at work: just posting;
So I've finally submitted all that there is to submit. Everything that impacts my grade at least. I've retyped and reprinted my copy of the workshop manuscript. I'm missing 2 poems -- one from the first workshop and then the second, Johann's poem, "Round". Planning to print out Cerise and Leslie's poems at home, since there are pictures of the paintings included.
Feeling anxious about it all. Have to work on the accompaniment for "For Him" tonight. I have no real problem with the one I have on my keyboard, I could very well transfer it onto a cassette (I'm low-tech, I stick the surround mic to the speaker) and then be done with it. But if I'm to be honest with myself, it could use some work. Don't think I'll be asking Kat A. to come out to play for me. We're still hit with the dilemma of the guitar and we wouldn't have practiced. *sighs*
Will do my best to get "The Coming of Age" down pat, but it just might be an excerpt since the whole thing is pretty much fighting me again. I hate it when it does that, but maybe -- just maybe, it'll cooperate before Friday night. "Heartbeat", I have no problem with, mostly because I'll be doing this a capella if ever, though I will explain the presence of drums/bongos which are in the master plan.
Spoke to Kristian yesterday. We bumped into each other on the way up to the department. Apparently, it'll be Dr. Dinah Roma handling us again, so yeah, my knees quake and my stomach is worried. Lol.
(Can't help but wonder at myself. If I'm like this now, what more next term when it's a full-term workshop? ;___;)
Moving away from school. There's one more slot on the "Pay It forward" meme. For those who missed what that's about, basically, if you comment and make the list, I'll be sending something hand-crafted in the mail.
I already have 3 snail-mail addys given to me. Am just waiting on Cher
cherprudence. :P Not really sure what I've gotten myself into with this thing, but I have the rest of the year to think up, make and mail, so it should be alright. xD Heh.
I'm going through my pending fanfics. "Old Blood", chapter 4 is still dead on my computer. Kamle_chatnoir and I have something. It's just not... at it's best right now. I'm facing the same dilemma that I did with wonderfuldays_, which is basically me going anal over original characters (specifically mine). As much as I love them, I have issues with my original characters now. Other than the unnamed female for my PoT future!au series, which Aggy nonartisan gives tons and tons of love to, and Lee Delgado for 
otherearth626, I usually have more heartache as opposed to fun with my OFCs.
I have no problem though writing for other people's characters. I love writing for Carla & Al, Ellie Ridley (Kam's), Jackie (Jody'salaskanmermaid) and other such characters. Those come natural to me. But my own? Hah. ><
Tams (forwonderfuldays_) has only recently moved from me = perpetually frustrated to yesIwanttowrite. That's thanks to continuous affirmations from Kam and Sammu alluriel.
These days I just worry too much thinking: Is she a Sue? Can I manage to tone her down? Do I abandon ideas that otherwise sounded really, really good.
I think I need to learn to relax. Then again, I have no idea just how I'm supposed to do that. Original fiction is so much easier to deal with because there's nobody to judge me. Despite what Kam says, it's still a no-no to write in OFCs, moreover if they usually end up romantically entagled with a canon character.
But then I wish I could rightfully defend myself saying: well, if they don't have a fixed pairing anyway (and if I were to cue Kam here and now -- "so what if they have a pairing?"), what's the harm in creating a female characterwho yes, might be my counterpart in that world?
It's make-believe and it's fun. Sure, people might argue that it's a form of escapism, but hey, everything in fiction could be constreud as a form of escapism. So it's a little dream -- a version of me who-is-not-quite-me -- in a reality that takes me away from the run-of-the-mill of my everyday.
For those who might be reading this wondering what this is all about. Well. This is just me thinking on things. There was a reason for the cut.
Am going on lunch. Welll dent CotA#3 and "Old Blood" later. That is a promise.
Feeling anxious about it all. Have to work on the accompaniment for "For Him" tonight. I have no real problem with the one I have on my keyboard, I could very well transfer it onto a cassette (I'm low-tech, I stick the surround mic to the speaker) and then be done with it. But if I'm to be honest with myself, it could use some work. Don't think I'll be asking Kat A. to come out to play for me. We're still hit with the dilemma of the guitar and we wouldn't have practiced. *sighs*
Will do my best to get "The Coming of Age" down pat, but it just might be an excerpt since the whole thing is pretty much fighting me again. I hate it when it does that, but maybe -- just maybe, it'll cooperate before Friday night. "Heartbeat", I have no problem with, mostly because I'll be doing this a capella if ever, though I will explain the presence of drums/bongos which are in the master plan.
Spoke to Kristian yesterday. We bumped into each other on the way up to the department. Apparently, it'll be Dr. Dinah Roma handling us again, so yeah, my knees quake and my stomach is worried. Lol.
(Can't help but wonder at myself. If I'm like this now, what more next term when it's a full-term workshop? ;___;)
Moving away from school. There's one more slot on the "Pay It forward" meme. For those who missed what that's about, basically, if you comment and make the list, I'll be sending something hand-crafted in the mail.
I already have 3 snail-mail addys given to me. Am just waiting on Cher
cherprudence. :P Not really sure what I've gotten myself into with this thing, but I have the rest of the year to think up, make and mail, so it should be alright. xD Heh.I'm going through my pending fanfics. "Old Blood", chapter 4 is still dead on my computer. Kam
le_chatnoir and I have something. It's just not... at it's best right now. I'm facing the same dilemma that I did with wonderfuldays_, which is basically me going anal over original characters (specifically mine). As much as I love them, I have issues with my original characters now. Other than the unnamed female for my PoT future!au series, which Aggy nonartisan gives tons and tons of love to, and Lee Delgado for otherearth626, I usually have more heartache as opposed to fun with my OFCs.I have no problem though writing for other people's characters. I love writing for Carla & Al, Ellie Ridley (Kam's), Jackie (Jody's
alaskanmermaid) and other such characters. Those come natural to me. But my own? Hah. ><Tams (for
wonderfuldays_) has only recently moved from me = perpetually frustrated to yesIwanttowrite. That's thanks to continuous affirmations from Kam and Sammu alluriel.These days I just worry too much thinking: Is she a Sue? Can I manage to tone her down? Do I abandon ideas that otherwise sounded really, really good.
I think I need to learn to relax. Then again, I have no idea just how I'm supposed to do that. Original fiction is so much easier to deal with because there's nobody to judge me. Despite what Kam says, it's still a no-no to write in OFCs, moreover if they usually end up romantically entagled with a canon character.
But then I wish I could rightfully defend myself saying: well, if they don't have a fixed pairing anyway (and if I were to cue Kam here and now -- "so what if they have a pairing?"), what's the harm in creating a female character
It's make-believe and it's fun. Sure, people might argue that it's a form of escapism, but hey, everything in fiction could be constreud as a form of escapism. So it's a little dream -- a version of me who-is-not-quite-me -- in a reality that takes me away from the run-of-the-mill of my everyday.
For those who might be reading this wondering what this is all about. Well. This is just me thinking on things. There was a reason for the cut.
Am going on lunch. Welll dent CotA#3 and "Old Blood" later. That is a promise.