OCPD?
Hey guys, I know this isn't really totally on topic but I am begging for help here.
I am 19 years old and have dyslexia and ADD. I have been a perfectionist my entire life (my mother is also a perfectionist) and this past spring I was diagnosed with PTSD, general anxiety and severe depression. I noticed my perfectionism getting worse and worse and my desire to control every situation grew. My therapist said that I was displaying OCD like tendencies as coping mechanisms for my other issues. However the more I read about Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, the more it seems like me. I literally exhibit every single symptom on the list to some extent with the exception of hoarding.
* Excessive devotion to work
I work 80 or more hours a week and would work more if I could. I know that one reason I do this is in order to distract myself from my problems but since I was a workaholic before all of my symptoms started I think it still applies.
* Inflexibility
Even as a kid I hated it when plans changed. My mom often talks about taking me to preschool and how I loved it when she picked me up- but only if I had prior warning. If she showed up to surprise me I would become hysterical because that was NOT the plan.
* Inability to throw things away, even when the objects have no value
Not so much, I do often keep things that I think might be useful later such as old class notes and stuff but eventually I throw them away.
* Lack of generosity
I am really not good at sharing.
* Limited expression of affection
I have never let anyone get too close. It scares the shit out of me when people do, especially guys.
* Perfectionism
yes.
* Preoccupation with details, rules, and lists
People constantly tease me about my need to make lists. I actually have lists of lists that I need to make. I keep my to-do list on my blackberry and also a written copy in my agenda. I recently became the manager of a small water park and I cannot go anywhere without my binder, even though I rarely actually need it. I will spend and hour re-formatting a document or spreadsheet that someone sends me before I print it... I could go on and on.
* Reluctance to allow others to do things
This has especially become a HUGE problem with my job. Not only am I stressing myself out trying to do everything myself but I am insulting those around me who are fully capable of performing tasks that I refuse to share.
Basically I was wondering if any of you have information about this condition or have any experience with it?
I am 19 years old and have dyslexia and ADD. I have been a perfectionist my entire life (my mother is also a perfectionist) and this past spring I was diagnosed with PTSD, general anxiety and severe depression. I noticed my perfectionism getting worse and worse and my desire to control every situation grew. My therapist said that I was displaying OCD like tendencies as coping mechanisms for my other issues. However the more I read about Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, the more it seems like me. I literally exhibit every single symptom on the list to some extent with the exception of hoarding.
* Excessive devotion to work
I work 80 or more hours a week and would work more if I could. I know that one reason I do this is in order to distract myself from my problems but since I was a workaholic before all of my symptoms started I think it still applies.
* Inflexibility
Even as a kid I hated it when plans changed. My mom often talks about taking me to preschool and how I loved it when she picked me up- but only if I had prior warning. If she showed up to surprise me I would become hysterical because that was NOT the plan.
* Inability to throw things away, even when the objects have no value
Not so much, I do often keep things that I think might be useful later such as old class notes and stuff but eventually I throw them away.
* Lack of generosity
I am really not good at sharing.
* Limited expression of affection
I have never let anyone get too close. It scares the shit out of me when people do, especially guys.
* Perfectionism
yes.
* Preoccupation with details, rules, and lists
People constantly tease me about my need to make lists. I actually have lists of lists that I need to make. I keep my to-do list on my blackberry and also a written copy in my agenda. I recently became the manager of a small water park and I cannot go anywhere without my binder, even though I rarely actually need it. I will spend and hour re-formatting a document or spreadsheet that someone sends me before I print it... I could go on and on.
* Reluctance to allow others to do things
This has especially become a HUGE problem with my job. Not only am I stressing myself out trying to do everything myself but I am insulting those around me who are fully capable of performing tasks that I refuse to share.
Basically I was wondering if any of you have information about this condition or have any experience with it?