[aoi/ruki almost-drabbles;]
eh, what. I remember doing this meme more than once in the past and it always turns out sucky, because I'm no good with speed writing because my head is full of holes. 
chivakaza, for you, this is not SMAP. :D
chivakaza, for you, this is not SMAP. :D1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like.
2. Turn on your music player and put it on random/shuffle.
3. Write a drabble related to each song that plays. You only have the time frame of the song to finish the drabble; you start when the song starts, and stop when it’s over. No lingering afterwards!
4. Do ten of these, then post them.
(Gazette, Leech)
He sucks the life out of him. Aoi will look up and he will see Ruki’s smirk above him, hovering still while the rest of Ruki’s is gone already. It feels like missing an arm when Ruki’s gone already. It feels like suffocating when Ruki is around and it’s the moments between, when it’s only Ruki’s smile lingering that Aoi is at ease.
(Garbage, You look so fine)
Aoi wonders what it is when he catches a glimpse of Ruki in the corner of his eye and something squeezes his stomach. Something in him aches and he doesn’t know what it is, but he knows what it aches for.
He grabs Ruki’s wrist and drags him to an empty hallway and pins him against a wall.
Ruki smiles.
(Tori Amos, Smells like teen spirit)
It’s not less dangerous with the lights on, but it is more fun.
When he finally wipes that mocking expression off Ruki’s face and he sees a raw Ruki, under him, throwing his head back against the pillow—
Aoi has to agree. He wants to see it clearly. He doesn’t get many chances to see Ruki’s face clearly.
(Tori Amos, Leather)
Aoi wonders if this is all just about sex and this kind of things. Or if he’s just having a bad day. Or if Ruki looks really stupid with this hairstyle, Reita always looks stupid and the way the two of them look stupid together, it only makes sense for them to exchange blowjobs in their dressing room.
He takes his jacket and leaves.
(Hole, Softer, softest)
You shouldn’t touch everything you see, Ruki says. You’ll get burnt.
His voice is cold.
He doesn’t push Aoi’s hand away, though.
Undoing the button of his pants, Aoi feels the burn turning into blister already.
(SMAP, Sotto, kyutto)
It’s raining heavily outside. It’s been raining for hours. Ruki stands in the entrance of the building, staring ahead.
“What, you’re afraid your hair gets wet?”
Ruki looks at him coldly.
“I am so not.”
He leaves right into the rain.
“But I brought an umbrella,” Aoi holds the umbrella up, lost.
(Gazette, SxDxR)
It doesn’t really matter.
Ruki who puts their bottles of beer away and straddles Aoi on the couch, still holding the cigarette, he exhales the smoke straight into Aoi’s mouth, so that Aoi can only breathe it in – this Ruki says it doesn’t matter.
Rock’n’roll may be dead, it may be getting a face lift or a sex change surgery, who cares. They’ll keep on doing what they do.
(Queen, Don’t stop me now)
It’s on.
Aoi beams and grins. Aoi shakes his head and his hips. Aoi makes first-rate sex faces and proclaims his love.
When he crosses Ruki’s path on stage, Ruki’s passing touch doesn’t miss him and Aoi grins more.
It lasts forever until it ends and then it’s until next time. After all, it’s the only thing that matters.
(Gazette, A moth under the skin)
So he doesn’t know why it can’t be always like this, why they come back to this dark place; his apartment, it’s dark in more than one way. When he takes his clothes off, he still doesn’t know. When he takes Ruki’s clothes off (because Ruki lets him, that’s how kind he is), Aoi starts to catch up.
Ruki burns bright and in this dark place, it’s what Aoi longs for.
(Hole, Loser dust)
Even when Ruki burns out, Aoi is still there. There is something appealing in Ruki’s fall.
At the same time, when Ruki comes begging to him, Aoi lets him in and kisses him so that he would shut up. It breaks his heart.
They fuck while Aoi’s heart is broken.
He sucks the life out of him. Aoi will look up and he will see Ruki’s smirk above him, hovering still while the rest of Ruki’s is gone already. It feels like missing an arm when Ruki’s gone already. It feels like suffocating when Ruki is around and it’s the moments between, when it’s only Ruki’s smile lingering that Aoi is at ease.
(Garbage, You look so fine)
Aoi wonders what it is when he catches a glimpse of Ruki in the corner of his eye and something squeezes his stomach. Something in him aches and he doesn’t know what it is, but he knows what it aches for.
He grabs Ruki’s wrist and drags him to an empty hallway and pins him against a wall.
Ruki smiles.
(Tori Amos, Smells like teen spirit)
It’s not less dangerous with the lights on, but it is more fun.
When he finally wipes that mocking expression off Ruki’s face and he sees a raw Ruki, under him, throwing his head back against the pillow—
Aoi has to agree. He wants to see it clearly. He doesn’t get many chances to see Ruki’s face clearly.
(Tori Amos, Leather)
Aoi wonders if this is all just about sex and this kind of things. Or if he’s just having a bad day. Or if Ruki looks really stupid with this hairstyle, Reita always looks stupid and the way the two of them look stupid together, it only makes sense for them to exchange blowjobs in their dressing room.
He takes his jacket and leaves.
(Hole, Softer, softest)
You shouldn’t touch everything you see, Ruki says. You’ll get burnt.
His voice is cold.
He doesn’t push Aoi’s hand away, though.
Undoing the button of his pants, Aoi feels the burn turning into blister already.
(SMAP, Sotto, kyutto)
It’s raining heavily outside. It’s been raining for hours. Ruki stands in the entrance of the building, staring ahead.
“What, you’re afraid your hair gets wet?”
Ruki looks at him coldly.
“I am so not.”
He leaves right into the rain.
“But I brought an umbrella,” Aoi holds the umbrella up, lost.
(Gazette, SxDxR)
It doesn’t really matter.
Ruki who puts their bottles of beer away and straddles Aoi on the couch, still holding the cigarette, he exhales the smoke straight into Aoi’s mouth, so that Aoi can only breathe it in – this Ruki says it doesn’t matter.
Rock’n’roll may be dead, it may be getting a face lift or a sex change surgery, who cares. They’ll keep on doing what they do.
(Queen, Don’t stop me now)
It’s on.
Aoi beams and grins. Aoi shakes his head and his hips. Aoi makes first-rate sex faces and proclaims his love.
When he crosses Ruki’s path on stage, Ruki’s passing touch doesn’t miss him and Aoi grins more.
It lasts forever until it ends and then it’s until next time. After all, it’s the only thing that matters.
(Gazette, A moth under the skin)
So he doesn’t know why it can’t be always like this, why they come back to this dark place; his apartment, it’s dark in more than one way. When he takes his clothes off, he still doesn’t know. When he takes Ruki’s clothes off (because Ruki lets him, that’s how kind he is), Aoi starts to catch up.
Ruki burns bright and in this dark place, it’s what Aoi longs for.
(Hole, Loser dust)
Even when Ruki burns out, Aoi is still there. There is something appealing in Ruki’s fall.
At the same time, when Ruki comes begging to him, Aoi lets him in and kisses him so that he would shut up. It breaks his heart.
They fuck while Aoi’s heart is broken.