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On this day in community — April 8th
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Hello all, I'm new. Thought it would be a nice community to join. I know I definately have weight issues.
I guess it all started way back when I was probably in 6th grade. I was a chubby kid. By no means fat, but definately chubby. I also have a twin sister. The kids would make fun of us for various things all the time. Mostly about being chubby. They called my sis "flabby Abby." They didn't have any fat names for me but they always made fun of me anyway.
Basically thats probably scarred me for life. :/ It went on until 8th grade, when in highschool it wasn't such a problem anymore. I had started puberty, and started getting curves instead of fat.
I still saw it as fat though, but when I look back at pics from back then I realize I was a very normal shaped young girl. Throughout highschool though, I still heard the voice in my head, "you are so fat, I can't believe your butt is this big, or your thighs or so fat, or your gut is sticking out like that." Mostly though, it was, "I can't believe you weigh this much."
My sophomore year I actually got pretty thin.. back then I still thought I was fat, but when I look back I know I was really thin. I've battled with short bouts of anorexia and bullimia. (I went about a month without eating anything but crackers and I've thrown up my food a few times) but neither one really stuck around. I hate throwing up, and I get weak if I don't get enough food in my system.
So about my senior year was the biggest I've ever been. I was 200lbs. ( I am 5'10) I couldn't believe how fat I was. It was horrible.. so I started taking Metabolife for about 2 months, and it started to make my heart feel weird so I stopped taking it. I lost 12lbs from it. Which was fine with me! Freshman year in college, I started working out 3 times a day, and started getting pretty tone.. but I still wasn't losing weight. I started smoking.
That was the trick. Smoking. It was such a great thing. I smoked for about a year, and instead of eating when I felt hungry, or had a craving to eat something I had a cigarette instead. It was such a great diet suppresant. I lost 35 lbs within that year, and I looked GREAT! My mom even called me "tiny" and I have never heard my name and the word "tiny" in the same sentence before. I was on some kind of rush knowing how thin I was. I found a wonderful boyfriend, that appreciated who I was and my body for what it is.
My boyfriend started asking me to quit smoking b/c its not healthy, and so I did eventually quit.. after about 3 months into our relationship or so.
But now I'm staring to gain the weight back! *ARGH* I have started working out again though, so hopefully I can lose the weight I have gained (about 13lbs) and then some. My boyfriend says I am still very beautiful and he doesn't see any changes in me.. but I can. He doesn't live with me everyday to see the fat coming back.. I have decided to join the navy this summer, so hopefully Bootcamp will whip me into shape! Plus it will be a good experience to meet new people and travel. Maybe gain back some self esteem about my body.
Well thanks for reading my story.. Sorry it was so long.
I guess it all started way back when I was probably in 6th grade. I was a chubby kid. By no means fat, but definately chubby. I also have a twin sister. The kids would make fun of us for various things all the time. Mostly about being chubby. They called my sis "flabby Abby." They didn't have any fat names for me but they always made fun of me anyway.
Basically thats probably scarred me for life. :/ It went on until 8th grade, when in highschool it wasn't such a problem anymore. I had started puberty, and started getting curves instead of fat.
I still saw it as fat though, but when I look back at pics from back then I realize I was a very normal shaped young girl. Throughout highschool though, I still heard the voice in my head, "you are so fat, I can't believe your butt is this big, or your thighs or so fat, or your gut is sticking out like that." Mostly though, it was, "I can't believe you weigh this much."
My sophomore year I actually got pretty thin.. back then I still thought I was fat, but when I look back I know I was really thin. I've battled with short bouts of anorexia and bullimia. (I went about a month without eating anything but crackers and I've thrown up my food a few times) but neither one really stuck around. I hate throwing up, and I get weak if I don't get enough food in my system.
So about my senior year was the biggest I've ever been. I was 200lbs. ( I am 5'10) I couldn't believe how fat I was. It was horrible.. so I started taking Metabolife for about 2 months, and it started to make my heart feel weird so I stopped taking it. I lost 12lbs from it. Which was fine with me! Freshman year in college, I started working out 3 times a day, and started getting pretty tone.. but I still wasn't losing weight. I started smoking.
That was the trick. Smoking. It was such a great thing. I smoked for about a year, and instead of eating when I felt hungry, or had a craving to eat something I had a cigarette instead. It was such a great diet suppresant. I lost 35 lbs within that year, and I looked GREAT! My mom even called me "tiny" and I have never heard my name and the word "tiny" in the same sentence before. I was on some kind of rush knowing how thin I was. I found a wonderful boyfriend, that appreciated who I was and my body for what it is.
My boyfriend started asking me to quit smoking b/c its not healthy, and so I did eventually quit.. after about 3 months into our relationship or so.
But now I'm staring to gain the weight back! *ARGH* I have started working out again though, so hopefully I can lose the weight I have gained (about 13lbs) and then some. My boyfriend says I am still very beautiful and he doesn't see any changes in me.. but I can. He doesn't live with me everyday to see the fat coming back.. I have decided to join the navy this summer, so hopefully Bootcamp will whip me into shape! Plus it will be a good experience to meet new people and travel. Maybe gain back some self esteem about my body.
