O Musa, may I now sing?: an insomniacs non sequitor
I figure I should probably rehabilitate this thing...this journal of mine. For a while there I was contemplating what the use is being on here. The use I mean besides a website within which to read others writing. Indeed my paucity of posts is why I linked my journal to twitter in the first place. I hope y'all enjoyed my twitter posts. They helped rejuvenate my voice. I guess I enjoyed the change of format or somesuch. Whatever the case, I now feel the urge to write. After so loong without it I'm glad to have it back. Lets hope this lasts. For now I guess I'll see all of y'all around.
I think I was lying in that last paragraph. I'm not done with this entry. Not sure what I want to say however. I could update y'all with the many many facets of my life. I could treat y'all with a story rough draft that is as yet only a glimmer of electricity in my head. I'm rather overwhelmed by the possibilities at this point. I guess that word, overwhelmed is as good a place to start with as any.
I've spent much time overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by emotion. Overwhelmed by the choices I face, by circumstances, and by forces at play internally and externally.
I've also spent much time on the day to day one step at a time type stuff. Daily life ya know. I've spent a lot of time avoiding that which I could not and did not want to face. i've also spent a lot of time attempting to force my self into a mold of what I thought I outta be. I've also spent a great deal of time giving to others in order to feel my worth internally validated.
In many ways I'm still working through those issues referenced above. I'm changing my mental landscape. Incrementally fighting-healing psychic damage along the way. I am more the person I want to be than ever. And you know what? I love my self more than ever.
Go Me!
One other thing, I couldn't have gotten this far without inspiration. Inspiration from my fiends, from those I admire, and from those that I call my family. To name a few in very little order: Raven Kaldera,
docbrite , tcgtrf , mosno , edwarddain , elements , foxfire , daddyrhon , kitsunegeek , tacit , eleccham , dentage , inki , barbarakitten_t , phoenixprime and many many others not mentioned.
Sleepy now so I figure I'll end this entry. Here's to hoping that it'll be the first fo many many more.
I think I was lying in that last paragraph. I'm not done with this entry. Not sure what I want to say however. I could update y'all with the many many facets of my life. I could treat y'all with a story rough draft that is as yet only a glimmer of electricity in my head. I'm rather overwhelmed by the possibilities at this point. I guess that word, overwhelmed is as good a place to start with as any.
I've spent much time overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by emotion. Overwhelmed by the choices I face, by circumstances, and by forces at play internally and externally.
I've also spent much time on the day to day one step at a time type stuff. Daily life ya know. I've spent a lot of time avoiding that which I could not and did not want to face. i've also spent a lot of time attempting to force my self into a mold of what I thought I outta be. I've also spent a great deal of time giving to others in order to feel my worth internally validated.
In many ways I'm still working through those issues referenced above. I'm changing my mental landscape. Incrementally fighting-healing psychic damage along the way. I am more the person I want to be than ever. And you know what? I love my self more than ever.
Go Me!
One other thing, I couldn't have gotten this far without inspiration. Inspiration from my fiends, from those I admire, and from those that I call my family. To name a few in very little order: Raven Kaldera,
docbrite , tcgtrf , mosno , edwarddain , elements , foxfire , daddyrhon , kitsunegeek , tacit , eleccham , dentage , inki , barbarakitten_t , phoenixprime and many many others not mentioned. Sleepy now so I figure I'll end this entry. Here's to hoping that it'll be the first fo many many more.