[Utena] Fast Car
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Juri had forgotten what if felt like to be at a speed faster than running.
She went about her life at a weary trudge, back and forth from part time jobs and the odd modeling offer for art nouveau magazines. They said the disillusioned look was perfect this season. Juri simply took their money and walked home in the dark.
Sometimes Utena met her along the way.
Most of the time she came back alone.
Sometimes they would both find themselves in the darkness and would take slow, savoring comfort in each other. But those times, however prolonged, were rare and transient.
Juri could still remember the way Utena’s scar felt against her palm.
Such memories were a blessing, as they made her forget about the blinding fluorescent lights in the department store, which made her head ache. It held her dreaming until she finally clocked out, and then the taste of loneliness and the night air made her vision blur with tears as she raced home. She was thankful for that, because the lampposts were too far apart for her clear vision to make them dissolve into a streak of light, speeding across the Ends of the World.
As slow and monotonous as her life dragged on, Juri felt it moved too fast. Too soon did her miracle flash before her eyes. Too soon did the chain break and leave her bereft. Too soon the promise of tea and propriety will take those brief solaces from her for good.
All she wanted was to make this happiness last as long as she could.
But no matter how hard she tried to stay still and enjoy the feeling of Utena’s stillness beside her, arms draped around her waist and rhythmic breathing warming her neck, she can’t forget the feeling of being pressed against leather seats with frantic hands and fervent dreams. Driving at the speed of forever...
Calling out her name.
Yeah, I know the actual song lyrics have little to do with it, since poverty/depravation doesn't work well with them. But I felt it more as emotional depravation, sort of a place where someone can dream of more even though they don't have a real chance of achieving it. This is true of all the duelists who are taken to see the Ends of the World. They are given a glimpse of the world of their creation should they win the Revolution, yet they didn't achieve it and they can never feel that perfect image again. Utena did survive the Revolution, and she found no perfect world. So I think they way they could both cope with that sadness would be with each other, and to have Juri deal with that dissatisfaction in some way.
Overall? The chorus: "Speeds so fast I felt like I was drunk. City lights lay out before us and your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder. And I had a feeling that I belonged. I had a feeling I could be someone..." it just fit.
utenadrabble.Juri had forgotten what if felt like to be at a speed faster than running.
She went about her life at a weary trudge, back and forth from part time jobs and the odd modeling offer for art nouveau magazines. They said the disillusioned look was perfect this season. Juri simply took their money and walked home in the dark.
Sometimes Utena met her along the way.
Most of the time she came back alone.
Sometimes they would both find themselves in the darkness and would take slow, savoring comfort in each other. But those times, however prolonged, were rare and transient.
Juri could still remember the way Utena’s scar felt against her palm.
Such memories were a blessing, as they made her forget about the blinding fluorescent lights in the department store, which made her head ache. It held her dreaming until she finally clocked out, and then the taste of loneliness and the night air made her vision blur with tears as she raced home. She was thankful for that, because the lampposts were too far apart for her clear vision to make them dissolve into a streak of light, speeding across the Ends of the World.
As slow and monotonous as her life dragged on, Juri felt it moved too fast. Too soon did her miracle flash before her eyes. Too soon did the chain break and leave her bereft. Too soon the promise of tea and propriety will take those brief solaces from her for good.
All she wanted was to make this happiness last as long as she could.
But no matter how hard she tried to stay still and enjoy the feeling of Utena’s stillness beside her, arms draped around her waist and rhythmic breathing warming her neck, she can’t forget the feeling of being pressed against leather seats with frantic hands and fervent dreams. Driving at the speed of forever...
Calling out her name.
Yeah, I know the actual song lyrics have little to do with it, since poverty/depravation doesn't work well with them. But I felt it more as emotional depravation, sort of a place where someone can dream of more even though they don't have a real chance of achieving it. This is true of all the duelists who are taken to see the Ends of the World. They are given a glimpse of the world of their creation should they win the Revolution, yet they didn't achieve it and they can never feel that perfect image again. Utena did survive the Revolution, and she found no perfect world. So I think they way they could both cope with that sadness would be with each other, and to have Juri deal with that dissatisfaction in some way.
Overall? The chorus: "Speeds so fast I felt like I was drunk. City lights lay out before us and your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder. And I had a feeling that I belonged. I had a feeling I could be someone..." it just fit.