I just want to go home and fall asleep. I want my Cacti-cat to snuggle with me!

I'm tired. Why is it I stay up playing my game when I know I need to go to bed? My sims get more sleep than I do. My Cacti-cat bugs me to go to bed at about 10:00 but I just keep playing the game. I got her to stop poking my elbow, but now she won't come up to snuggle anymore. I lost my temper last week after about the fifth poke when repeatedly yelling "Ow! NO" didn't get the message across to her and without looking, swung my hand behind my chair intending to shoo her away. I smacked the side of her face accidently. She left the room and went outside. I immediately went after her and apologized. She seemed to accept it but she hasn't been snuggly since. I had never hit her before. Nobody had ever hit her since we rescued her as a tiny kitten. I feel terrible about it. I keep picking her up to snuggle her. She tolerates it but she doesn't relax and get silly like she used to. She doesn't completely trust me anymore. When she bugs me to go to bed, she sits at the side of my chair and "mrraa"s at me. I can pet her, but she won't come up in my lap. In bed she sleeps at the bottom corner where my feet don't reach. No more cave kitty under the blankets. No more perching on my chest for scritches.

I feel like an ogre for having hurt my baby that way.