Ich bin eine student
Did I even get that right? Yeah, lots of German lately. I want to get this done. I feel like I’m not getting much done right now. Well I am doing a lot, but I don’t seem to be finishing much. There’s so much work to do on the screenplays. It never ends and I like that but I have not been so great about finishing things that I start. I have 135 pages of thesis right now. I am going through it to get a draft ready for my committee. I have to wrap this up if I’m going to be done in a couple of months.
I’m not sure why I am freaking about the German, but I think it’s because I just don’t want the department to hold anything else above my head. I want to be able to finish this chapter of my life and walk away with the goods.
I am still morose and moody about the whole JG misunderstanding. If he would just apologize…well that’s never going to happen. I’m upset because all bullshit aside, I really liked having him around to talk with. But I can’t be friends with someone who is so vicious. He just turned on me so fast and crazy. And I could try to understand, but I know I never will understand. I really trusted him and I feel so betrayed. Well, he is right he never officially lied to me. He just totally omitted the truth and that’s the same thing in my book. In his, it’s not. End of story. It’s a clash or moral universes. And I have such great friends that when someone gets shitty with me, I just have a really hard time tolerating it. I think that in time I will feel better about this. But it will take some time. I thought I had a great friend. Then I realized that he was opportunistic for whatever reasons and that’s really kind of sad. I remember him saying that he doesn’t trust anyone, and that fits, since in my experience if someone says they can’t trust, they’re usually the untrustworthy one.
Enough psycho-babble crap. But that’s why I’m uncomfortable.
My friend CB has a great weblog that I read every day to keep up on Vegas events. She writes about 10x as much as I do and she’s got crazy painful-hands. And it’s all good. She’s amazing.
I’m not sure why I am freaking about the German, but I think it’s because I just don’t want the department to hold anything else above my head. I want to be able to finish this chapter of my life and walk away with the goods.
I am still morose and moody about the whole JG misunderstanding. If he would just apologize…well that’s never going to happen. I’m upset because all bullshit aside, I really liked having him around to talk with. But I can’t be friends with someone who is so vicious. He just turned on me so fast and crazy. And I could try to understand, but I know I never will understand. I really trusted him and I feel so betrayed. Well, he is right he never officially lied to me. He just totally omitted the truth and that’s the same thing in my book. In his, it’s not. End of story. It’s a clash or moral universes. And I have such great friends that when someone gets shitty with me, I just have a really hard time tolerating it. I think that in time I will feel better about this. But it will take some time. I thought I had a great friend. Then I realized that he was opportunistic for whatever reasons and that’s really kind of sad. I remember him saying that he doesn’t trust anyone, and that fits, since in my experience if someone says they can’t trust, they’re usually the untrustworthy one.
Enough psycho-babble crap. But that’s why I’m uncomfortable.
My friend CB has a great weblog that I read every day to keep up on Vegas events. She writes about 10x as much as I do and she’s got crazy painful-hands. And it’s all good. She’s amazing.