Having a huge auction here! And blackjacksales had its biggest update ever!


But anyway. People tell me that it's hard to fight the world, that it's impossible to resist what society tells you.

For me, it's the opposite. It's far harder for me to surrender my will than it is to go with the flow. I can't lose myself. I think it's impossible for me to do so. And it's also impossible for me to understand how so many people can be broken by society.

I've talked in here before about how I was abused by several teachers and how it confused me how the other students never did anything. Even back then, it confused me how people could just accept someone telling them that they were inferior. I still can't fathom that thinking. Being told that my whole life just made me fight harder. I know myself. What amazes me is that so many others seem to not know themselves.

It just...baffles me. I can't understand that. I can't understand how it's apparently so much easier to just get broken. To me, that'd be like trying to lift a train.

I do try to learn, I really do. But no answer makes any sense. It seems counterproductive at best and abandoning all sense of self at worst. And if you abandon your self, then who are you?

I state my views and people accuse me of bullshitting, of trolling, of being a "priviledged asshole" (I've also spoken before on how priviledge is relative, and how being a white person or a rich person or anything like that is meaningless when you have a teacher dragging you down the hallway because you sat on your knees in your chair instead of on your butt). I talk about my experiences and get told that they don't matter. Why don't they matter? They never say.

So honestly, what gives?