Well thanks for reading my story.. Sorry it was so long.
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I just made a new journal 
mrscohen9008to use as my weight loss journal. I'm basically posting everything I eat, calorie counts, count of how much exercise I do each day, etc. Anyway, if anyone wants to friend me there and occasionally leave me comments of encouagement/help/tips/etc. I would really appreciate it.
mrscohen9008to use as my weight loss journal. I'm basically posting everything I eat, calorie counts, count of how much exercise I do each day, etc. Anyway, if anyone wants to friend me there and occasionally leave me comments of encouagement/help/tips/etc. I would really appreciate it.(no subject)
Hi, I'm Vikki, I've just joined and made this my weight loss journal.
I'm here mostly because I'm tired of being this size. My current weight is 270, I've been overweight all my life, but this is the worst I've ever been, however, I do love myself, but I really do need to make a change and not just for my look, but because I can't do things like I used to, or want to.
I have horses and three dogs, and I do get over two hours of exercise between all of it, but it's something I'm too accustomed to, I guess. I used to go to the gym, but I've stopped and I'm terrible for putting things off and I just never went back, but this time I'm determined to lose weight, smarten up my eating habits, and become more active. I'm really aprehensive about posting this, but it's time I stop keeping it in.
I'm just looking for a little support, and I'm always open to offer a shoulder to lean on, feel free to friend me or anything, I'll always listen!
Thanks and best of luck to you all, whatever your struggle,
Vikki.
I'm here mostly because I'm tired of being this size. My current weight is 270, I've been overweight all my life, but this is the worst I've ever been, however, I do love myself, but I really do need to make a change and not just for my look, but because I can't do things like I used to, or want to.
I have horses and three dogs, and I do get over two hours of exercise between all of it, but it's something I'm too accustomed to, I guess. I used to go to the gym, but I've stopped and I'm terrible for putting things off and I just never went back, but this time I'm determined to lose weight, smarten up my eating habits, and become more active. I'm really aprehensive about posting this, but it's time I stop keeping it in.
I'm just looking for a little support, and I'm always open to offer a shoulder to lean on, feel free to friend me or anything, I'll always listen!
Thanks and best of luck to you all, whatever your struggle,
Vikki.
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I don't wanna be like this anymore..
I'm so sick of this. I feel fat. I think I'm the fattest one in my "gang". There's no-one in my friends, who would be fatter than me (sry my bad english, I hope you understand me...)
Sometimes I lost 2 kg, and I'm able to be without eating too much..
But then there are seasons, when I overeat everyday.
I've noticed that I'm fine as long as I eat only candy. But When I eat real food, I become TOO FULL and then I want to eat more and more.. So maybe I should eat only candy? like 2 chocolate bars for a day and nothing else?
I'm desperate. I'd like to lose 5 kg, but it's sooo hard. I gain weight all the time.. What should I do ? ?
I'm so sick of this. I feel fat. I think I'm the fattest one in my "gang". There's no-one in my friends, who would be fatter than me (sry my bad english, I hope you understand me...)
Sometimes I lost 2 kg, and I'm able to be without eating too much..
But then there are seasons, when I overeat everyday.
I've noticed that I'm fine as long as I eat only candy. But When I eat real food, I become TOO FULL and then I want to eat more and more.. So maybe I should eat only candy? like 2 chocolate bars for a day and nothing else?
I'm desperate. I'd like to lose 5 kg, but it's sooo hard. I gain weight all the time.. What should I do ? ?
the harder I try, the harder it gets?
Hello,
Im new here, thought I would share a little about me.
5' 3
211.
I have lost some weight but am now at a stand still, and have been for a couple of months. I joined Myfittnesspal, it is a site that helps you log your exercise and calories intake and it does all the math for you. I have been on 1200 calories for about three months, The site sugjests that I should be loseing weight but I am not. Have hypo/hyper thyroid also.
It is hard for me to exercise as I have a back injury and Fibromilgia, so the best way for me to do this is no eat, it is so hard at times I have been doing some crazy thinking about just how to well ...do what other here have problems from, I know it is not a good idea to toss my cookies after eating, just the thought lets me know how overwelmed I am.
Another problem that huge is my over spending on clothing from going up and down the past couple of years, I feel nothing looks right or feels right, keep buying in hope that new clothes will make me feel better. Any input would be helpful. Thank you!
Im new here, thought I would share a little about me.
5' 3
211.
I have lost some weight but am now at a stand still, and have been for a couple of months. I joined Myfittnesspal, it is a site that helps you log your exercise and calories intake and it does all the math for you. I have been on 1200 calories for about three months, The site sugjests that I should be loseing weight but I am not. Have hypo/hyper thyroid also.
It is hard for me to exercise as I have a back injury and Fibromilgia, so the best way for me to do this is no eat, it is so hard at times I have been doing some crazy thinking about just how to well ...do what other here have problems from, I know it is not a good idea to toss my cookies after eating, just the thought lets me know how overwelmed I am.
Another problem that huge is my over spending on clothing from going up and down the past couple of years, I feel nothing looks right or feels right, keep buying in hope that new clothes will make me feel better. Any input would be helpful. Thank you!