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i found out that two of our upperclassmen (they just finished japanese III, which i'm just starting now) are going on exchange for a year to the school (in sendai) i want to go to most, starting in march... that school only lets in 3 exchange students per year so maybe there will be no room for me (who'd go in autumn), i don't know when the "year" restarts... there's still 2 other schools i could get accepted to but one of them only lets us come for a single semester, sigh. i'll just keep hoping i can go anyway...

now i've been thinking that if i can't go on exchange i'll take my student loan money and live in japan for 3 months (the tourist maximum) anyway, then i can just apply to do the exchange when it opens again as planned...

i know i shouldn't get my hopes up for stuff like this (realistically speaking it's a small chance i'll get to go to my top choice) but i just feel like... c'mon, let me be a little luckier, i'm working my ass off studying for this, please just let me be accepted...!!

on that note, i don't know when i'll be told if i'm accepted or not at all. i'm assuming in february or march i'll know if i've passed the first round.