I just caught myself talking in German to myself about my dissertation. I've become so disheartened by most of the people I know in London that I've stuck to a pretty basic routine; get up, either go to work or go to the library, go to the gym, come home, eat, work again, sleep. I tried making plans with someone today but in the end I just got so frustrated at the way I'm so routinely pushed down the priorities list that I gave up and told them to forget the whole thing. I know that I should want to spend time with people right now, considering that so many will be leaving for other things soon, but either I end up resenting the time I waste making an effort when they don't or I end up resenting them for the things they'll be leaving for soon that made me think I should see them in the first place. I really would prefer to sit at home and talk to myself, than try to muster up enough interest in other people's lives to go see them.