midnights (3am edition) - masterlist

A collection of stories inspired by lyrics of the one and only, miss Taylor Swift.

it's been a long time coming...

it has been 1 year, 9 months, and 8 days since my last story.

and it still feels a bit unreal to be here again. I feel so many mixed emotions, you know? I feel nostalgic and proud of a lot I put into this blog, I feel scared and anxious to write my feelings out, I feel confused and lost when it comes to the future.

when I started f1letters, I was a lonely kid, with a love for writing and an immense desire to get my creativity out in a safe space. I managed to gather all of my inspiration into this lovely little bubble, with amazing people around me and a lot of support from the f1 community, and I will never be able to put into words how supported and content I felt with what I built.

I was so dedicated to this work. I spent hours writing, thinking of new story ideas, listening to music, designing the banners and photos I used, etc. I loved this, with all of me.

But then, things changed. I started to get hateful, disrespectful, disgusting comments, as I previously expressed to you. and as time went on, I lost my spark and gave up.

Hey babe! I'm so, so sorry for not answering sooner but I was taking some time off 😊 Thank you for always checking in and for being so kind ❤️ How I wish there were more loving people like you, ilysm 🥹🫶🏻

Hi my darling! ❤️ Thank you so, so much for reaching out! It's always nice to know some people still understand what I'm going through and don't feel disappointed in me for taking some time apart 🥹 Your support means the world! 🫶🏻

This literally brought tears to my eyes! 🥹

Thank you for sharing your own experience with mental health, and for understanding my struggles. You said it better than I ever could: "even engaging in a creative outlet can be nearly impossible" - I truly see myself in that. I chose to start this as a fun escape from reality, doing one of the things I love the most (even if I feel a bit burnout right now) but when people try to make it one of my obligation instead of a hobby, it just feels like going to work, and writing in here doesn't even pay my bills lol

I appreciate you so, so much. Thank you for reaching out, and for being so sweet and kind. The world really needs more people like you 🥹🫶🏻

This means a lot ❤️ I know it has been months since I posted but life has been crazy lately. I can understand people want me to finish the series but when they are straight-up rude and disregard me as a human being with responsibilities and feelings, the only thing they are accomplishing is me being even LESS excited for this blog than I already am.

With this being said, I'm so thankful for kind people like you, who make it all worth it! ❤️‍🩹

Sorry for taking so long to answer, but as you can tell by my previous post... Your girl has been through it with the asks lol

Hope you have a lovely day! And thank you for the song rec, always love to know new songs! ❤️✨

It's unbelievable how people will ALWAYS find a way to bully people for what they want.

I've talked about the constant harassment I was getting in a previous post but apparently, it wasn't enough and it kept on going. So in a last effort, I'm officially turning off anon asks.

I struggle deeply with anxiety and depression, I've been struggling for almost 10 years by now. I've opened up about my health issues many times as well. And it's absolutely unbelievable how some people just don't care AT ALL about other people's feelings (not only mine, but of a lot of writers in this app) and think bullying them will make them write again ?!!

Waking up morning after morning with questions and straight-up rude comments about me not posting stories... It does something to someone's mental health, you know? I try to ignore it and be kind to everyone but it comes to a time where you have to stand up for yourself and just say it how it is.

I'm a fucking adult. I have a job. I have a house I have to maintain by myself. I have a family. I have friends.

The only thing you are accomplishing with these types of asks is making my anxiety worst and making me want to delete this blog once and for all tbh so I don't have to deal with this shit anymore.

Well, that's it. Be kind, people. You never know how much people are really struggling on the other side. - cat

Manifestando Eras Tour na Europa as we speak! 🤣 Obrigada! Significa imenso ouvir isso mesmo! 🥺❤️

Sou, sim senhora! Com muito orgulho! 😂❤️💚

Hi darling! ❤️ Uni can be so hard sometimes, especially when it comes to essays and deadlines, but thank God for people like your teacher! 👏🏻 Hope you get some well-deserved rest after that, love you too! 🥰

Hi lovely! ✨ Hope you had an amazing day! It's always amazing to hear from you ❤️ Also living for the Taylor song of course! 🥰

honestly, ily soooo much darling, makes me smile so much every time i see a message from you ❤️😍 and I'm feeling really good actually! I think my health issues are officially over, thank god! thank you so so much for asking, you're the sweetest and one of my absolute fav people on this app 💘

38. What story of yours are you surprised that people liked as much as they did?

1000% 'karma'! it blows my mind to this day how it has more than 1,600 notes! 🤯🤯 it's the power of sir lewis hamilton, i guess! 😂❤️

4. Did you have any ideas that didn’t make the final cut? 

'anti-hero' had a whole different plot actually! 😅 it was supposed to be a story focused more on the consequences of bullying and hate, where in the end she would've chosen herself and left him for her mental health but in the end, I was not feeling it and I thought inserting the driver!reader aspect would make it better so I changed it completely! haha

 20. What feedback makes you the happiest to hear?

honestly, I'm going to give the vaguest, most boring answer but anything! interacting with you guys, seeing your opinions and theories, knowing how you felt reading the stories - it's the best part of writing and the part I miss the most nowadays 💕

25. What scene took the longest to write? What was difficult about it? 

I remember being so stuck in my head while writing 'lavender haze' and I can't even explain why but I struggled so much to put my idea into words 🤦‍♀️

another story I took a lot of time to write was 'bigger than the whole sky', it meant (and means) so much to me and i wanted to do my best and give it my all... 💘

39. What area of writing do you feel strongest in?

omg, i hate having to compliment myself 😂 but in general I would say that my strength is having ideas, planning the plots, the details I want to add! the creative process has always come easier to me than the writing process itself!

even now that I've been away, I'm constantly coming up with ideas for new stories: while listening to music, while walking down the street, etc. - I feel constantly inspired by the world around me every day ❤️