if i was your boyfriend
michael is tired of watching from the sidelines as you get hurt again
tags. smut MDNI, inexperienced!michael x experienced!reader, sub!mike, loss of virginity, p in v, no protection (don’t do this), creampie, spit as lube (wouldn’t recommend), blackfem!reader, thriller!era
note. based on this request. wc. 2.8K
i’m not as pleased with this as i’d like to be but we ball
The rain was gently beating down against Michael's window, almost drowning out the sounds of the record he had spinning.
Your favorite album, that he thought would cheer you up. You were laid on his chest curled up into him as you two sat in comfortable silence, the conversation having died down a moment ago.
He’d been through this before with you. Same routine everytime. You’d tell him you had a date with your boyfriend, all pretty and excited and he would pretend to be happy about it. You’d get all dressed up, only to be disappointed when your boyfriend eventually let you down.
One that Michael was, quite frankly, getting sick of. He couldn’t keep watching you do this to yourself. You deserved so much better than some schmuck who couldn’t even give you the time of day.
But you kept going back. And Michael as your closest friend, constantly protested against it, more slick than obvious detestation. Snide comments that he thought were well deserved.
“You gotta stop seeing this guy, he' s hurtin’ you.” was what he went with this time.
“I know.” nothing else, just small and meek. You were never that, so to watch another person reduce you to that hurt Michael.
For the first time, Michael didn’t know what to do to fix this. Or if there was anything he could do. He missed hearing you talk to him, tease him, laugh. Anything really. He harbored such intense feelings for you that it scared him sometimes.
“Michael?” he immediately perked up at the sound of your voice giving you his full attention, his hand pausing at the small of your back.
“How come you’ve never had a girlfriend?” the question hits him in the chest and he avoids the eye contact you’re forcing him to make.
“Oh uhm, m’not sure. I just haven’t found anyone I’m interested in I guess.” a bold faced lie. The girl he wanted was laid across him right now crying over another man.
“Hmm, I know you’d be a great boyfriend to some girl one day.” you spoke a bit sadly plopping your head back down.
Michael thought he could be that for you. If you ever let him.
“I know so. You’re very sweet and loving, attentive, far more than any man I’ve met. And you’re so cute, I jus’ wanna eat you up.” your praise had Michael’s face heating up and he brought a hand up to palm over his mouth to hide his grin.
Distantly he thought if you thought all that, then why won’t you just choose him?
“You know, I actually did break up with him. Before I came here.” your hand traced absentminded circles over his t shirt, not even being aware that you’d just turned Michael’s whole world upside down.
“You did? Seriously?” he sounded too eager to his own ears. You nodded.
“Well that’s great…well not great but it’s- I mean- “ your laugh cut off his rambling. “It’s okay I get what you mean.” you pat his chest pausing a moment before your next words.
“I know you didn’t like him.” Michael didn’t even try to argue with you. He wouldn’t lie to you. Not ever.
“I just think you deserve better. I would treat you so much better than him.” he didn’t mean to let that last part slip out.
You sat up to look at him then, staring deep into his eyes and he stayed with his head pressed firm to the pillow, nervous at your reaction.
“You would?” you looked uncertain. But like you so badly wanted to believe him. Michael inhaled a sharp breath before continuing.
“Yes I would. If I was your boyfriend, I’d never leave you alone like that. Never stand you up.” you bit the skin of your lip drawing it into your mouth.
“Well, I’d buy you anything you wanted. You name it and it’s yours.” and he meant every word he said. You could feel the sincerity bleeding from his words and you knew Michael. He would never lie to you.
“I’d do anything to make you happy.” he registered your hand reaching for his that was sat atop his thigh, lacing your fingers together.
The contact had Michael swallowing down his sudden nerves, eyes darting across the room for a moment before returning.
“You would do anything for me?”
“Yes.” completely breathless but not a moments hesitation.
You made a move then, slowly crawling closer to Michael and bringing your faces close together. You could feel his breath hitch as his lips parted a bit. His eyes flitting down to yours like he couldn’t help himself.
“Michael.” the way you said it sent shivers running down his spine. Just the sound of you saying his name had his hips shifting against the bed.
“Can I kiss you?” you asked him politely, your tone slightly seductive. Or maybe that’s just how he heard it because he wanted you so bad.
“Yeah but- I don’t know if it’ll be good I- uhm I’ve never kissed anyone before.” his breathing had picked up at just the prospect of your lips on his. But he didn’t want to embarrass himself. After all, you’d been with others before. He hadn’t.
“Never? Well that’s okay, I can show you. S’no big deal.” you smiled at him and Michael felt his heart flutter in his chest.
