to explain something to myself and then i write it into a story and suddenly it makes sense so in a weird way i think this fic helped me move forward too
anyway 😭 thank you so much for this !!! it genuinely means a lot to me!!
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first thanku for asking how i’m doing🥺 and i’m getting there bro fuck my ex idk what’s going on during pride month aswell yeah😔😔 but i think im doing okayy im just tryna go out and do things that make me happy as much as i can since it’s summer noww and oh my god it’s teaching 36 degrees in london and i know it does not sound like a lot but trust me if you’ve experienced summer in england the heat is completely different but n e wayz thank you for askinggggg💕💕
okay first of all FUCK YOUR EX!!!!!! during pride month too????? the audacity but honestly i’m really happy to hear you’re doing okay and getting out of the house and doing things that make you happy 🫶 i feel like after a breakup that’s genuinely one of the best things you can do. summer healing arc!!!
ALSO THIRTY SIX DEGREES IN LONDON????????? english summer heat is EVIL i swear it’s a completely different species of heat i remember being there during summer and feeling like i was being slow roasted alive pLEASE drink a ridiculous amount of water and stay in the shade whenever possible meanwhile i’m over here freezing my ass off because it’s winter here
sending you the biggest hug though 🫂 i’m glad you’re hanging in there and i hope the rest of your summer is full of fun things !!
