Honestly i dont know where to begin.
* i like being sober and i dont care any more who knows it
* i have 5 months and 10 days sober
* my cuts were all superficial and only for attention purposes
* im not depressed
* im codependant and always want to please every one
* i am high risk anorexia but i am not currently anorexic or bulemic
* i used to wish for more problems than i had so people would pity me and in a twisted way i still kinda do.
* i lie so fucking much, i dont even lie to cover up any thing any more i just fucking lie, i cant even catch it before it comes out of my mouth. i lie.
* i cry for attention
* i crave attention whether its posative or negative ive stopped caring
* i hate screaming music
* i used to lie about wwhat bands i knew so id have something in common with others
* i actually like britney spears music, i dont like her but damn she can dance.
* i crave acceptance and lying will never get me there
* i hate people who wear pounds of make up, i think if you find your self beautifull than you are fucking beautifull no matter what any one says to you
* i need to stop pitying my self, alot of people have it alot worse than me i need to be fucking gratefull for what i have
* im never my self just a reflection of other people
* i like to prove people wrong by my actions, everything of my horrible fake self started out when every one called me a good girl. i wanted to rebel, i wanted to be unpredictable, but its not fucking me.
* i befriend the wrong people on purpose
*i try to find and make my own problems so i can go wallow in self pity
* i have no respect for people who cut and refuse to even try to stop cutting, their dependant on thats as their way to vent, there are better ways
* i spend every tuesday wednesday thursday and saturday and rehab and i like it
* i hate most of the clothes in my closet they all look like something hookers would wear
Im sorry for everyone that ive hurt or annoyed or pissed off by trying to be some one besides my self, thank you for confronting me about it.
* i like being sober and i dont care any more who knows it
* i have 5 months and 10 days sober
* my cuts were all superficial and only for attention purposes
* im not depressed
* im codependant and always want to please every one
* i am high risk anorexia but i am not currently anorexic or bulemic
* i used to wish for more problems than i had so people would pity me and in a twisted way i still kinda do.
* i lie so fucking much, i dont even lie to cover up any thing any more i just fucking lie, i cant even catch it before it comes out of my mouth. i lie.
* i cry for attention
* i crave attention whether its posative or negative ive stopped caring
* i hate screaming music
* i used to lie about wwhat bands i knew so id have something in common with others
* i actually like britney spears music, i dont like her but damn she can dance.
* i crave acceptance and lying will never get me there
* i hate people who wear pounds of make up, i think if you find your self beautifull than you are fucking beautifull no matter what any one says to you
* i need to stop pitying my self, alot of people have it alot worse than me i need to be fucking gratefull for what i have
* im never my self just a reflection of other people
* i like to prove people wrong by my actions, everything of my horrible fake self started out when every one called me a good girl. i wanted to rebel, i wanted to be unpredictable, but its not fucking me.
* i befriend the wrong people on purpose
*i try to find and make my own problems so i can go wallow in self pity
* i have no respect for people who cut and refuse to even try to stop cutting, their dependant on thats as their way to vent, there are better ways
* i spend every tuesday wednesday thursday and saturday and rehab and i like it
* i hate most of the clothes in my closet they all look like something hookers would wear
Im sorry for everyone that ive hurt or annoyed or pissed off by trying to be some one besides my self, thank you for confronting me about it.