With his go ahead you swung a leg over his hips, not putting your weight on him, but kneeling over his body on all fours. “I hope this is okay.” you spoke, seemingly a bit shy yourself.
“Yeah this is okay.” and with that you brought your lips down on his. It was just a touching of lips at first, Michael’s body completely freezing up for a fraction of a second. And once he got over the initial shock that you were actually kissing him, he relaxed a bit.
You pressed a few pecks to his lips and he liked those. He liked them a lot. So much that he chased your mouth every time you pulled back from him.
You went to pull back to see if he was still okay but he protested immediately, hands shooting to your waist to keep you still.
“Wait, please don’t stop.” he drug your body down to his, making you straddle him fully now. Your hips flush together. You could feel him begin to get hard under you.
“Are you sure?” you were still asking him for reassurance. You wanted this. You just wanted to make sure he did too.
“Yes, please please.” His soft voice begged, breathless. And he didn’t care how borderline pathetic he sounded begging you to kiss him. He needed to feel your lips against his again.
You brought your lips back to his, kissing him more feverishly and Michael melted into the mattress under you.
The kiss wasn’t bad at all but you could see how Michael was inexperienced. Your teeth clashed together one moment and you and Michael just laughed. At one point he turned his head and your noses bumped together a bit hard as he went back in. But you just smiled and kissed the tip of his nose.
You felt honored that he chose to have you for his first kiss. And he loved every moment of your lips on his. It’d been something he’d dreamed about a long time, alone in his bed fighting the urge to touch himself to thoughts of you.
But none of that could compare to the feeling of you rolling your hips down on his, grinding slowly against his bulge. He immediately broke the kiss letting out a low whine at the contact.
“Omg are you okay?! I didn’t hurt you did I?” your lips broke from him and you were frantically searching his face, hands coming up to hold either side.
“No m’okay, you didn’t hurt me. It uhm… feels good.”
You seemed to sigh in relief knowing that he was fine and enjoying himself.
You continued on to grind your hips harder on him, the friction of your panties rubbing your clit delicious.
He was absolutely in heaven, tipping his head back and moaning at the feeling. His big palms, a little sweaty, grabbed at your hips. He didn’t try to change your movements. He was just holding on.
You could feel him twitching between your legs, growing and prodding your slit.
And he felt big. Like really big.
Especially when he started thrusting up into you like he was trying to bury himself in you, like he couldn’t help himself. You just felt so good and his needy whines and moans we’re turning you on so much.
“Mm you feel so good mama.” his voice, more breathless than you’d ever heard. You brought your lips back down to his and he met you eagerly, head lifting up.
This time he was much better, getting the hang of the action quickly. But it wasn’t enough for him anymore.
You felt his tongue gently prod at the seam of your lip and you opened your mouth to him. You heard him hum a little in his throat when you brought your tongue to his. Despite inexperience, Michael was still a good kisser.
Between your lips, you could feel the saliva spilling from his mouth a bit onto yours. It wasn’t a crazy amount but you didn’t mind either way. He tasted so good, like cinnamon, probably from the obscene amounts of gum he chewed. It was making your head spin.
He gently gnawed on your lip, sucking it into his mouth and that had you throbbing.
“I want more. Please.” his hands started reaching for your shirt then, hands gripping the hem. He didn’t pull it up, just held it there.
He was trying so hard to keep some control.
You started trailing kisses down his neck then, sucking the soft skin into your mouth leaving light hickeys for him to find later.
You moved further down till you reached his belt, loosening the thing and dragging it through the loops. Your eyes landed on the bulge you were now eye level with and you bit your lip. You were sure he had to be pretty big based on what you saw.
Michael noticed how you paused, eyes trained on his crotch. He began to get nervous then.
“Is somethin’ wrong?” his voice was soft and a tad bit concerned. He hoped that he didn’t do anything wrong. Or that you didn’t want to do this anymore. Because you didn’t actually want him the same way he wanted you.
“No no I promise nothing's wrong it’s just uhm,” you weren’t sure how to phrase what you were thinking so you just shook your head and continued on.
You wiggled his pants from his hips and legs leaving him only in his bright red briefs. Now you were certain he was fucking huge. Bigger than you’d had at least. Which to be fair, wasn’t a hard mark to beat.
“Alright, what’s wrong talk to me.”
“Nothin it’s- you're just big. Bigger than I’ve had. M’not sure if it’ll fit. If that’s what you want.” Michael got shy at the compliment hand coming up to cover the grin breaking out on his face. Nervous habit of his to smile in situations that probably didn’t warrant it.
Finally you pulled his boxers down and he sprang out, he was already embarrassingly wet, leaking pre cum off the tip. And he shivered as the cold air of his room met his sensitive flesh.
