First time I actually use this account....
...for the purpose of avoiding boredom by posting :D.
Well, I think I start by introducing myself and to explain this a bit. I graduated recently and applied to several universities to become a vet, I waited about 3 months to get an answer, I also took a few tests. I got a letter a week ago:
I was rejected.
Now I'm beyond bored. I got nothing to do, I'm looking for a part-time job to save money, but in my current situation I can only get little one-time-only tasks. All my friends are busy with school or taking a one year vacation. Honestly, it sucks. But hey, it's not that bad. Because of the longtime break, I found myself heavily addicted to fanfiction and tv series I didn't have time to watch before.
When I started this account, it only had the purpose to join communities, I actually didn't know what else to do with a livejournal, considering I'm a bit secretive about myself, and it's kinda embarrassing to know others could read what I wrote. And besides all of that, it's hard for me to express myself in a foreign language. I don't like making mistakes (so if someone reads this, feel free to point grammar mistakes, it would help me to improve and I'll become more confident)
I know that sharing experiences and thoughts like this could help people. It's like an outlet, and I just need this. It helps me to know that I can voice my thoughts like this:
A friend of mine committed suicide almost a year ago, it was so sudden. I didn't know, I was so busy with school I didn't notice. I wanted to meet her, after we went to different schools, but she always stood me up. Because of it, I was mad at her. I didn't know she was depressed, that she didn't want to live anymore, that she hurt herself. I should have seen it, for God's sake, I was one of the best in psychology class. And I just didn't. I couldn't go to her funeral, it was anonymous, and I've heard about her death through gossip two weeks after she killed herself. I never cried for her, I just took notice, went to school, did my thing like it never happened.
Today, almost one year after, I feel like crying. And it sucks.
Well, I think I start by introducing myself and to explain this a bit. I graduated recently and applied to several universities to become a vet, I waited about 3 months to get an answer, I also took a few tests. I got a letter a week ago:
I was rejected.
Now I'm beyond bored. I got nothing to do, I'm looking for a part-time job to save money, but in my current situation I can only get little one-time-only tasks. All my friends are busy with school or taking a one year vacation. Honestly, it sucks. But hey, it's not that bad. Because of the longtime break, I found myself heavily addicted to fanfiction and tv series I didn't have time to watch before.
When I started this account, it only had the purpose to join communities, I actually didn't know what else to do with a livejournal, considering I'm a bit secretive about myself, and it's kinda embarrassing to know others could read what I wrote. And besides all of that, it's hard for me to express myself in a foreign language. I don't like making mistakes (so if someone reads this, feel free to point grammar mistakes, it would help me to improve and I'll become more confident)
I know that sharing experiences and thoughts like this could help people. It's like an outlet, and I just need this. It helps me to know that I can voice my thoughts like this:
A friend of mine committed suicide almost a year ago, it was so sudden. I didn't know, I was so busy with school I didn't notice. I wanted to meet her, after we went to different schools, but she always stood me up. Because of it, I was mad at her. I didn't know she was depressed, that she didn't want to live anymore, that she hurt herself. I should have seen it, for God's sake, I was one of the best in psychology class. And I just didn't. I couldn't go to her funeral, it was anonymous, and I've heard about her death through gossip two weeks after she killed herself. I never cried for her, I just took notice, went to school, did my thing like it never happened.
Today, almost one year after, I feel like crying. And it sucks.