Professionalism fail!

So, my performance last night with Onkel Woland's group came off OK to the public I suppose, but was full of fail for many reasons. The main point of this post is to say that it was totally uncool of me to lose my temper at the stage manager and call her a cunt multiple times. It was a combination of a bunch of things going wrong which are not normally too problematic for me, some of which were my fault, and I totally take responsibility for my actions. I will not be drinking in a non-controlled show situation in future. Nor will I be performing with *any* group that doesn't have a rider that people putting on a show would at least be asked to read. It's especially important when there are this many layers of "who's in charge?" to contend with and it's good to be reminded of its importance.

Anyway, I felt really embarrassed, and I told my mom about it, and she being always right said, "I always get what I want by being nice, but persistent." She is so right and I always use her as a moral guide. I got what I wanted last night -- power for my amp, which I brought because I knew there would be no one doing sound at the show last night (even though Rich our band leader didn't know this! I found out by pure coincidence!) and which, really, was not a lot to ask! but I was extremely ashamed of my childish behavior. Whereas if I'd been nice, I would have gotten what I'd wanted, without looking like a fool.

I doubt all 5 shitty things (some of them personal) will line up to test me like this in the future, but if they do I hope I can remember how dumb I felt about this.

Arrr. Pictures of the f-holes and demos of more new songs to come soon, I promise. It's sleepytime now.