*sigh* here I go again...
I seem to remember posting something similar around this time last year. Here's my own journal post from last night. I'm putting it here because you people are the ONLY ones who understand what I'm going through. I need some commiseration, just for a little while. (This is my third time through, and it still just leaves me for dead when it's all done.)
*Hereafter be apoilers for the Tawny Man Trilogy*
Honestly, I read through the horrific part...the part where Fitz goes back into the ice city to find the Fool and then takes him to the Stone Garden and brings him back to life...and then through that part where poor Beloved has his nightmares and clings to Fitz during those first few days. It just KILLS me. Not his death (though that stabs, too) but just seeing the depth of friendship between the two of them. I get weepy now just typing about it.
I think I need a therapist to tell me why this knocks me out so completely whenever I read it. I didn't even read the Farseer trilogy this time. I just started with Fool's Errand and went from there. FE is my favorite, just because of all the time that he and Fitz get to spend together and how rather funny it is...and then of course, I had to keep going. I'm a glutton for punishment.
I think that everything about the last half of Fool's Fate sends me over the edge. This time when Fitz had to leave the Fool behind with the Pale Woman, he came staggering back to camp and Burrich whisked out and grabbed him up in his arms...wow. I'd forgotten that. Somehow, Ms. Hobb managed to instill that feeling of peace and safety with Burrich's character. When he showed up, even I could feel the relief. *sniffle* I've already talked about the rest of the stuff that knocks me out right here in this comm. I won't go into it again. (Good heavens, it has been exactly a year! I wonder what it is about the end of February that pulls me into the Farseer books? LOL!)
Anyway, I think every time I read it I will be less mangled. But I feel pretty mangled today (after blubbering into my pillow for about half an hour last night). However, less mangled than last time. :) Thanks for listening. Again, no one understands but you guys. My flist just doesn't get it.
Reading the last half of Fool's Fate is kind of a punishment that I seem determined to put myself through at least once a year. Punishment is the wrong word...but it's exhausting. I can't describe how beautifully crafted this story is, nor can I convey the perfectness of the ending. There is everything. The great battle. Heroes. Fear and loss. Great sorrow. So much sorrow. And then the slow return to joy. Slow enough that all of it seems so terribly real. The loss and sorrow have their own true consequences. But so also does the triumph. I guess that's why it affects me so much...I can't explain it and I'm always rather ruined by the end. But ruined in a good way.
I run across pages I've folded down during a previous reading and I find
myself trying to remember the significance of that passage to me when I first creased the page. It's neat to find those connections to my former self.
Anyway, I'm waxing prosaic and it's late. I simply need to wipe my eyes (again) and get some sleep. One day someone will explain to me why this book leaves me like this. Every time. But until then, I know I'll just keep rereading it.
*Hereafter be apoilers for the Tawny Man Trilogy*
Honestly, I read through the horrific part...the part where Fitz goes back into the ice city to find the Fool and then takes him to the Stone Garden and brings him back to life...and then through that part where poor Beloved has his nightmares and clings to Fitz during those first few days. It just KILLS me. Not his death (though that stabs, too) but just seeing the depth of friendship between the two of them. I get weepy now just typing about it.
I think I need a therapist to tell me why this knocks me out so completely whenever I read it. I didn't even read the Farseer trilogy this time. I just started with Fool's Errand and went from there. FE is my favorite, just because of all the time that he and Fitz get to spend together and how rather funny it is...and then of course, I had to keep going. I'm a glutton for punishment.
I think that everything about the last half of Fool's Fate sends me over the edge. This time when Fitz had to leave the Fool behind with the Pale Woman, he came staggering back to camp and Burrich whisked out and grabbed him up in his arms...wow. I'd forgotten that. Somehow, Ms. Hobb managed to instill that feeling of peace and safety with Burrich's character. When he showed up, even I could feel the relief. *sniffle* I've already talked about the rest of the stuff that knocks me out right here in this comm. I won't go into it again. (Good heavens, it has been exactly a year! I wonder what it is about the end of February that pulls me into the Farseer books? LOL!)
Anyway, I think every time I read it I will be less mangled. But I feel pretty mangled today (after blubbering into my pillow for about half an hour last night). However, less mangled than last time. :) Thanks for listening. Again, no one understands but you guys. My flist just doesn't get it.