we've got a lot; don't you dare forget that.

You guys, there is no way to even BEGIN talking about how ridiculous my life has gotten in the past month. I mean, really. Cigarettes, coffee, music & Jackie have kept me up lately (mostly those last two <3), but stuff is just so fucking stupidly bad lately. I'm actually having a good sense of humor about it right now; before I left Wisconsin just about everyone told me YOU WILL DO SO WELL IN NEW YORK, but there were a few people who said, "New York is going to eat you alive." What they really should have said was, "You are going to eat yourself alive in New York." I mean, really. No one can screw me over the way I screw over myself. I need a fuckin' reset button, or something. Basically: I'm unemployed, my bank account is rapidly depleting, I live with a bunch of disgusting morons (one of whom is pregant and you guys KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE KIDS [/sarcasm]), and my head is going crazy, crazy places. I know exactly what I have to do but don't know where to start so instead I'm doing nothing.

Uhh. I just deleted a bunch of stuff here. I LOVE MY SISTER, liarface that she might be. That is all.

I have a couple of music memes I've been tagged for, but this one looks like the most fun, so: I have 4,330 items in my iTunes. Pick 4-5 numbers between 1 and 4,330 and I will upload the corresponding songs. Even if you skipped over the rest of this entry DO THIS, GUYS. Distractions are love, especially music-related ones!

Also, Julian Casablancas? Still so, so relevant to my interests. I love this motherfucker like burning, I really do.