You brought your hand up to your mouth, wetting it, bringing it down to stroke him, mixing your spit with his pre cum.
“You have a really pretty dick.” you couldn’t help but tell him, your eyes trained on his trying to soak up every reaction. And it was true. He was the prettiest you’d seen and you’d seen some pretty ugly ones.
You weren’t even sure if he heard you at first when he didn’t respond, eyes squeezed closed at your ministrations.
God your hand felt so good on him. Far better than his own if he was being honest.
“Mmm thank you.” it felt a bit awkward to say while trying not to cum all over your hand. And he was nearly there, squeezing his body uncomfortably tight trying not to let go.
He wanted to hold out for you.
His hand moved to your thigh gripping the flesh a bit hard. “Please I can’t take this. Need you now.” he didn’t exactly know how to voice what he wanted.
But he hoped you got the message as he brought his hands to wedge between your thighs. He didn’t touch you where you wanted him to. Just rested it there, gently caressing the skin of your thigh.
“Okay m’ sorry, just a sec.” you removed your hands from him and moved to take off your shorts and panties, your shirt and bra quickly following. And he’d never seen this much of you. This much of anyone.
But only this moment mattered to him.
You straddled his hips again and brought your hips down over his dick and you were so wet, your slick coating over his shaft as you made contact.
The feel of your pussy on him was absolute heaven and it was driving him crazy. He couldn’t help but buck up into you. “Oh my gosh please.” he didn’t know what exactly he was begging for. But he knew he needed more of you.
You canted your hips back and forth, him slipping between your folds. You were a bit worried about his size but you’d been thinking about this for so long yourself, you were determined. You had to have him inside you.
You leaned down to kiss him more before you lifted up and sank down on him.
You were torturously slow to lower your hips and as soon as your warm wet heat wrapped around his tip, he knew he was a goner.
It was a small struggle to take him but you were so wet his size wasn’t that much of an issue. But there was an obscene amount of pressure in your gut at the amount of space he took up. Practically smooshed to your walls. And you were tightening around him more and more, heightening the sensation.
He was practically vibrating with need and energy as you slid down further until your pelvis was flush to his, bringing your hands up to his chest, you start to ride him, slow at first.
Michael had kept his eyes almost closed this whole time but there was no way he was going to miss this. They way your eyes rolled back and squeezed shut, head tipping back to expose your neck.
He swore he was in heaven.
“Hmm Michael y’feel so good ohmygosh.” you were blabbering and he was eating up all your praises.
He couldn’t help but rock his hips up when it started to feel too good. Your wet heat gripping him so tight, he was on the verge of cumming already. He wanted to hold out so bad.
“Ahh please please!” he didn’t know if that was his voice or yours. It was probably him he guessed.
You were in complete ecstasy, unable to focus on anything but the slide of his dick in and out of you as you bounced in his lap. Your combined wetness was leaking over causing obscene noises to ring out as your skin met.
You just couldn’t stop. And you didn’t want to. He had to be the best you’d ever had. And he’d never even had sex before this.
“M’gonna cum, m’sorry I can’t anymore.” he whimpered out, looking into your eyes. His were blown wide and darkened with lust and desire.
“S’okay baby, jus’ cum I’ve got you.” and the way you spoke to him had him tipping over the edge, hips stalling as he came deep inside you.
And he came a lot, ropes and ropes spilling and oozing out of you.
You brought your hand to your clit, rubbing circles as you kept going, chasing that feeling in your gut that had been building.
Michael watched you with rapt attention, mouth hanging open trying to catch his breath. The sight of you chasing your high and bouncing in his lap was too much.
He was getting hard again.
And god that friction was leading into overstimulation for him and he didn’t know if he could take much more. His toes were curling in his socks and he was a mess under you.
That was what did you in and you came crying out his name then slumped on his chest.
He was still twitching inside you moments later when you didn’t pull off of him.
“I’m glad you were my first time.” he spoke when his breathing finally calmed down, his hand rubbing soft soothing circles on your back.
“I’m glad I was too.” you sat up to look at him.
“Y’know Michael, I would do anything for you too.” you referenced his earlier words, a conversation not long forgotten.
He nodded at you a bit unsure where this was going.
“I wasn’t gonna say anything because I wasn’t sure if you felt the same about me but- I really like you. I have for a long time and I just wanted you to know. You’re one of the most important people in my life.” you confession was nervous and rambled out. And you didn’t exactly dream of it happening with you sat on him and leaking his cum out of you.
But you couldn’t think of a better moment.
“You have no idea how happy it makes me to hear you say that.” he was beaming at you, eyes full of light and love.
“I’ve always loved you. From the very beginning really.” you couldn’t help but to kiss him then.