At the Beginning
I was browsing my video files in my computer. And I stumbled upon this video that I made last year:
At the Beginning
While watching it, I suddenly missed the simpler times. ZaiZai and F4 represented my law school days. The days when I knew that I was already an adult but because of my student life, I was granted a reprieve to repeat my college years. Hence, even if I was already in my early 20s, I still felt like a teenager.
Those were the days when all I worried about was my recitation and my exams and when my utmost concern involved asking money from my parents and brother to fund my fangirling expenses.
But those 4 years (plus 1 year for the bar experience) had passed. And along with it came the passing of innocent and free days.
In the midst of these confusing and anxiety-filled days, I now long for those days. When times were simpler. When my concerns were comparatively petty. But, like my ZaiZai and F4 obsession, I know that those days are now over. And yet I know that I still have so many things to look forward to. It's scary but it's about time. But it doesn't mean that I wouldn't have days like this. Days when I feel melancholy, when I feel the need to look back "at the beginning", before I can move on and look forward to another journey.
While watching it, I suddenly missed the simpler times. ZaiZai and F4 represented my law school days. The days when I knew that I was already an adult but because of my student life, I was granted a reprieve to repeat my college years. Hence, even if I was already in my early 20s, I still felt like a teenager.
Those were the days when all I worried about was my recitation and my exams and when my utmost concern involved asking money from my parents and brother to fund my fangirling expenses.
But those 4 years (plus 1 year for the bar experience) had passed. And along with it came the passing of innocent and free days.
In the midst of these confusing and anxiety-filled days, I now long for those days. When times were simpler. When my concerns were comparatively petty. But, like my ZaiZai and F4 obsession, I know that those days are now over. And yet I know that I still have so many things to look forward to. It's scary but it's about time. But it doesn't mean that I wouldn't have days like this. Days when I feel melancholy, when I feel the need to look back "at the beginning", before I can move on and look forward to another journey.