only good things to come

i have just reached the low point of my day...
i went to take my myths and rituals final, when minutes before it started the professor pulled me aside and related to me that i could not pass even if i got an A on the final..."your paper wasn't right and you didn't come to class"....at least she saved me from an hour's worth of futility, but other than that i owe her a big FUCK YOU.....
I thought my paper was damned good and since when is coming to class so fucking important? as long as I do the work, which I did.
wait a minute...what is an hour's futility compared to an entire semester's worth? errgh...
I would have dropped the class if it hadn't been for my ass-umption that not only did I need to have 12 hours per semester, but that I needed to complete them.

I only hope that this doesn't affect anything else, b/c otherwise i don't know if i can deal with it...

I feel like talking to someone and getting all this hurt off my chest, but I don't know anyone who will just sympathize and not criticize....
I feel like I need to deal with this in my own way, and I can't have people telling me what I did wrong....

I thought I wouldn't care, but I do.....