What I Found There

My life of late, has been a continued season of encountering my own humanity. Here is a space where I will continue to creatively engage with the unfolding implications of my life story, as it is occurs.

Who am I?

In the fall of 2023, I received an unexpected diagnosis of a rare, and optimistically treatable form of Cancer. Over the next few months, I decided to open up my reflections and observations from this season of drift. It was a form of personal reflective therapy. Trying to mine complicated seasons for instances of life and light is a work of contemplative awareness. Is there the smallest flicker of light on even the darkest night? Is that light made more bright by the darkness that surrounds it? I think it can so often be so.

In the spring of 2026, an MRI suggested that after two years without concern, there were two new le tumours now taking up residence in my left hip. Treatment is going to be more severe, less localized and will be closer to what I traditionally understand as the "Cancer" experience.

I wanted to craft a space where I could share reflections, as a commitment to the practice of writing meaning-making. I’m sure not all of this will resonate with every reader, but if I can, in some small way make articulate all those feelings and thoughts that can feel so profoundly inarticulate.

Can I make useful the clumsy steps I have taken, the roads I have gotten lost down, the hope I have returned to? I cannot say for sure, but here are a few words, like lights along the way, leading us home.

This is what I found while I wandered there.